Now

I’ve been living in St. Johns, Oregon, since November 2018, where I recently spent the skidmark of my fiftieth birthmonth, and where I’ve adopted the local preference for continuing to refer to its as its own town rather than the Portland neighborhood it became.

Having just ended the third year since my autism diagnosis, I continue to have no traction in life and recently realized that I’ve hit a new and somewhat debilitating instance of autistic burnout, and a pretty substantial although not severe depression.

After years lost in the flummox of social media, I am trying to maintain an untriumpant return to regular, daily, old-school blogging more or less like we did back in the day, only this time hopefully with much less warblogging.

Medically-speaking, I’m hoping this past year’s urologic issues don’t return, waiting to convince a specialist to order a new scan before I will agree to a lymph node biopsy, continuing to put off tracking down the cause of fatigue issues because so many other medical issues keep coming up, hoping the new-to-me gout issues don’t flare up again, and trying to solve a chronic congestion that feels more like an inflammation.

I’ve had a fresh string of failures finding a mental health practitioner who both understands adult autism and is covered by coordinated care organization under the Oregon Health Plan, or at least might be prepared to be open and learn about adult autism as we go.

After years of procrastinating, I’m finally selling print-on-demand t-shirts modeled after and inspired by the classic “meh.” from the late, lamented Thinkgeek, to express your quiet disgruntlement.

Current reads on the Paperwhite: Because Internet: Understanding the New Rules of Language by Gretchen McCulloch; and The Deep by Rivers Solomon, Daveed Diggs, William Hutson, and Jonathan Snipes. Both are borrowed from the Multnomah County Library through OverDrive. I’ve read 56 books so far this year. You can read my highlights over on Goodreads.

This week’s television: Sunday: Patriot Act with Hasan Minhaj, Supegirl (the start of “Crisis on Infinite Earths”!), Mr. Robot; Monday: Batwoman, Black Lightning, Making It; Tuesday: The Flash, The Masked Singer, Making It; Wednesday: The Masked Singer, Nancy Drew, Making It; Thursday: Evil; Friday: The Expanse. My Battlestar Galactica rewatch is into season four now, and I’m still only halfway through the current season of She-Ra and the Princesses of Power. I’m still hoping soon to finish season three of Glitch and season one of Raising Dion, and to start in on season two of The End of the F***ing World, season four of The Man in the High Castle, and season three of The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel. Yes, I’ll be starting The Expanse when it drops on Friday despite my backlog of other shows. Runaways season three, which also drops Friday, will have to wait for the next time I grab a month of Hulu.

What is a “now page”?

Most websites have a link that says “about”. Most websites have a link that says “contact”. So a website with a link that says “now” goes to a page that tells you what this person is focused on at this point in their life. — Derek Sivers

This page is generated using the most recent posts to each of the Now category, the Reading category, and the Watching category.

Hello. My name is Bix. @bix