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2020-03-31: I’ve successfully avoided an evening of just eating an entire loaf of Como bread by putting frozen potatoes, squash, Brussels sprouts, and chicken onto the stove.

2020-03-31: Time for another round-up of what’s been piling up in my RSS and newsletter readers over the past day or so while I’ve somewhat lost my ability to focus or function properly. David Iscoe: One thing that I always remind myself is that in a world where most people die, the story …

2020-03-31: The latest word from the Oregon Health Authority is that “Federal stimulus payments […] will not affect OHP eligibility. They will not be counted […] when members report a change in their household”. Now I just need a ruling on SNAP benefits.

2020-03-31: I’d considered The Rise of Skywalker for tonight since there’s nothing of television but then realized I’m saving it for when my Sprint rewards re-up on FandangoNOW so I don’t have to spend any money on it at all.

2020-03-31: Current 📚: I’ve started reading Cities: The First 6,000 Years by Monica L. Smith; I’m still reading The Grief Keeper by Alexandra Villasante; and I’ve finished reading The Economists’ Hour by Binyamin Appelbaum. I’ve completed fifteen titles so far this year, …

2020-03-31: I’m struggling to embrace the irony that reading Mike Monteiro’s Ruined by Design on a Kobo will be a somewhat less than enjoyable experience because he only made it available for Kindle and so I had to run it through a conversion program that doesn’t quite …

2020-03-31: Republicans, one way or another, are going to kill us all.

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2020-03-31: Anyone have ideas why my Baseus wireless Bluetooth earbuds have started turning themselves off at random intervals? This includes when they are fully, freshly recharged. My sanity requires that these things work properly.

2020-03-31: Here’s an idea for when and where we should build a wall.

2020-03-31: Whatever week of the pandemic this is, it appears potentially to be the one where I have a hard time not just going back to sleep in the morning, and where I lose interest in food. This observation sponsored by the breakfast drink I had at 11:45am.

2020-03-30: I’m in my second year living in St. Johns and twenty-third year living in Portland. I’m in my fifty-first year of being alive and my fourth year as a diagnosed autistic. I’m in my third year of trying to figure out my health — my lymph nodes remain a question — …

2020-03-30: Jay, Kate, Mikhail, and Nika cordially invite you to Fyre Festival 2. Be sure to ask for an extra hour in the ball pit.

2020-03-30: Well, this is two nights in a row now that hitting “Post” on Micro.blog sent the post into the afterlife, never to be seen on earth.

2020-03-30: Well, I think the plan to install a screen door is a bust. The nonstandard dimensions of my doorframe make installing a 32”x80” door a non-starter, and none of the ones even remotely within even the outside of a prospective budget are safely trimmable to a size that …

2020-03-30: MSNBC just aired part of a conference call between Trump, Fauci, and governors. In response to the Democratic governor of Montana saying they simply do not have the tests (or the PPE) to test people, and that their potential supply chains are basically being undercut at the …

2020-03-30: Kobo observation: regular .epub seem fine, as do the native .kepub.epub, obviously; .azw3 converted to .epub, whether or not also then converted to .kepub.epub, do not. Today I literally bought the native Kobo of a Kindle edition I’d had and converted.

2020-03-30: The problem with Mine Furor saying the quiet part loud — in this case admitting that protecting voting rights would hurt Republicans — is that the press treats it as a Trump brain fart and not, in fact, the actual GOP agenda.

2020-03-30: Current 📚: I’ve started reading The Grief Keeper by Alexandra Villasante; I’m still reading The Economists’ Hour by Binyamin Appelbaum; and I’ve finished reading Future Tense Fiction edited by the editors of Future Tense (its issues at OverDrive finally having gotten …

2020-03-30: Surely this isn’t due to this?

2020-03-30: Good: A controversial Florida pastor who refused to stop holding packed church services, in violation of coronavirus restrictions, was arrested Monday by a local sheriff who said he was putting his followers’ lives at risk.

2020-03-30: You have to login to Instagram for this, but our neighborhood video game store has a nice, quick look at how life functions in St. Johns these days — echoed, I assume, in neighborhoods across the country.

2020-03-30: Delia Cai cautions you to “remind yourself that surviving in a time of incredible uncertainty is more than enough”.

2020-03-30: We continue to have a serious language problem when discussing autism. Sarah DeWeerdt — writing, of course, for Spectrum — is not describing autistic burnout, she is describing, variously, overload and overwhelm — important states but distinct from burnout. Autistic burnout is a …

2020-03-30: Seems like the right moment during staying-at-home to rewatch The Martian again. Surely if Mark Watney can manage being stranded on Mars, we can manage this. Be Mark Watney.

2020-03-30: Established in my Doctor Who dream overnight: the nearby universe knows well of our Magellanic Clouds, although not by that name because they don’t know from Magellan; they are called Sunee and Ray-Ray after a pair of famous cartoon guinea pigs, although not really guinea pigs …

2020-03-29: That feeling when the bandaid on your finger slips off the plunger for one of your three nasal sprays effectively causing you to punch yourself in the nose.

2020-03-29: I’ve let some stuff pile up in the RSS and newsletter readers again, so here we go with a quick roundup. I don’t seem to have any fixed format for these posts; it’s whatever strikes me as suitable for the batch. Nadia Eghbal: It felt as if the insides of my …

2020-03-29: Three dormant storefronts on the main drag in downtown St. Johns, although one of them was in the slow process of becoming a coffeeshop (after getting flooded out of their location nearby) when the pandemic hit.

2020-03-29: More from today’s pandemic walk around downtown St. Johns while listening to Olivia Cornell & the Precious’ “Filthy Things”.

2020-03-29: I am trying to enjoy the High Fidelity series, but it’s very, very tough to try to watch it fairly, especially because I think Cusack was more natural at the fourth-wall thing than is Kravitz, but also because some of the performance choices seem too forcibly “make a …

2020-03-29: Looking out and across the St. Johns Bridge toward Forest Park and the world beyond during a Sunday walk through a Spring pandemic afternoon.

2020-03-29: Given that already a woman in New York has been murdered over social distancing decorum, how long before Mine Furor’s claims that nurses are hoarding masks gets someone killed?

2020-03-29: This is where I’ve been spending the pandemic, which also mostly is where I spend all the other times, too.

2020-03-29: It’s an illusion that the road is long and there’s no shoulder to lean on. —Olivia Cornell & the Precious, “Black Ice”

2020-03-29: I was going to mention that this week will see me watch the only Star Wars film in my entire life that I waited until I could rent it at home, but I forgot Solo — which is so very on-brand for that movie.

2020-03-29: This week on 📺 I’m watching Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist, 9-1-1, Dispatches from Elsewhere, Briarpatch, The Masked Singer, Motherland: Fort Salem, The Magicians, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, and Better Things. I’ve slowed down watching season …

2020-03-29: The bad: someone had smashed in the glass on the door to Peninsula Station (our local mailbox and shipping place). The good: someone already had stopped and was waiting in their car for the owner, who’d they’d called.

2020-03-29: I’ve discovered part of why I don’t really listen to podcasts: it’s a combination of impatience and an overwhelming desire to interject. Sorry, everyone who has podcasts.

2020-03-28: Currently listening to Filthy Things by Olivia Cornell & the Precious, the former of which I knew in college and I should really dig up my audio tape of The Tom Vick Trio playing SUNY Purchase’s coffeehouse.

2020-03-28: That’s why we’re here: to save each other. –Star Trek: Picard, “Et in Arcadia Ego, Part 2”

2020-03-28: After a hard crash on the couch, I went on a surgical strike for pie and ended up with pie and Newtons, because the latter were on sale, so now I have pie and tiny pie.

2020-03-28: i wish that there were door-to-door pie salesmen, and that a door-to-door pie salesman was about to knock on my door.

2020-03-28: Today’s stay-at-home, social distancing “outing” on my tiny front landing, with book and coffee.

2020-03-28: My cognitive load these days is higher than I’ve been admitting to myself. I can tell because, at this point, my inability to get words correct has had a dramatic increase. Even when I deliberately proofread.

2020-03-28: Things I now have said to my cat: “Do you have to follow my hand wherever it goes? I’m getting some toilet paper; I think this is the point at which you stop following my hands with your face.”

2020-03-28: Oregon Health Authority and Wieden+Kennedy have unveiled a blunt campaign (via The Oregonian) imploring Oregonians not to “accidentally kill someone”. Watch the brutal “Numbers” spot and the more upbeat “Heroes” spot.

2020-03-28: Every attorney general in America should launch an immediate investigation into Yelp and GoFundMe. “Business owners have all kinds of different ways that they want to handle the financial impact,” Carson said. “I don’t think it’s appropriate for any business to make a decision …

2020-03-28: My long-lost Serenity fan comic (iCloud link to PDF) answers the question: What’s the connection between the mysterious footage of River Tam’s experience as an Alliance test subject and the hacker known as Mr. Universe?

2020-03-28: Paul Bausch found a good one yesterday: Scott Berinato, writing for Harvard Business Review, on naming things: yes, what you’re feeling lately is grief.

2020-03-28: As a pandemic measure, letting Oregonians pump their own gas for the next two weeks seems entirely backwards to me. It means more hands touching the pumps. What is the argument for doing this, exactly?

2020-03-27: ‪The fuller-resolution files are on that archive drive I can’t power properly off the MacBook Air but I managed to find a copy of my Serenity fan comic, which ties the R. Tam Sessions into the movie, albeit kind of sideways and sneaky-like.

2020-03-27: Having finished the Firefly rewatch on Wednesday, tonight I’ll complete things with the requisite Serenity rewatch. For what it’s worth I also once recorded a commentary for this, in addition to my “Ariel” commentary.

2020-03-27: I can’t find it now, but this morning I read that the direct cash payments do count against income limits for various social welfare benefits, so my expectation right now is that it will impact my SNAP allotment. What I don’t know is whether it will only impact it for …

2020-03-27: “Hey, Alex: do you think steroids would help?”

2020-03-27: So, one half of this one particular couple at Safeway stood in my way at the cream cheese while he waited in an otherwise completely empty aisle, and then the other half when in the self-checkout line kept putting her finger to her mouth and then touch packages of jerky to see if …

2020-03-27: Oh no: that Lovecraft adaptation starring Nicolas Cage is watchable for free with your library card.

2020-03-27: I don’t know what happened but that fan letter to martial law on my local Nextdoor seems to have been deleted. I only ever got to see the comment about hoping 2.3 billion die.

2020-03-27: Phone case arrived, prescriptions (minus what’s experiencing shortages) arrived, extra cat food and cat litter has shipped; now I just need those empty replacement frames from Zenni which they’re just sitting on for some reason.

2020-03-27: Welp. At least three separate pastors have died in recent days after testing positive for the new coronavirus, including two who raised concern that the virus was being used as a tool of the devil to manipulate the masses or silence Christians. One thought God would use His …

2020-03-27: Yikes. McMenamins, after laying off thousands, tells remaining employees it can’t make payroll and anyone with a check shouldn’t try to cash it until next Wednesday.

2020-03-27: People had ransacked the grapefruit-flavored seltzer the other day so I was left having to buy “mixed berry” and it is spectacularly not good and now I have a problem.

2020-03-27: Some of what’s been piling up in my RSS and newsletter apps while I’ve been struggling through a two-day depression that hopefully social distances from me today. Inga Saffron explores the role of Philadelphia’s public spaces during the pandemic (and asks why …

2020-03-27: Here’s another good example of the quasi-adage that if you’ve met an autistic person you know one autistic person. This has not been my experience of the world of social distancing at all, and, what’s more, neither is it my experience of routines; just this week …

2020-03-27: My local Grocery Outlet has done something exceedingly questionable today: invited the Killer Burger Truck to be on-site — effectively creating a novel attraction that will draw people into congregating. Why? Why do this?

2020-03-27: While I haven’t yet actually even found one that will fit the oddly-dimensioned doorframe, the property owner has approved my request to add a screen door to my front entrance. I won’t find one with these dimensions; it’d have to be one that can withstand being cut down an inch …

2020-03-26: Somehow I have $6 in Apple Store credit — a mere $243 short of those active noise canceling earbuds!

2020-03-26: Finally remembered to ask my doctor for guidance on alcohol interactions with any of my meds. Nothing is a “not ever”, especially since on the rare occasion I even want a drink anymore it’s literally that: a drink. Now where’d that bourbon go…

2020-03-26: Internet, I made you a GIF.

2020-03-26: I’m trying to more or less dump pretty much everything I have by way of Documents and Downloads on my MacBook Air onto a thumb drive to get it out of my mental space. I’m on overload, some serious, hard overwhelm, and I’m flailing for a thing to control.

2020-03-26: I really wish the press would stop reporting that the U.S. now has X cases. That number is just the number of confirmed-by-test cases. The real number is higher than that. Maybe much, much higher than that.

2020-03-26: Even it couldn’t save me today.

2020-03-26: So that Nextdoor post about wanting martial law was replied to by a poster who further hopes “for a purge of at least a third of this planet’s human population”, a return to the gold standard, and the abolition of government.

2020-03-26: Just found the below middle-of-the-night notes from a dream I had two months ago. Aircraft overhead trying smoke run to outer side is a small space shuttle it arcs up and crashed into river. Crowd gathers kept back by cops. We discuss Russian shuttle program. Cops say it’s all …

2020-03-26: Time for a mental health rewatch of Tim Robbins’ Cradle Will Rock.

2020-03-26: I guess today is not going to be better than yesterday.

2020-03-26: How long before Mine Furor tries to fire the Fed chair for echoing Dr. Fauci that “the virus is going to set the timetable”?

2020-03-26: And I just read my first Nextdoor plea for martial law because the poster can’t afford to be out of work much longer.

2020-03-26: Good news, everyone! The lens just fell out of the eyeglasses frames which broke yesterday(?) that I “fixed” with electrical tape while hoping Zenni Optical doesn’t drag its feet on replacement frames!

2020-03-26: Yelp and GoFundMe are launching fundraising pages for small businesses without their knowledge or consent and making it difficult for them to opt-out, requiring personal data before agreeing to take pages down. The rights of local businesses to control their own financial …

2020-03-26: I just tried to watch the latest Biden video but they couldn’t even get the oft-repeated phrase “flatten the curve” right.

2020-03-26: The inertia is strong this morning.

2020-03-26: Most of my interconnected dreams across the night involved The Magicians. This morning they revolved around a doctor’s appointment without sufficient instruction; I’d had to wear a paper bag in lieu of underpants.

2020-03-25: This shot from tonight’s episode of The Magicians: Alice, singing the sadness and sorrow of the Peter Gabriel verses of “Don’t Give Up”, is lit cool; Eliot, singing the hope and encouragement of the Kate Bush choruses, is lit warm.

2020-03-25: Today was bad and I need tomorrow to be better.

2020-03-25: It would be great self-isolation viewing were Showtime and David Lynch to release a single, uninterrupted, eighteen-hour cut of Twin Peaks: The Return.

2020-03-25: Me, today, but in my head.

2020-03-25: “Well; here I am.” Thus ends my first Firefly rewatch in, I think, several years, at least. I see all of its flaws all the more clearly for all the time away, but — turns out, I am still a Browncoat.

2020-03-25: Peak pandemic has been reached in Portlandia as the press checks in on how our professional cuddler is doing.

2020-03-25: Good news, everyone! I am going to run out of cat food and cat litter because Chewy can’t keep up with pandemic demand. Sorry, cats. I’ll try to keep you from starving to death and pissing all over my apartment, somehow.

2020-03-25: It’s weird how you can feel heavy and hollow at the same time.

2020-03-25: This morning someone asked me if I wanted an old Xbox 360, and this afternoon I realized why, exactly, it was that I did not: in all my life, I’ve never solved or completed a game. Not once. The games I played the most when I was younger, for example, were not videogames but …

2020-03-25: It was last Wednesday when the wider, general social cost hit me; I coined the term social cost sticker shock to describe it. This morning, one week later, the personal cost is hitting me, of having nowhere to go. There’s no need to coin a term for this: I am depressed.

2020-03-25: And then an Oregon doctor calls for intentional infection to beat SARS-CoV-2. I’m sorry, I mean an Oregon dermatologist.

2020-03-25: Oregon’s health agency is failing to report — or in some cases even collect — SARS-CoV-2 pandemic stats other states openly provide.

2020-03-25: I’m sure if I devoted energy to this I could figure it out, but does anyone have handy what should be the order of Firefly episodes? By which I mean in the back half, Inara’s hair changes and clearly, say, “Heart of Gold” actually happens before episodes like …

2020-03-25: Anyone want to explain how I managed to wrench my left shoulder just by sleeping? It’s a steady, localized ache.

2020-03-25: Willamette Week runs down how Oregon Governor Brown got pushed into issuing a statewide stay-at-home order.

2020-03-25: Daniel Harvey describes a manifesto for “society centered design” (which has its own website); its authors hope it can help “designers, technologists, and business leaders” stop setting the world on fire.

2020-03-25: An important message from your Doctor.

2020-03-24: We still need to see if the Republicans managed to keep any poison pills in there, and if the emergency vote-by-mail provisions were kept in, but negotiators reached a deal on a coronavirus bill. The latest $2-trillion stimulus bill is expected to include direct payments of …

2020-03-24: It’s distressing, maddening, saddening, exhausting, genuinely tragic. Lots of people are going to die. There’s so much wrong with what Patrick said – callous, eugenicist, immoral, based on false premises, obscures the real problem and motives, straight up evil – but one that …

2020-03-24: J. E. LaCaze has some curious musings on privilege in the context of the social distancing measures enacted during the ongoing SARS-CoV-2 pandemic that challenge my notions of privilege; perhaps “complicate” is a better word. Before the order for social distancing, I …

2020-03-24: Noting that “now more than ever we need people to just unashamedly love something”, Tom Critchlow links to some thoughts about blogging by Robin Sloan. The thing about blogging is, you can just write about the things you love. A “professional” “critic” (scare quotes …

2020-03-24: I didn’t mean to take a full walk this afternoon; I’d just meant to run an errand. But in the process I ran across this mural I’d somehow not before encountered. Addenda iPhone 11 ultra-wide lens, plus Lightroom geometry adjustments. I’m already in love.

2020-03-24: Good news, everyone! My eyeglasses frames just broke.

2020-03-24: So that sound like a motorcycle that just freaked me out in my own living room? It was Willow, a housecat, growling at something in her sleep atop the cat tree.

2020-03-24: Up the Down Slide (A 'Firefly' Audio Commentary) I’m currently doing a rewatch of the 📺 series Firefly and having just reached Jose Molina’s “Ariel”, I thought I’d repost here an audio commentary track I recorded for the episode back in 2006 for Big Damn Commentaries, a website I ran for …

2020-03-24: Meru models the iPhone 11’s ability to properly get Portrait Mode photos of housecats.

2020-03-24: Today I learned that UPS finally added a delivery tracking map, like Amazon has had for awhile now. Directly related: I’ve upgrade my leased Sprint phone from the iPhone XR to the iPhone 11; it’s the same monthly lease price but better camera hardware and software.

2020-03-24: There’s a god damned CNN Business article about so-called grocery influencers (via Andy McIlwain). Allow me to bring in my bastardized Leslie Knope once more.

2020-03-24: Just look at the two alerts below Mine Furor’s latest death cult announcement and tell me everything is going to be fine.

2020-03-23: Having only just realized (denial?) that this year is the tenth anniversary of the late, lamented 📺 show Terriers, I am holding off on the rewatch until September 8, when it premiered. I might even resurrect the fan account on Twitter.

2020-03-23: I see that we have reached the slightly creepy commercials of corporations telling us they’ve got our backs phase of the pandemic emergency.

2020-03-23: Remember folks: most of these Twitter memes about introverts of late? They’re about the asocial, not the introverted. Introverts appreciate and/or want sociality, too; it just exhausts us, and it helps to have choice and control — something none of us, introvert and …

2020-03-23: Anyone else just recently pickup the stay-at-home habit of refreshing their Amazon Prime Now cart waiting for a delivery window to open up?

2020-03-23: My favorite of all the Firefly flashbacks in “Out of Gas” is how Mal “found” Kaylee. For all of how backwards and assholic Mal can be, especially when it comes to Inara, he’s got utterly no judgment about why Kaylee was on the ship to begin with, …

2020-03-23: So, this is fun. The lieutenant governor of Texas literally says that old people should risk and potentially sacrifice themselves for the sake of the economy. Addenda This is fascism.

2020-03-23: I keep seeing some people go, “You know, it’s happened before that during wartime a president served more than two terms.” Yes, that’s true, but only because it wasn’t unconstitutional until after FDR did it. If we just stupidly concede that wartime presidents can …

2020-03-23: Has anyone actually checked to make sure Fauci isn’t in some gulag somewhere or something.

2020-03-23: Observations from Day One of the stay-at-home order in St. Johns, Oregon: Safeway is far more ransacked than it was just two days ago. I wish I’d taken notes in the canned beans aisle; clearly there are types of beans people just do not want. There are pink 6-foot markers …

2020-03-23: Well, okay, now I’ve got problems. Kaiser pharmacy called, and one of my sinus sprays and my reflux meds are unavailable, with no ETA. That last one, especially, smarts.

2020-03-23: The political problem right now is that even if Trump does nothing, he can pantomime using the levers of government power to help people. Biden apparently is stuck with failing teleprompters and visible, panicky hand signals.

2020-03-23: Finally, Oregon has its stay-at-home order from our foot-dragging governor. I don’t have many adjustments to make.

2020-03-23: This morning I got up after the 8:00am alarm to feed the cats, then caught up online from the phone for a bit, and apparently then fell back to sleep because the next thing I knew it was quarter-to-one. This might be the day I don’t get dressed for the day, except that I …

2020-03-23: ‪I finally did the predictive-text Biden speech thing.‬ “Look, here’s the deal: that you have it to do it and you have to pay it to get it done.”‬ ‪It checks out.‬

2020-03-22: Who was the smartass writer on tonight’s Supergirl who thought to start a eulogy with the words, “Jeremiah was a—”?

2020-03-22: This week on 📺 I’m watching Batwoman, Supergirl, Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist, 9-1-1, Dispatches from Elsewhere, Briarpatch, The Masked Singer, Motherland: Fort Salem, The Magicians, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee, Star Trek: Picard, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, The Bold Type, and …

2020-03-22: There’s a whole lot of bad will coming out of Goodwill Industries of the Columbia-Willamette. Maybe they need to hear from you.

2020-03-22: I went and bought a collapsing chair with the expectation that the property manager for my mother-in-law apartment will return with news from the owner that I can install a basic screen door (presuming I can find an affordable one that fits), so that I can sit outside with coffee …

2020-03-22: Our local game shop gives a tour of downtown St. Johns on a Saturday night during social distancing measures.

2020-03-22: Eighteen years on, this still probably is my all-time favorite shot from any episode of Firefly.

2020-03-22: So, lost in the marshes of the pandemic is the muddle of the Biden campaign which has been absent for days in part because they’ve apparently got no idea how to move quickly or even how to get Biden a decent streaming set-up at home.

2020-03-22: The big thing in today’s Oregonian coronovirus newsletter is that the mayors of Oregon coastal towns are shutting down everything they can and telling tourists to get the fuck out.

2020-03-22: I tried to go buy latex gloves but they only had these ones for people with one giant finger, and they were ribbed for some reason?

2020-03-22: The other day the workers behind my house in the next lot were listening to something that sounded like Mexican oompahpah and that’s how I learned about banda and it actually was a pretty good escape and now I want banda recommendations?

2020-03-22: Not for nothing but this move by Labatt Breweries is exactly the sort of thing we could institute by law here in the United States under the Defense Production Act, but Mine Furor is more interested in suspending habeas corpus.

2020-03-22: Thanks to the latest Radical Urbanist, I learned that Verso Books is holding a “reading in a time of self-isolation” sale where ebooks are 80% off, making most of them just $2.00. I just picked up (links still go to my Bookshop affiliates link; you can find these on …

2020-03-22: Oh great. Mine Furor’s trumpeting of unproven hydroxychloroquine claims are starting to cause shortages, which is a problem for, among others, people with lupus.

2020-03-22: While hundreds of Oregonians flock to the coast — endangering retirees in the process — Oregon Governor Brown reportedly is “frustrated” that Oregonians aren’t being smarter, literally while herself resisting pressure to issue a statewide stay-at-home order. …

2020-03-22: I finally got around to asking the property management company if I could install a screen door on my mother-in-law cottage, and they have to ask the owner but it at least wasn’t something they knew to be an automatic denial. Originally I’d thought I’d need a storm door, which …

2020-03-21: To be fair, my Pandemic Footprint right now effectively is the same as my pre-pandemic footprint.

2020-03-21: Well, this is unsatisfying. I wanted to connect the USB drive with all my old photography on it, but it has one of those two-headed USB cables, and of course on the MacBook AIr the USB ports are on opposite sides of the housing. So I have no way to access this drive.

2020-03-21: Curse My Sudden But Inevitable Betrayal So, here’s the story of my biggest fandom regret. Towards the end of my deep time in Joss Whedon fandom came the tenth anniversary of Firefly in 2012. By that time, I’d been around that show’s fan community since the Fox-run “OB” as it was called …

2020-03-21: I can’t find a single comfort food anything to watch.

2020-03-21: Sarah Mirk’s zine today is sort of what keeps nagging at me, especially given the recent debate wherein even in the midst of a rising pandemic, the rallying cry was that we simply address the emergency, and any systemic or structural considerations were to be deferred. …

2020-03-21: On today’s briefer walk around downtown St. Johns, I spotted the two old guys who tend to play chess outside The Great North coffeeshop, which is closed (and not pictured), instead playing at the built-in tables outside the dive bar Slim’s, also closed.

2020-03-21: Novel Coronovirus: 1, Third Places: 0 What I was getting at earlier today was that even actually-autistic people with social anxiety and performance distress (let alone those who also are introverts) have regular and familiar places other than home or work which form a crucial part of the identity of our routine …

2020-03-21: I can’t even. Just as it seems as if today there will be neither construction on the next property over nor powerwashing at the property behind, my next-door neighbor is running some sort of, I don’t know, commercial wet-vac maybe? My autistic brain really needs a …

2020-03-21: By the way, elected officials: “mom and pop” small businesses also are a too-big-to-fail backbone industry. Not a single small shop in my neighborhood should be allowed to go under because of the pandemic. Not one.

2020-03-21: It’s all in the headline: “Oregon trumpeted 20,000 new coronavirus tests. It lacks a way to get them to the lab.” Addenda Oh, there’s more: “Best way to track coronavirus severity? Hospitalizations. Oregon stopped reporting them.”

2020-03-21: One way in which the SARS-CoV-2 pandemic has changed my blogging: I’ve too much to read and not enough wherewithal in my brain to say much about any of it. So, instead, these round-up posts. “This isn’t a temporary disruption,” argues Gideon Lichfield. …

2020-03-21: There is an item on my calendar for today: Breakfast Out, John Street Cafe, 11:00am; I go every Saturday. It’s whose mirror made yesterday’s walk photo. Much of me is built on routine. (Or, cognitive rigidity, if you like.) I’m not sure what to do with myself.

2020-03-20: I’ve started reading Future Tense Fiction edited by the editors of Future Tense (in regular side-loaded .epub because OverDrive still hasn’t fixed the publication date on their listing for it); I’m still reading The Economists’ Hour by Binyamin Appelbaum; and I’ve …

2020-03-20: Sigh.

2020-03-20: Dan Hon has the right idea: White House briefings should be presented in “an MTV Pop-Up Video style […] complete with a) references, b) little graphs and most crucially, c) receipts for calling out all the bullshit and lies”.

2020-03-20: It’s possible that I am getting into the routine of a daily walk up through downtown St. Johns and back again. Today I noticed that the Blue Bird Tavern (not pictured here) is taking advantage of the forced closure to do some remodeling.

2020-03-20: Today I received my census invitation online code in the mail, and honestly it was a bit anticlimactic, the actually filling out the form part.

2020-03-20: What is happening here in Oregon and why? The governor makes a deal with a private lab for 20,000 tests. Two days later, neither party will even say when the state will have the first 5,600 of them. Meanwhile, going back a couple weeks now, but with increasing evidence, experts …

2020-03-20: This morning I took the clippers and the 1/16” guard to my entire head, excepting eyebrows. Whether it’s for spring or for the pandemic I couldn’t tell you.

2020-03-20: Netflix throws $100 million at a relief fund for people in the industry thrown out of work due to the pandemic, focusing on below-the-line crew.

2020-03-20: A well-off neigborhood in Connecticut managed to NIMBY drive-through testing for SARS-CoV-2. As far as I’m concerned, a median income of $199,444/year qualifies Darien for Eat The Rich.

2020-03-20: Leah Finnegan notes that unlike during the Spanish Flu at least women today can wear pants; she also shares a letter by her great-great grandmother from a family deathbed during that pandemic.

2020-03-19: I’m curious about when people are hitting certain realization points. For me it was yesterday morning and what I termed social cost sticker shock. Someone I know online said for them it was today that was “like all the cumulative isolation stress arrived at …

2020-03-19: Jay Rosen presents the editorial message not one American news operation will publish or present as their own.

2020-03-19: Okay, so who wants to figure out how to make me one of these fu face masks out of a meh. t-shirt?

2020-03-19: It’s always possible that this is just the first-stage of Bookshop’s ebook solution, but if it’s the extent of it, it’s wildly disappointing. I noticed a GET THE EBOOK link on Bookshop’s page for A Song for a New Day and it seems that they are using …

2020-03-19: I just can’t with this headline: Trump Told Governors to Buy Own Virus Supplies, Then Outbid Them.

2020-03-19: The “hilarious” thing about performative nihilism is not just that it almost always comes from a position of privilege but that its performer always seems to think they somehow are unique in their display.

2020-03-19: QuarantineChat. We simulate the magic of having a surprise conversation with someone—something that is becoming increasingly rare during the times of a viral epidemic.

2020-03-19: I’ve been waiting for the St. Johns Cinema marquee to change, and so today on my walk around the neighborhood I see it has, finally.

2020-03-19: And I guess that season five of The Blacklist is the point at which they make otherwise intelligent characters so unfathomably stupid in the name of maintaining their mysteries at all costs, including the cost of insulting my intelligence and patience, that while I’ll …

2020-03-19: Ever since being reminded that A Song for a New Day “turns out to be the perfect thing to read in a rising pandemic”, I’ve casually been watching how social distancing measures affect sociality and consumption. Along comes this CNBC report. If social distancing caused by …

2020-03-19: It’s here where we can find an analogue to the infinite scroll. No matter how many different platforms there are or hashtags or columns on Tweetdeck, few places on the web serendipitously invite us to stop and sit still. Everything pulls at our attention all at once, creating a …

2020-03-19: A few days ago I noted Brad Enslen noting that it’s possible to design cities that can accommodate sociality even during social distancing measures. Two relevant items came across Places Wire yesterday. In the first, Michael Kimmelman, writing for The New York Times, …

2020-03-19: My yesterday went more smoothly once I decided not to ignore my pile of RSS and newsletter subscriptions, but to triage and post interesting things all in one go, and then move on with my day. So, here’s what the morning brings. Evangeline Lilly is a moron. Bayer will …

2020-03-18: I’m here for The Magicians promoting their final musical episode with One Last Time With Feeling.

2020-03-18: It’s pretty disorienting that the symptoms of a mild case of COVID-19 essentially mimic those of my seasonal allergies.

2020-03-18: And the CDC is up on the air with public service announcements about coronavirus. I saw this during The Masked Singer.

2020-03-18: So, if you’re widening your streaming horizons during social distancing measures, I’m going to reiterate that you should take your library card to Hoopla Digital and watch the Along with the Gods series, The Two Worlds and The Last 49 Days. I’m not especially …

2020-03-18: Diced butternut squash (frozen), petite Brussels sprouts (frozen), diced chicken breast (pre-cooked), golden sweet corn (canned), peanut oil, salt, pepper, chili powder.

2020-03-18: Holy shit, fuck Michael Saylor of “business intelligence” firm Microstrategy and every single other person in this report. Eat. The. Rich.

2020-03-18: Current state of the web forum project I’m continuing to mull as part of getting back to “the web of places”; I’ve finally nailed down the god damned color palette which has been driving me crazy for days on end, I think.

2020-03-18: Amazing. Drive-in theaters have long been viewed as an anachronistic diversion — perhaps worthy of an occasional visit, if that. Now, though, several among the country’s 305 drive-in theaters are experiencing a surge in interest amid the closure of other entertainment options …

2020-03-18: My local Safeway is pretty stocked up, except for pasta and toilet paper. The deli guys told me they are going to stop carrying the turkey pastrami I buy because it’s cheap; I literally am the only person buying it. It’s good to be known for something.

2020-03-18: Fucking hell, just do Eurovision by Skype!

2020-03-18: I feel that I should tell Matthew Bogart that I’ve recently reconnected with my internet BBS community from the mid-90s (not even an ANSI-color thing) on IRC because of the pandemic, and I’m now introducing them to Incredible Doom.

2020-03-18: Me too, Willow. Me too.

2020-03-18: Protip: Sure, there are several jokes one could make about that Chinese slur from a White House staffer which themselves invoke Chinese slurs, but unless you yourself are Chinese maybe don’t make them? 😬

2020-03-18: Spotted in today’s Oregonian coronavirus email: “Do these pepperoni and veggie pizzas from Pizza Schmizza look tempting? One of the Portland company’s locations is offering a $15 special that includes a side of toilet paper.”

2020-03-18: Despite the social cost sticker shock I woke up with this morning, I have so far managed to get up, do the dishes, make coffee, have instant oatmeal and frozen sausage (which is why I had to do the dishes), get cleaned up, get dressed, and clean the litter.

2020-03-18: All the blogs and newsletters to which I subscribe have been piling up admist living through all the SARS-CoV-2 stuff. I’ve mostly just been hanging out on IRC with people from my first-ever online community. Here’s a list of maybe-interesting stuff that I just pulled …

2020-03-18: Powell’s Books lays off almost entire company.

2020-03-18: I devised a term for what I earlier called the “pandemic depression” with which I woke up: social cost sticker shock. I find that sometimes language helps you grasp onto a thing so it doesn’t just float free around in your brain. My gift, if it helps.

2020-03-18: Ah, so, okay, this morning I guess we are doing the pandemic depression at my house. Got it.

2020-03-17: An open letter from Patrick Allen, director of the Oregon Health Authority.

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2020-03-17: Well, this is a thing. Nevada just closed casinos for thirty days.

2020-03-17: Current status of the web forum thing I’ve been tinkering with to try to regain a bit of the web of places that used to be more common.

2020-03-17: Me and my autistic sensory issues currently are enjoying the power-washing behind me that kicked in just about when the incessant construction sounds next door stopped, because sure, why not give me more stressful inputs right now.

2020-03-17: Holy shit. McMenamins just laid off “nearly 3,000 employees – almost everyone at the company”.

2020-03-17: Every single tutorial for Replace Color in Photoshop Elements 14 provides the exact same steps, and never once have these steps resulted in the color I want replaced being replaced with the color with which I want it replaced; not once.

2020-03-17: Axios reports on a New England Journal of Medicine study that says SARS-CoV-2 “remains infectious in the air for up to three hours, on copper for up to four hours, on cardboard for up to 24 hours, and on plastic and stainless steel for up to three days”.

2020-03-17: My 🦠 pandemic soundtrack has moved on to Cowboy Junkies (Whites Off Earth Now through Black Eyed Man), replacing R.E.M. (Murmur through Monster) for now.

2020-03-17: According to today’s Oregonian coronavirus newsletter, 740 people have been tested, with 51 positives; that’s 6.8%. Up in Washington they’ve tested 12,486 people, with 904 positives; that’s 7.2%. We’ve been increasingly tracking Washington’s …

2020-03-17: Walking into some of downtown St. Johns’ food establishments is like walking into an empty dance studio. Today I grabbed a latte from The Great North, a pot pie from Paiku, and passed by Stormbreaker Brewing on my way back home.

2020-03-17: To help battle the SARS-CoV-2 pandemic, CVS now will print their receipts on disinfectant wipes.

2020-03-17: Here’s a spoiler: Bernie Sanders is right. Or rather, the political philosophy Sanders has spent a lifetime championing is right. Threats like the coronavirus are not as rare as they seem; they are likely to get less rare; and they make the case for a more social-democratic form …

2020-03-17: Funny. Yesterday on my walk, I passed Bluebird Tavern, with a taped-up paper sign in the window reading: Open during pandemic!! Sure enough a photo turned up on Willamette Week this morning.

2020-03-17: This is unconscionable. This person has no claims to not being named.

2020-03-17: What I missed in yesterday’s news that Oregon finally was restricting restaurants, bars, and gatherings was that our four largest health care providers are banding together to coordinate care and resources during the SARS-CoV-2 pandemic. Providence Health Systems, Kaiser …

2020-03-16: My gallbladder ultrasound results got posted today. The polyps remain almost exactly as they were a year ago, so basically we just do this again in a year.

2020-03-16: Has anyone creative with food taken all these photos of items people are leaving on the shelves and designed any surprisingly terrific recipes from them?

2020-03-16: Interesting. St. Johns Coffee Roasters just posted to Instagram, specifically in a pandemic context, “We are restructuring how our business works.” Details still to come. I wonder what they are thinking.

2020-03-16: Web forum organizational question: there are Primary tags, and Secondary tags. You can put Secondary tags beneath Primary tags (they then only can be used within that Primary tag), or leave them “free-floating”, as it were. I’m currently leaning towards only …

2020-03-16: All the people gather Fly to carry each his burden,     we are young despite the years We are concerned,     we are hope despite the times All of a sudden, these days,     happy throngs, take this joy Wherever, …

2020-03-16: Oregon catches up, finally.

2020-03-16: I’ve started reading If You Take My Meaning by Charlie Jane Anders; I’m still reading The Economists’ Hour by Binyamin Appelbaum; and I’ve finished reading The Sky Is Yours by Chandler Klang Smith. I’ve completed twelve 📚 so far this year, with seven waiting in my queue.

2020-03-16: I want to reiterate how out of touch is Governor Brown. Yesterday she saw no need to restrict bars and restaurants; almost immediately Washington did just that, as did various cities around the country. This morning she stood her ground; almost immediately, the federal government …

2020-03-16: Brad Enslen notes that we could design cities resiliant enough to allow for social distancing that nonetheless still accommodate sociality.

2020-03-16: I swear to god, someday some enterprising reporter is going to drop a story on the botched SARS-CoV-2 response in Oregon that’s going to get them a Pulitzer.

2020-03-16: So even the federal outlook now is that we’re looking at things lasting until July or August if we do everything right? The way Oregon does things, we will close the bars in May.

2020-03-16: Wow. Portland’s own XOXO 2020 festival is canceled. It isn’t until September. But the Andys’ reasoning is sound, if unfortunate for people.

2020-03-16: Well, okay. So. Governor Brown says no to restrictions on bars and restaurants. Not even a curfew. How wrong is this? I just called the governor’s office and left a comment. Me. Call her consistuent services line at (503) 378-4582.

2020-03-16: When I went to bed last night, Oregon Governor Kate Brown had last said she was tending toward not closing restaurants and bars, at which point a bunch of cities and states then closed their restaurants and bars. She was supposed to talk to the press again this morning; did that …

2020-03-16: Awake.

2020-03-15: What I was trying to get at earlier is this: it’s precisely because our economy is structured in a way that keeps the American people on a day-to-day basis one or two paychecks away from being underwater that we have to take such drastic national measures to address the …

2020-03-15: Ton Zijlstra reminded me (scroll down} that I’d only just recently recommended Sarah Pinsker’s A Song for a New Day which “turns out to be the perfect thing to read in a rising pandemic”, and it’s true: the book literally is about a near future where …

2020-03-15: Pleased to discover that my walk down to the river for photos of the St. Johns Bridge during Saturday’s snowfall very definitely was not a complete waste after all, because look at these.

2020-03-15: This week on 📺 I’m watching Batwoman, Supergirl, Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist, 9-1-1, Dispatches from Elsewhere, Briarpatch, The Flash, DC’s Legends of Tomorrow, The Masked Singer, Motherland: Fort Salem, The Magicians, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee, Star Trek: …

2020-03-15: It’s profoundly depressing that Joe Biden seems almost intentionally determined to not see that a large reason why this national emergency is so unsettling for people, and why so many people are insecure in the face of it, is because of pre-existing systemic issues with our …

2020-03-15: So the CDC recommends no gathering of more than 50 people…but then exempts schools and businesses, the very places we are most likely ever to gather in groups of more than 50 people?

2020-03-15: SARS-CoV-2 has caused an IRC reunion of my original internet community of the mid-90s, so naturally I set the /topic to It takes a nation^H^H^H^H^H^H virus of millions to hold^H^H^H^H bring us back.

2020-03-15: Just added two more posters to my Social Distancing Is Community Protection set on Dropbox.

2020-03-15: Honestly, the biggest challenge for me is going to be not getting ahead of myself on SNAP purchases, unless I’m getting non-perishables that I’d normally get at some point along the way anyway. I’m already slightly ahead of where I should be mid-month, but I …

2020-03-15: There’s one thing I cannot do without during social distancing measures: I was about to run out of all coffee, caffeinated and decaffeinated, and coffee filters. My brief trip out also brought lingering signs of yesterday’s snowfall.

2020-03-15: I was going to link this Noah Brier piece about how caffeine works, exactly, including how and why withdrawal happens, but instead I’m linking it because it’s where I found out about this rotary cellphone that you can build from a kit.

2020-03-15: Remember: if you see this happen, there’s not nearly enough social distancing at tonight’s Democratic debate.

2020-03-15: Proposed question for tonight’s debate: would America’s responsiveness to SARS-CoV-2 have been different had your healthcare proposal already been in place? If so, how; if not, why not?

2020-03-15: This is going to be tougher for me than I thought, this whole thing with SARS-CoV-2 and social distancing. I’d pretty quickly gotten my head around the idea that I’d have to call off my weekly trip to the zoo, but — ironically, given both my particular autistic …

2020-03-15: I actually forgot there was a debate tonight.

2020-03-15: My most imminent and most urgent shortage is coffee grounds and coffee filters.

2020-03-15: The reality of the novel coronavirus pandemic is sinking in as our infections continue to rise. Still, a number of people insist that alarm about the pandemic is political, whipped up by the media to weaken the president. When New York Representative Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez …

2020-03-15: The three Oregon professors who more than anyone else are responsible for kicking the state into social distancing gear also penned an open letter with four calls-to-action: if sick, stay home; if not, keep your distance; demand closures; wash your hands. If you asked Italians …

2020-03-15: Mine Furor’s big concern apparently is trying to financially lure a German biotech firm to the U.S. so that a potential SARS-CoV-2 vaccine would be an American thing. Maybe we should be worrying more about the fact that we probably should all have started staying home a week …

2020-03-14: I hate that this list of tips about every day objects is something I found because of a promoted tweet. I also hate how many of these made me feel stupid.

2020-03-14: Many months ago, I watched Along With The Gods: The Two Worlds, a very strange, very long, but very engaging South Korean movie on Hoopla Digital. Tonight, I finally watch its followup/second part: Along With The Gods: The Last 49 Days.

2020-03-14: As I work on a web forum as part of my need to hearken back to the web of places, I’ve chosen not only to eliminate likes and up/down votes but to do away with view counts on threads and posts. As I’ve written before: interaction, not indication.

2020-03-14: Is it just me, Portland, or does it seem like the “cat lounge” is not a smart thing to have open during a pandemic where we should seek to be avoiding commonly touching the same objects (or, in this case, animals) as much as we can? I mean, even the goats shut down.

2020-03-14: Speaking of libraries, OverDrive (the folks behind the Libby app) has told library and school partners that it’s working to arrange with publishers to provide “free and low-cost Simultaneous Use and Cost-Per-Circ ebook and audiobook collections to serve readers of all …

2020-03-14: Good news, everyone! The wonderfully bizarre movies Ink and The Frame by writer/director Jamin Winans have landed on Hoopla Digital. Get out your library cards and stream these during your at-home social distancing.

2020-03-14: Annalee Newitz points us to one of the greatest science headlines of all time: Ocean organism settles down, digests its proto-brain and loses its individuality.

2020-03-14: That feeling when you so much can’t breathe that you have to wear a Breathe Right strip which screws up how your glasses sit on your face and might prevent you from watching anything.

2020-03-14: I’m just now learning that The Nevers Podcast did an episode last December in which they discuss Goners, the Joss Whedon film meant to happen after Serenity that instead fell into development hell, and namecheck me in the process because for years I’d written up …

2020-03-14: Giving serious thought to just going back to bed.

2020-03-14: Great. Not only did I effectively miss the snow because of course my body needed to sleep in and so of course the flurries were basically over by the time I scrambled out the door, but I don’t have a single usable photo because of a water droplet on the lens. Fucking waste.

2020-03-14: Are the people running against Mitch McConnell up on the air yet with ads showing that while the House passed truly bipartisan legislation about SARS-CoV-2, he sent the entire Senate home for the weekend instead?

2020-03-14: Oh, damn. comiXology/Amazon is having a digital sale on Terry Moore stuff which means the next two volumes I need — Strangers In Paradise XXV Vol. 2: Hide And Seek and Five Years Vol. 1: Fire In The Sky — are on sale and I think I still can’t get them.

2020-03-14: Oh no, it’s Pi Day and my only options in St. Johns are supermarket pies.

2020-03-14: Milestone: I just took the first mirtazapine pill from my first-ever refill bottle of my first-ever anxiety medication.

2020-03-13: So, I’ll be honest: I cringed a bit when I saw there was an episode of Star Trek: Picard featuring a visit to Riker and Troi — and then it was one of the most humanizing and humbling treatments of Jean-Luc. Cheers to both Will and Deanna being able to call Picard on his …

2020-03-13: Nine hours after posting that they remain open except for programs, bookings and outreach, Multnomah County Library just announced all branches are closed until further notice. No late fees will be charged, and holds will remain in place.

2020-03-13: So then Rachel Maddow put up a graph of “daily new confirmed cases” for New York City with the Y-axis from 0 to 70 with the line reaching to 60, and the X-axis from 3/2 to 3/13; side-by-side with a graph of “daily new confirmed cases” for Italy and Spain …

2020-03-13: Joe Cortright compares cost overruns for the Oregon Department of Transportation’s boneheaded proposal to widen I-5 to the exploding whale of 1970.

2020-03-13: Former micronaut Sameer Vasta checks in during this time of social distancing for the SARS-CoV-2 pandemic. Everything is changing by the minute, but one thing remains the same: that we are stronger and can get through this easier if we work together, if we look out for each …

2020-03-13: The Web of Places Here’s what I’ve realized: for the things I get out of Twitter, Twitter is very good at those things. For example, quick but in-depth input and information from experts when overwhelming bits of news are happening. Experts I would not otherwise known or have heard …

2020-03-13: There was no reason for any network to carry Trump’s press conference live if it, like his television address, was just going to be full of lies: no, Google is not building a national SARS-CoV-2 screening website.

2020-03-13: This morning’s SARS-CoV-2 activities included an email my landlord sent to tenants followed shortly thereafter by this second email. I’m not sure why they struck “during the coronavirus pandemic”, though.

2020-03-13: BuzzFeed News has a good explainer on the lack of presidential authority to delay an election. Technically, a Congressional vote could do it, but even that would be up against the hard, constitutional deadline of a president’s four-year term.

2020-03-13: I’d budgeted perfectly for a bagel with creamcheese and coffee at the new bagel place every day this week, but today I really needed breakfast out, so now I’ve no money until Sunday. That said, I appear to have everything I need until then anyway.

2020-03-13: So yesterday I got bored and made a series of “social distancing is community protection” posters. If anyone wants the final versions, here they are on Dropbox.

2020-03-13: Every single one of these business people Trump is introducing at this event comes up and immediately touches the microphone.

2020-03-13: Ron Wyden, my Senator and the likely the loudest voice in Congress pushing vote-by-mail as a comprehensive election security measure, has introduced a bill “to protect voters and elections against COVID-19 risks by mandating emergency vote-by-mail”.

2020-03-13: I’m tired and sluggish from accidentally walking for the length of two and a half R.E.M. albums last evening, and I am buried in interesting bits from my RSS and newsletter readers. Here’s some interesting SARS-CoV-2 tidbits. Oregon finally got off its ass — including …

2020-03-13: Oh, right; good morning.

2020-03-12: Just got back from walking around St. Johns for all of R.E.M.’s Fables of the Reconstruction and half of Life’s Rich Pageant, which is a bit longer than I’d intended.

2020-03-12: Folks, check in with your local independent and community newspapers — like our own Portland Mercury here in Portland — whose very existence often depends upon advertising from exactly the types and sorts of businesses that already have started shuttering during SARS-CoV-2 social …

2020-03-12: My local Grocery Outlet posted to Instagram a photo of their not-yet-ransacked paper towel and toilet paper aisle, in case you’re wondering how St. Johns is handling the pandemic.

2020-03-12: What’s your pandemic music? I’m currently going with R.E.M.’s Document. Addenda Green works surprisingly well, too.

2020-03-12: I’m beginning to think that my repeated Mastodon itches aren’t actually about Mastodon but about wanting something social media isn’t providing. Even if, as I’ve mused, all the interesting people I know from my various and very different stages in life …

2020-03-12: Nope. I can’t stop myself. Technically, hand-washing isn’t strictly “social distancing is community protection” but I’ll allow it.

2020-03-12: It might be time to take a break from customizing Canva templates for “social distancing is community protection” posters.

2020-03-12: I swear I’ll stop at some point but here’s one more idea from my Canva dithering about with “social distancing is community protection” poster concepts.

2020-03-12: Here’s another idea from my Canva dithering about with “social distancing is community protection” poster ideas.

2020-03-12: I’ve been tinkering in Canva, using their templates to play with ideas for “social distancing is community protection” poster designs.

2020-03-12: Oregon Zoo provides an update on zoo access during SARS-CoV-2 pandemic social distancing. It’s like they knew I was wondering, although I’ve since decided that since going all the way across town requires substantial use of public transit, I’m going to try and …

2020-03-12: The subhed on this Jeremy Gordon piece for The Outline says it: “Voting for someone you don’t want is like getting your flu shot — you do it for everyone else.”

2020-03-12: Inexplicably, theme parks such as Disney’s are exempt from California’s social distancing advisory. Or, maybe not so inexplicably, since casinos also are exempt. Newsom says it’s due to “the complexity of their unique circumstances”, which is a …

2020-03-12: I’d thought when Colin Walker linked the idea that “there should be no ‘between books’” that it was about reading but it’s about writing. Still, as a reader you should always be in the middle of at least one book.

2020-03-12: Civic Signals takes a look at social distance as the United States enters a period of social distancing to slow the spread of SARS-CoV-2. The photos of empty public spaces around the world and the growing list of canceled events remind us just how much of our lives revolve …

2020-03-12: It looks like the Senate will actually cancel its recess to get a coronavirus bill done. So much for that McConnell trial balloon about everyone just going home to think about it instead. He must have gotten clobbered.

2020-03-12: I guess I should skip going to Oregon Zoo this week? Although I don’t touch anything there except the goats.

2020-03-12: I agree with Willamette Week: it sure looks like a flurry of actions by others — think Oregon’s universities and the NBA — finally forced Governor Brown’s hand on social distancing to fight the spread of SARS-Cov-2. Oregon Gov. Kate Brown tonight banned large …

2020-03-12: As even Oregon finally wakes up to social distancing measures to combat SARS-CoV-2, read musician Marian Call’s thoughts on self-isolation and community: “sometimes we fight for our community by going out and giving. sometimes we fight by staying home.”

2020-03-11: Adobe Document Cloud, or Box, or Dropbox, or something else?

2020-03-11: Oregon’s universities are bucking Oregon Health Authority guidance after initially agreeing (via Paul Bausch), and moving head with major SARS-CoV-2 social distancing plans. OHA did “review” the universities’ new plans and didn’t object. The state’s …

2020-03-11: Oh my god. I’m in tears and I hate absolutely everything. Thank heavens she’s the one to leave early, but why; why did you do this to us, The Masked Singer? Addenda The performance itself was so very glorious, which only served to make the reveal all that much more …

2020-03-11: How does Oregon get some of these new SARS-CoV-2 tests that take “just hours to deliver positive or negative results”?

2020-03-11: To think: two months ago I wondered if we were headed back to warblogging. Thanks to SARS-CoV-2, I guess we’re viroblogging.

2020-03-11: Out of the listings for thirty autism papers I’d saved in Google Scholar, I found all but one — “Monotropism: An interest-based account of autism” — also is listed in Semantic Scholar. I’m not sure why that’s not listed, though, as Sematic Scholar …

2020-03-11: There is no way in the world that these Oregon numbers reflect any reality except the reality that we are not doing a god damned adequate thing to test people here. This is a scandal.

2020-03-11: Trump ordered “federal health officials to treat top-level coronavirus meetings as classified”, says Reuters. Entirely consistent with the arc of other recent moves.

2020-03-11: It’s “funny” that Mine Furor is banning all travel from Europe except for those Anglo-Saxons and anyone else who passes some sort of unspecified screening.

2020-03-11: Today during my purge of old website accounts and/or adjusting their profiles, I came across on Disqus an old comment of mine on a Mashable story from when Twitter announced they were going to make retweets a built-in function. Unfortunately they’ve both over-thought it …

2020-03-11: Oregon Health Authority says to expect our numbers to rise noticeably as testing increases. Next week still feels like much later than we should have been moving on tests, though. As testing capacity increases — with Labcorp and Quest Diagnostics online, and clinical …

2020-03-11: This afternoon’s office, at Ben & Esther’s Bagels in downtown St. Johns, once we sorted out the WiFi password.

2020-03-11: Rsearchers and academics and the like: I’d started to use Google Scholar to try to organize listings of papers I think are useful to me as an actually-autistic person — or potentially useful to a mental health practitioner, should I ever again have one — but I’m …

2020-03-11: There’s often this sense of deflation when I read studies on mental health and actually-autistic people, in that few of them seem overtly to descirbe or define what all the parties think should be the goal of mental health activities and therapies for actually-autistic …

2020-03-11: Well, I guess this internet nostalgia reread isn’t happening. Two of the four books had been $2.99 and $3.99 as ebooks, but suddenly now are $11.99 and $14.99, respectively. I should have grabbed those two last month. I’m a little baffled at why they’d out of …

2020-03-11: I can only assume that when Joe Biden learned that there’d finally be just a two-person debate he imagined all the extra room and thought, “Thank god; no more of this!”

2020-03-11: Good news, everyone! After 2½ years, I’ve finally found the right amount of coffee grounds to put in my coffeemaker.

2020-03-11: It’s offically a pandemic.

2020-03-11: It’s less than half an hour until there’s someone in my apartment to fix the toilet. I don’t like people in my space. It will be a win if (1) they fix the toilet, and (2) they don’t evangelize Jesus at me in my living room before leaving. Yes, the latter …

2020-03-11: Sometimes I feel like Oregon is the state most likely to think it’s all that while actually being just mediocre. Case in point: sitting between two major SARS-CoV-2 outbreak states and effectively doing nothing. The state even finally received more test kits literally just …

2020-03-11: Bye, Harvey.

2020-03-11: This morning on Apple Music I am rediscovering early 10,000 Maniacs, starting right off with The Wishing Chair, whose song order is borderline inexplicable. “Scorpio Rising” into “Just As the Tide was a Flowing”?

2020-03-11: Oh good. Several days ago I’d stopped taking my triumvirate of nasal sprays, because they’d seemed to become less and less effective. So, of course, this morning I am awake at 6:30am completely unable to breathe through my nose. It was bad enough I was going to have to force …

2020-03-10: So, I feel like Oregon is a microcosm of this brutal New York Times reporting on delays in testing for SARS-CoV-2 in the United States, and maybe Dr. Helen Y. Chu’s words should warn us: “It’s just everywhere already.” A series of missed chances by the federal government …

2020-03-10: Watching part of Biden speaking, I think that’s what’s going to happen here is Biden’s job is to remind people what America is supposed to mean, and after Biden we get back to the work of making it live up to what it’s supposed to mean; doing some of the …

2020-03-10: Holy shit. Michigan now has “no-reason absentee” balloting, and they received somewhere around 950,000 993,000 requests for such ballots. Of those, they’ve gotten a whopping 81% returned so far. Repeat after me: vote-by-mail is the future of American elections.

2020-03-10: Sometimes I get sad when I see all these bloggers mention how long their blogs have been around; I was blogging early, but across many different domains, with many gaps between. Today at least I realized I’ve been hosting Mark Twain’s “The War Prayer” …

2020-03-10: Today I learned that iCloud email addresses can make use of + delimiters — e.g. example@icloud.com could make use of example+keyword@icloud.com — which just solved a conundrum I was having.

2020-03-10: Are you skeptical of Erica Newland’s suggestion that Mine Furor might use a ginned-up Reagan-era precedent to limit the free flow of information about SARS-CoV-2? The administration’s already stalled an intel report indicating “that the U.S. remains unprepared …

2020-03-10: If the threat of SARS-CoV-2 hasn’t cleaned out Portland store shelves, the treat (not a typo) of potential valley-floor snow this weekend sure will.

2020-03-10: Congress needs to pass a law that any website operating from within its jurisdiction is required to have a clear an obvious method for account deletion in a user’s settings.

2020-03-10: If the press corps does not act with suspicion toward the administration, I’m afraid it will fall back on its hoary habits, behaving, as it often does, with endless benefit-of-the-doubt. Even now, after knowing everything we know, the press corps still acts as if there’s …

2020-03-10: Meru and Willow were I guess waiting for me to come back from going for a bagel and coffee.

2020-03-10: Oregon is about to run out of SARS-CoV-2 tests, and as noted by Paul Bausch, “Currently they’re using lack of known cases to justify their decisions.” As further noted by Jeremy Howard (also via Bausch),“By the time the impact in your community is clearly visible, you’ve …

2020-03-10: I’m in a miserable state of mind because the maintenance request system my landlord uses rather than using the add-on to the resident portal they could use instead resulted this morning in my lurching out of bed to be ready for a plumber the system told me was arriving in twenty …

2020-03-10: It’s not the coronavirus that will get us, it’s the stupid.

2020-03-09: Oh no. William Gibson (not that one) has given us Wash Your Lyrics, where you can generate hand-washing infographics based on your pick of song lyrics.

2020-03-09: The other bit of digital housecleaning I’ve been doing is downloading and clearing all data out of my previous Google account. I’d originally intended this to be precursor to deletion, but then I realized all my old Blogger blogs are in there, and I’m not sure …

2020-03-09: I’ve said before that I consider hyperfocus to be a trade-off, not a superpower, but the upside was on exhibit today when I did a major cleaning in Keychain Access, conforming the email address I use to lgin to various websites, resetting a bunch of passwords, deleting a …

2020-03-09: Today’s digital housecleaning: finally getting rid of old Google accounts and Gmail addresses, grabbing archives from a very few accounts I might want to rummage later on.

2020-03-09: Some pediatrician is recommending nasal irrigation on a daily basis (via Dino Bansigan) and all I can say is beware brain-eating amoeba.

2020-03-09: To this day, I still really need Apple to let me add the ability to use a custom domain for iCloud email.

2020-03-09: By the way, this solution worked instantly for my question last night about inconsistent DNS lookups between shell tools and web browsers. Addenda To avoid confusion, I edited to link directly to the answer that worked for me (the first one in the conversation), and not just the …

2020-03-09: There’s a followup of sorts to my story about my first-ever username. Once upon a time, during the Ruby Vroom and Irresistable Bliss eras of the late and lamented Soul Coughing, the song “True Dreams of Wichita” was a particular touchstone for me because for a …

2020-03-09: Perhaps the most surprising and stupid thing in this Vanity Fair piece about Mine Furor melting down over the uncontrollable COVID-19 narrative is that “a prominent Republican” revealed that Trump calls people who dip a chip, take a bite, and then dip it again …

2020-03-09: It’s time to kill your lawn.

2020-03-09: The counter person at the bagel place just referred to a customer’s coffee order as a “twelve inch” instead of a “twelve ounce”.

2020-03-08: When I first got online in 1993, my original username at MindVox was slowdog, for the Belly song; it spoke to feeling like my life was very much behind where it was supposed to be. (This is not, as Tanya Donelly explained, the meaning of the song.) It also became one of my …

2020-03-08: Here’s a technical poser I’ve never been able to solve: why if my MacBook via nslookup can find a new domain’s IP address do neither Safari nor Firefox on the same MacBook return anything than a server-not-found error message?

2020-03-08: Here I am again, getting punchy and restless and stream-of-consciousness searching for good Mastodon instance domains.

2020-03-08: How far out are we from the bad-faith cries that Pelosi and Schumer are “politicizing” the SARS-CoV-2 epidemic by calling for common-sense public policy to help impacted people? Among the steps they are pushing: paid sick leave for workers impacted by the quarantine …

2020-03-08: Lisa Schmeiser gets into the costs and benefits of “cocooning” (via Simon Woods), and I just wanted to say that this bit here in fact pretty closely matches how I have to approach my actually-autistic life just to maintain my general day-to-day sanity. Cocooning …

2020-03-08: Here’s one for your bookmarks: “Don’t Panic: The comprehensive Ars Technica guide to the coronavirus”, which they intend to update regularly.

2020-03-08: For shits and giggles, I decided to play with GitHub Pages and not only do the instructions on that page not necessarily match what you see on the web or in the app, they don’t even result in a GitHub Pages site being published at all. Addenda Of course, after fifteen …

2020-03-08: So, here’s one fuck of a headline: As Oregon coronavirus cases grow, state holds off on drastic measures to stop virus’ spread. Found via today’s COVID-19 newsletter from The Oregonian, which includes some warnings given our proximity to Seattle. Experts in the field …

2020-03-08: There a massive political divide between the bosses and the workers in Silicon Valley. Workers at most tech companies are most likely to donate to Bernie Sanders, the only exceptions being those at Twitter, who donated most to Elizabeth Warren, and Netflix, where Pete Buttigieg …

2020-03-08: Noah Kulwin of The Outline interviewed James Hamblin of The Atlantic, who happenstantially speaks to Noah Brier’s concern for our moral obligation during COVID-19 outbreaks. That’s the problem it’s the hubris of healthy young people who think the limiting factor in whether …

2020-03-08: A few months ago, I’d considered trying to find a way to attend the INSAR 2020 Annual Meeting beause it’s just up in Seattle. I’d be surprised, at this point, if it isn’t canceled due to COVID-19; they’ll have an update by March 20.

2020-03-08: Today’s edition of the Spectrum newsletter collects four previously-published stories about receiving (or not receiving, as the case may be) healthcare as an autistic adult, one of which includes a section on AASPIRE’s Healthcare Toolkit, which I encourage people to …

2020-03-08: This week on 📺 I’m watching Batwoman, Supergirl, Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist, Black Lightning, Dispatches from Elsewhere, Briarpatch, The Flash, DC’s Legends of Tomorrow, The Masked Singer, Nancy Drew, The Magicians, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee, Star Trek: …

2020-03-08: Until this morning I didn’t even know what a Cenk Uygur was. Fuck you, this morning. Addenda Any time I’ve ever heard about The Young Turks, it’s been for something reprehensible. Certainly shouting endlessly at airline workers is not “progressive”.

2020-03-08: This is certifably insane. Air carriers in Europe are flying empty planes during the COVID-19 crisis, in order to keep their “airport landing slots” because of European airport rules.

2020-03-07: Sorry to anyone who’d subscribed to the photos-only RSS feed; I keep forgetting to add photo posts to the category which, well, feeds that feed. There was no disruption to the photos-only JSON feed, as that’s generated differently. Addenda I just tried something as …

2020-03-07: The only thing more fungible than cold, hard cash is privilege. The prodigal tech bro doesn’t so much take an off-ramp from the relatively high status and well-paid job he left when the scales fell from his eyes, as zoom up an on-ramp into a new sector that accepts the …

2020-03-07: So, I’d literally only just finished Rian Johnson’s Knives Out when I saw this Shawn Ryan tweet mentioning that he’d directed an episode of Terriers, a fact which I’d forgotten, a fact for which I feel ashamed. But, again, go watch Terriers; for the first …

2020-03-07: Here’s another pet peeve: pretending that the fact a moral position cannot preemptively address every and all potential and prospective application of or exception to its rule means we therefore cannot actually take a moral position — which effectively is what this comment …

2020-03-07: My monthly FandangoNOW 🎥 rental code from Sprint just dropped, and this means I should finally get to Knives Out tonight, right?

2020-03-07: Noah Brier, writing about COVID-19 for Why is this interesting?, laments, “[T]here is one idea I’m not seeing spread as much as I would expect and that’s moral obligation.” This being the world that it is, I can only think of Chidi Anagonye and The Good Place’s use of T. M. …

2020-03-07: If the universe didn’t want us to get fat then why is it comprised of molecules that make bread taste so good.

2020-03-07: For as long as I’ve been online, I can’t stand the argument (scroll way down; I can’t link directly to the comment) that “nuance is very difficult to convey in media (mass or social)” — also substitute “irony” for “nuance”, just to round things out. It’s not difficult; people are …

2020-03-07: So, that jaw-dropping Atlantic piece on the disorder and disarray of COVID-19 response (and the transparency thereof) is responsive to my earlier post: “Oregon, situated between the California and Washington hot spots, can test only about 40 people a day.”

2020-03-07: The Oregonian has a coronavirus newsletter on developments in the state, region, and nation. It drops every day at 1:00pm; here is today’s.

2020-03-07: There’s a new ahead-of-print paper from Autism in Adulthood about anxiety in autistic adults that evaluates use of the newly-developed Anxiety Scale for Autism-Adults (ASA-A) meant to address limitations of the Anxiety Scale for Children-Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASC-ASD), …

2020-03-07: Willow gets second crack after Meru at leftovers from having made a tuna salad on Como bread for lunch.

2020-03-07: Kobo released an ereader firmware update recently and among the improvements seems to be a much more responsive and much more accurate highlighting engine, which prior was a neverending source of frustration for me.

2020-03-07: Lost in the shuffle of Super Tuesday and COVID-19 dominating the news here in the U.S.: lawyers for the House Judiciary Committee told a court that if a recent ruling stands, they could be left with little choice but to “direct its sergeant at arms to arrest current and …

2020-03-07: As some point I missed the Nebula finalists but was reminded by Ton Zijlstra. Of the listed novels, I read three and both A Memory Called Empire and A Song for a New Day are musts; of the novellas, I read three and The Deep is a must.

2020-03-07: Tor’s promotional interview with Drew Williams and Arkady Martine is worth it just for Martine’s reaction to noticing the alternate genre into which the Teixcalaan books could be set.

2020-03-07: This morning I fed the cats, went back to sleep, got up at eleven, walked down the street to the St. Johns opening of Ben & Esther’s Bagels for a poppyseed and veggie schmear with coffee; I ate slowly, seated outside in the Portland drizzle.

2020-03-07: The neighborhood’s new bagel place is open but I’m not sure I could handle opening weekend claustrophobia.

2020-03-07: I’m sorry but with 91 confirmed cases in Washington and 79 confirmed in California, it’s ludicrous that Oregon claims 3 confirmed cases of COVID-19. We clearly are not testing.

2020-03-06: It’s 8:00pm and I am craving pork chops. I do not have any pork chops, nor will I be going to the store at 8:00pm to buy pork chops.

2020-03-06: Someday I successfully will get Oregon Zoo red pandas Mei Mei and Moshu together in a single decent shot, but Thursday was not that day.

2020-03-06: Inspired and perfect casting in the second episode of Better Things last night: Lance Henriksen.

2020-03-06: So, I guess I should have taken that Carrd renewal discount at the start of the year. Bix, FYI and The War Prayer are about to go offline this weekend.

2020-03-06: Finally submitted a maintenance request for my running toilet, which I’d delayed for my sanity because I didn’t need them trying to schedule something while I was dealing with medical scans; I insist upon being home for all maintenance visits. Hopefully with the …

2020-03-06: If you thought Nextdoor was racist only because your neighbors are racist, surprise! It seems that their search algorithm returns Chinese restaurants when searching for coronavirus.

2020-03-06: The two big annual events which one batch or another of my Twitter follows tend to attend — Emerald City Comic Con and South by Southwest — both have been canceled or postponed due to COVID-19 precautions.

2020-03-06: What heightened the mood of those evenings on the roof, aside from our vertiginous height? Every proper rooftop offers a sense of seclusion, an “eye” on the street, along with the sense that you cannot be seen, though could be; other tenants might imminently appear on your …

2020-03-06: Given the proximity to Portland of Seattle, and given the latter’s apparent status as a quasi-epicenter for COViD-19 in the U.S., I can’t imagine the answer to this question about the former being anything other than, “Yes.”

2020-03-06: Spending my weekend breakfast-out money on lunch today, because no matter what a medical appointment is about or entails, I need a treat afterward. It “helps” that this was the CT scan to determine whether or not we are doing that lymph biopsy.

2020-03-06: Whether it was nerves from the unknown or full-on anxiety reaction, the bodily earthquake of shuddering I experienced during my first-ever CT scan a year ago did not make a repeat appearance for today’s.

2020-03-06: The two-hour fast before today’s CT scan has begun. Luckily, “black coffee” qualifies as “clear liquids”. This morning I learned that the Transit app can be given calendar access and with one tap tell you when the nearby bus to your next event is …

2020-03-06: Jackson, the lone male chimpanzee at Oregon Zoo, fishes something delicious out of an enrichment toy with a stick, exhibiting our closest living relative’s very familiar tool use.

2020-03-06: It turns out that the evidence for “empirically supported treatments” in mental health is murky at best; according to a meta-study of such ESTs (via MetaFilter): 20% “performed well”, 30% “had mixed results”, and 50% had “subpar …

2020-03-06: I wish I could remember where I saw it the other day, or had bookmarked it, but I saw some reporter write that the “public option” not so long ago was the “far-left position”. It’s a good example of how the American political press is trapped in a …

2020-03-05: Plot twist on Better Things: Frankie of all people wants to have a culturally-appropriative fiesta de quinceañera? What the fuck, Frankie.

2020-03-05: Here’s another good thread, this one by Lisa Sharon Harper, on what happened Super Tuesday. The Biden wave is less abt patriarchy and more a revelation of level of trauma our nation has absorbed. Record numbers of voters turned out from every demographic to vote for Biden. Why? …

2020-03-05: Now I wonder if I’d heard of this analysis of COVID-19 in Washington state (via Paul Bausch) before I asked my question earlier. The coronavirus outbreak in the Seattle area is at a critical juncture and could see explosive growth in cases much like Wuhan, China, if public …

2020-03-05: I’m here for Oliver going with Kat to the queer party she’d felt shamed away from because she’s bisexual. I can’t remember if The Bold Type has done an Oliver-supporting-Kat bit before?

2020-03-05: After her earlier snack, Leah relaxed with a blanket and magazine in the Red Ape Reserve at Oregon Zoo.

2020-03-05: While this Christine M. Condo piece is a must-read for neurotypicals, I do wish actually-autistic people themselves would refrain from the “high-functioning” language. The reality is what Condo herself describes is not functioning, it’s faking — and it’s …

2020-03-05: After twenty-three years in Portland, today I finally nailed down how to tell apart the four Oregon Zoo chimpanzees. (One of the tips involves nipples.)

2020-03-05: Leah, one of the four chimpanzees at Oregon Zoo, enjoys a sunny afternoon snack outside at the Red Ape Reserve, their home until Primate Forest construction is completed.

2020-03-05: It looks like the Civic Signals discussion has begun, with a brief introduction to the idea of trying to use urban placemaking to find analogues for use online.

2020-03-05: Of course they did.

2020-03-05: The policy should be that any time you see an adult letting a child bang on the glass at the zoo, you should be able to knock the adult’s head against said glass.

2020-03-05: So, either Washington state is testing for COVID-19 more and better than elsewhere, or it’s the epicenter of a large outbreak we haven’t really seen the extent of yet, right? Obviously the former is preferable.

2020-03-05: It might kill me after this morning’s medical schedule but if I don’t head to the zoo today I don’t get to the zoo this week because tomorrow also has a medical schedule.

2020-03-05: In retrospect, it certainly makes sense that a country that would elect Donald Trump to begin with couldn’t find in itself anything but to put forth another old white man to compete against him.

2020-03-05: One thing that especially struck me in that Data for Progress report I mentioned earlier is the concept of a voter’s “magic wand” preference. In other words, if you ask them to put aside any consideration of what they think other voters would do, what would they …

2020-03-05: What’s especially depressing to me as what I guess we’re now referring to as a Warren Democrat is that I honestly believe that she is where the majority of the Democratic Party actually is, but Democrats have this nasty habit of not believing in themselves or fretting over what …

2020-03-05: This morning I had to get up so early, for me, that it made me feel nauseous. The fasting since midnight didn’t help. Ultrasound is done, I grabbed a latte and two hard-boiled eggs on my way out of Kaiser, and now I kill time until I do it all over again tomorrow for the CT scan; …

2020-03-05: I guess that makes it official. Warren’s out, and the official Democratic campaign is An Old Fart Is Better Than An Old Fascist.

2020-03-04: Three years ago today when Chester proffered a perfect pose for a goat statue, should anyone ever want to make a goat statue.

2020-03-04: Today I learned that the first sports bra was two jockstraps sewn together.

2020-03-04: How much will I eat over the course of the evening while watching 📺 since I have to fast from midnight through my 8:30am gallbladder ultrasound?

2020-03-04: I was reading about freezing potatoes and squash and Brussels sprouts and the entire blanching and flash-freezing process is way more involvement than the wherewithal I thought I might have for freezing potatoes and squash and Brussels sprouts.

2020-03-04: Fleets? Really?

2020-03-04: For anyone who might have wondered what kind of person voluntarily would marry Stephen Miller, the man who wants anyone and everyone whom he considers to be the heathenous unwashed to just go off and die, the answer is Katie Waldman, who just today scolded a reporter for daring …

2020-03-04: And I am back in bed. Or, on it. Is “on it” in it?

2020-03-04: The mirtazapine might be working, but it doesn’t do anything for the autistic hangover the day after pushing oneself a bit. I had to force myself out of bed to go have breakfast down the street and now I feel like I just ran two miles. It’s possible then, that while I might not …

2020-03-04: Oh, I guess I found the real reason not to follow Mastodon accounts from Micro.blog, other than being able to follow me back not working: apparently there’s no Conversation view of things Mastodon users post, because Micro.blog doesn’t pull those other posts in. So, …

2020-03-04: “We know, irrefutably, one thing about the coronavirus in the United States,” writes Alexis C. Madrigal: “The number of cases reported in every chart and table is far too low.”

2020-03-04: Good news, everyone! You will have time to die in April because now November is no time to die instead.

2020-03-04: It’s supremely weird that in suggesting that his resignation was more about his job performance than his sexist and/or batshit remarks, Margaret Sullivan (via Dan Barrett) seems not to recognize that they’re literally aspects of the same thing. The way in which he performed his …

2020-03-03: So, I’ve had such mixed feelings about Picard, because they keep walking right up to the line of how he’s, you know, kind of a pompous, entitled, self-important ass who also represented an increasingly out-of-touch power, but then not following through. He keeps …

2020-03-03: Because I really can’t stomach that The Democrat 2020: Better An Old Fart Than An Old Fascist is the best we’re allowing ourselves to do, I guess I will spend $5.99 on a month of CBS All Access, that I can’t really afford, to binge catch-up on Star Trek: Picard. Addenda And I …

2020-03-03: It’s going to be really embarrassing to have to stump for Biden, who will be embarrassing on the campaign trail, and every other day he’ll be challenging Trump to chin-ups or something, and we’re going to have to do it anyway, and I will not have enough tears.

2020-03-03: With an Amazon employee in Seattle testing positive for COVID-19, all us Prime members should expect ours in, what, two days? Although check if you’ve set an Amazon Day because your shipments might be bundled.

2020-03-03: Yes, this: “Plodding through those [Twitter] threads feels a bit like reading a novel written on sticky notes.,” says Robert of Frosted Echoes. Just start a blog, please.

2020-03-03: MSNBC as a polling place in Austin, Texas: “How long have you guys been waiting in line?” “Two hours.” “Almost two hours.” “Is it worth it?” “Of course it’s worth it. Civic engagement.” “How long would you be …

2020-03-03: Nationalize the primaries, and embargo results until polls have closed in all states and territories.

2020-03-03: Science comes to the aid of bedtime sock-wearers (via MetaFilter) with some thermoregulatory and neurological fact bombs.

2020-03-03: Yesterday I learned that some football player called Mine Furor the “first black president”. What do you even say to that?

2020-03-03: I’d say that during the COVID-19 outbreak this resource from T.C. Sottek is for all your cancelation news (via James Dasher), but as he explained there’s not enough storage “for all the canceled men”. Also, now I’m said about The OA again.

2020-03-03: Today might have been the first evidence of the mirtazapine’s influence beyond its side effects, as my breakfast trip was my first-ever visit to Your Inn Tavern, and first-ever visits of course are anxiety-inducers. While it’s true that I circled the place from …

2020-03-03: Not for nothing, but in fact I do take issue with phrases such as the Twitter community or the contention that one exists, because I think it devalues the word. (We all know my various pet peeves about not devaluing words by diluting them into nonspecificity.) Twitter isn’t …

2020-03-03: Noah Kulwin interviewed Joanne McNeil for The Outline (I offered my thoughts on her book just last week) and there’s one exchange in particular I’d like to pass along. […] You also talk in the book at length about the labor that goes into growing and maintaining …

2020-03-03: Colin’s thoughts on commuting bring back dismal memories of my last job, a Vocational Rehabilitation placement, which required getting up early enough to get cleaned, get dressed, eat breakfast, and catch a 7:00am light rail for an hourish commute. The job itself only was …

2020-03-03: Holy wow, Mike Thrasher died? My second question is why when I google is Willamette Week the only local news source even talking about it?

2020-03-03: Escaping my apartment during the replacement of a power pole on my street, I finally went for breakfast at Your Inn Tavern at the other side of downtown St. Johns from me, where their house-made corned beef hash is pretty terrific, and almost too filling.

2020-03-03: Twenty-three years ago today in a U-Haul driven by two friends from online who came down to get me, I arrived in Portland from San Francisco where I’d lived for just under a year and a half, gotten mugged just three months in, and never gained any traction. The trip included …

2020-03-03: The Magicians is ending and I am sad; and there won’t be another show like it and it was the surprise of the 2015 📺 season for me because I’m not a “magic” stories guy; and this is especially disheartening because the end of last season made a huge deal out of the story not …

2020-03-03: My greatest 📺 embarrassment this year (fingers crossed?) will be having cynically mocked Dispatches from Elsewhere before it aired and then finding it inordinately charming and engaging and actually in its own way kind of riveting and all I can say — again — is, “Mea culpa.”

2020-03-02: Why am I only just now remembering that Mary Steenburgen isn’t just mom to Zoey Clarke but to Joan Girardi.

2020-03-02: M.G. Siegler identifies one problem with the modern rise of newsletters (via Andy McIlwain): “inundation”. My own problem isn’t so much that “there are too many newsletters that I now subscribe to and want to read” but that newsletters do not yet …

2020-03-02: Joe Biden revealing that he had no idea Donald Trump would be this bad doesn’t say much for his sense of judgment.

2020-03-02: Upon reflection, I might be more inclined to follow Mastodon accounts from Micro.blog if anyone from Mastodon were able to follow me back.

2020-03-02: Hit me up on PayPal or Cash if you want to help me afford to escape my apartment in order to find somewhere with electricity during the day tomorrow (Tuesday) while my power is out due to “pole replacement” on my street.

2020-03-02: Rob Reiner should not be on cable news shows for the same reason I shouldn’t be on cable news shows: I’d be loudly, whitely, malely proclaiming things in a tone that suggests no one else has ever thought of these really obvious points I am making.

2020-03-02: Oregon’s primary isn’t until May 19, so it’s basically up to almost every other Democrat in the country to even afford me the chance to vote for Elizabeth Warren this year. Morning broke on Monday, and, with the news that Pete Buttigieg has dropped out of the Democratic …

2020-03-02: If you could have heard my cackling, celebratory uproar at hearing the news that Chris Matthews is “retiring”, you, too, might have almost hyperventilated.

2020-03-02: I’ve started reading The Economists’ Hour by Binyamin Appelbaum; I’m still reading The Sky Is Yours by Chandler Klang Smith; and I’ve already finished reading The Shape of Design by Frank Chimero. I’ve completed eleven 📚 so far this year, with eight waiting in my queue.

2020-03-02: The relationship between MSNBC and Michael Moore is the most incestuously circular thing. His only credential for being on the air is that he’s often put on the air. That’s it. It’s ridiculous.

2020-03-02: What happens when you bring a therapy llama to juvenile detention? You get stories like these about Beni from Mountain Peaks Therapy Llamas & Alpacas.

2020-03-02: This afternoon I was struck by an anecdote in the eighth chapter of Frank Chimero’s breezy The Shape of Design in which he describes encountering a rendering bug in what for all intents and purposes and maybe in actuality is Instagram; the profile photos of people who had …

2020-03-02: We are aware of reports that some of our Asian students were targeted and discriminated against in connection to the coronavirus. This is unacceptable and contrary to our values of racial equity and social justice. Fear of the outbreak has fueled xenophobic remarks and behaviors …

2020-03-02: Barely two hours after breakfast I just had a rapid onset of shakes, chills, dizziness. Have poured a bowl of cereal down my throat and eaten an RXBAR. This was a very dramatic, sudden crash.

2020-03-02: Am having one of the days wherein one feels the entrance to it must be some sort of narrow crack of an alleyway requiring a cramped sideways shimmy; all scraping claustrophobia with no actual guarantee there’s an opening at the end. My skin doesn’t fit my innards properly.

2020-03-02: Not for nothing, but should Biden walk into the Democratic National Convention with a plurality but not a majority, not only will so-called moderates magically no longer hold in contempt Sanders’ argument that the candidate with a plurality but not a majority should be the …

2020-03-02: Come for Berry Grass’ explicative description of autistic masking and transness (via Elena Levin), stay for the deconstruction of the Styx classic, “Mr. Roboto”. Or maybe it’s the other way around?

2020-03-02: I’ve started reading The Shape of Design by Frank Chimero; I’m still reading The Sky Is Yours by Chandler Klang Smith; and I’ve finished reading Semicolon by Cecelia Watson. I’ve finished ten 📚 so far this year, with nine waiting in my queue.

2020-03-02: If both Buttigieg and Klobuchar are going to join Biden in Dallas today to endorse him in person, now’s the time for making big, structural change to primary traditions and have Castro join Warren to announce him as her prospective running mate.

2020-03-02: I wish Amy Klobuchar well in her new career as an Instagram influencer in the field of artisanal salad combs.

2020-03-02: If there’s one thing that makes it hard to get out of bed it’s receiving X dollars at the start of the month and immediately having to spend more than half on bills for the first half of the month.

2020-03-02: Dispatches from Elsewhere is like if you’d sat down to do The Lost Experience only to wake up in Push, Nevada wondering if you’re The Prisoner or just playing The Game. I fully admit that, yes, Octavio is correct: I am Peter, and that one time I did the “Randonaut” …

2020-03-01: It’s true that both the best and the worst thing after an episode of Doctor Who airs is taking a stroll through Twitter to watch all the retrogradists whinging about how it’s been ruined. No story that manages both to reach back forty-four years to recognize the …

2020-03-01: Two episodes into season five of The Blacklist and I am not into the show’s reboot as a comedy with the entire supporting cast just cardboard simpletons backing Reddington’s ludicrous antics.

2020-03-01: Wouldst thou like to vote deliciously?

2020-03-01: In news you didn’t expect: the Bernie Sanders campaign accidentally breaks up Public Enemy, possibly.

2020-03-01: Included on my About page here is “surviving many years in the wilds of various movie and television fandoms”. One such was for the late, great Terriers, during whose one and only season I ran the @watchterriers fan account on Twitter. By the time all was said and …

2020-03-01: Dan Barrett tips me to The Hollywood Reporter’s oral history of M*A*S*H, and in particular I have to give a shout-out to something said by writer Ken Levine. Levine: Every week we got the same note, “Cut the casual profanity in half.” If we wanted eight hells …

2020-03-01: Not for nothing, but for all you voters feeling trapped between Joe Biden and Bernie Sanders, democratic capitalist Elizabeth Warren is standing right there.

2020-03-01: This is fine.

2020-03-01: I do think there’s been some leveling off in the purely-mirtazapine fatigue, but it also seems that if I don’t overcome morning inertia when the 8:00am alarm goes off to feed the cats the mirtazapine makes it far easier to sleep past noon. Breakfast, in this case, was …

2020-03-01: Buttigieg is out.

2020-03-01: This week on 📺 I’m watching Doctor Who, Dispatches from Elsewhere, Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist, Black Lightning, Briarpatch, The Masked Singer, Nancy Drew, The Magicians, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, The Bold Type, and Better Things. I’ve …

2020-03-01: Oh, hey: did any reporter ask the White House why Mine Furor referred to the COVID-19 death in Washington state as a woman? Or are we just letting that slide, like everything else. Addenda I’m not entirely sure the fact that CDC took the blame makes this story any better. …

2020-03-01: MetaFilter users take a look at the death of comments at The Plain Dealer and elsewhere, just in time for Micro.blog to have added the ability to include replies on blog posts.

2020-03-01: NOTE: The word was introduced by a group of virologists as a short article “Coronaviruses” in the “News and Views” section of Nature (vol. 220, no. 5168, November 16, 1968, p. 650): “…avian infectious bronchitis virus has a characteristic electron …

2020-03-01: Terrific. I guess today is going to be about trying once again to solve this intermittent issue where my Roku TV doesn’t see my Xfinity signal, and trying to do it without having to spend any money.

2020-03-01: Who among us hasn’t boarded the wrong private jet by mistake.

2020-03-01: To be honest, I’m still in bed.

2020-02-29: Oregon Zoo’s pride of lions lazes around in the winter afternoon sun. I was bored and so kind of garishly over-processed the color version in Lightroom.

2020-02-29: Someone in the writers room won the argument over whether it would be cute to spend an entire episode of The Blacklist with them pretending to be bounty hunters but good god is this ever a dreadful viewing experience.

2020-02-29: The other day I’d needed to reboot my Xfinity modem and figured I’d go ahead and install the xFi app. It proceeded to “upgrade” my WiFi security without first asking, but I didn’t have time at the time to figure out how to disable the “upgrade”. It turns out, this is the reason …

2020-02-29: Tonight I realized that Portland General is interrupting power on my street for up to six hours between 8:00am and 3:00pm on Super Tuesday and thought, “How dare they.” They I realized that six hours without cable or internet during the part of the day where there will be no …

2020-02-29: Midsommar’s disorientation techniques continue to echo through my mind, and someone smarter than me should compare and contrast them to Mr. Robot’s distancing effect and autopsy the different uses and meanings to which a work calling attention to its own artifice can …

2020-02-29: Oh, terrific. Inexplicably, my site’s CSS is rendering ordered lists with an unindented circle, except that I did not change any CSS regarding list-style-type or margin-left, so what the hell? Addenda Found it. I’d commented something out but forgot to actually close …

2020-02-29: Tom Steyer has his best showing of the Democratic primary by seemingly coming in third in South Carolina…and then immediately ends his campaign. Addenda I mean: yes, I get it. But what a fucking sideshow and waste of everyone’s time.

2020-02-29: I’ve reached the point in watching The Blacklist where I assume I am supposed to be rooting without reservation for Mr. Kaplan.

2020-02-29: Elizabeth Warren should ignore the tradition that only the presumptive nominee gets to announce a running mate, go ahead and announce Julián Castro as her prospective Vice President right now, and then go blow a nomination-sized hole through the Super Tuesday states.

2020-02-29: Researchers argue they’ve found that while “the political differences between urban and rural people could not be reduced” to demographics (via Joe Cortright), “[p]opulation density and distance […] did exert an impact on party identification”, and suggest that “population size …

2020-02-29: The hilarious irony of reading CJ Eller talk about marginalia and memory and wondering why part of it seemed so familiar only for Eller then to turn around and link me in fact having discussed something similar. Memory? What memory.

2020-02-29: What a spectacular and somewhat unnerving total lack of interest I have in absolutely everything today.

2020-02-29: Several days ago I finally figured out how to use these in-ear earplugs and I’ve got them in for a test run out to get a latte. They are supposed to be ever so slightly better, by Noise Reduction Rating, then my over-ear muffs.

2020-02-29: Things I have put in the dryer for around five minutes each over the past two days: those cheap Bluetooth headphones, which appear to have survived functional and intact; eight Shop, Play, Win! game pieces from Safeway, which hopefully can still be moistened for attachment.

2020-02-29: So, this is not how you instill confidence: Governor Jay Inslee issues a press release on the COVID-19 death in Washington state referring to “his family and friends”. Local and national press then report that a man has died. President Trump announces at a press …

2020-02-29: On the one hand, I’m no fan of Jack Dorsey (who doesn’t seem to understand that his favorite literary character is a fraudster and confidence man), but the “activist investor” which just bought a large portion of Twitter with the aim of ousting Dorsey also …

2020-02-29: I only just now realized that Mike Pence is James Brolin as George W. Bush Robert Ritchie on The West Wing.

2020-02-29: I’m never not amazed by how much smaller the White House briefing room looks compared to the set built for The West Wing. How much more cardboard, too. The set looks real and the room looks fake.

2020-02-29: If you need some soothing, Digg points me to Bush’s Pennsylvania Wildlife Camera, which regularly captures, among other things, footage of the wildlife making use of a downed log across a creek.

2020-02-29: Warren Ellis, no slouch or stranger to blogging, has some thoughts on Micro.blog: “I guess IndieWeb is still for devoted hobbyists rather than, you know, just people.”

2020-02-29: As I’ve mentioned before, one of the side effects of the mirtazapine is vivid dreams, and Midsommar is an interesting 🎥 to have watched given that psychic context. Its techniques of disorientation I hope were remarked upon at the time of its release, and heaven knows what …

2020-02-28: I thought about renting Knives Out using my monthly FandangoNOW freebie but I already used February’s, so instead my 🎥 night is Midsommar, finally, which is free on Prime.

2020-02-28: Laura Bassett makes it clear (via this MetaFilter post) for those of you who still somehow doubted: MSNBC must fire Chris Matthews.

2020-02-28: For those still following the radical-for-them changes Twitter said they’re working on, here’s your first look at how control over your conversations could be presented.

2020-02-28: Portland, meet COVID-19: “Oregon Health Authority has confirmed its first, presumptive case of novel coronavirus, COVID-19, in an Oregon resident, public health officials announced today.”

2020-02-28: Masai giraffe Buttercup nuzzles reticulated giraffe Desi in their habitat in the African Savanna area at Oregon Zoo.

2020-02-28: It’s funny that Brooklyn Nine-Nine has to sneak in a joke about pegging, while The Bold Type just up and does an entire episode subplot about it. It’s particularly strange that these episodes aired just one week apart.

2020-02-28: So, this might be a good time to make sure that whatever drugs exist or will exist to fight the coronavirus or its symptoms aren’t made in China, then, I guess.

2020-02-28: If I could get South Carolina and Super Tuesday voters to do one thing before voting, it would be to watch Elizabeth Warren’s speech in Washington Square Park from last September. It’s the defining speech of her entire campaign.

2020-02-27: One aspect of hosting your blog on a static-site generator service: browsing to a category page to find something and finding only that your largest category — with 327 posts — has only had one page with eight posts built, and having no idea how long it’s been that way.

2020-02-27: The only thing representatives should do in response to requests for comment is to ask the New York Post who, exactly, commissioned SW Public Relations to conduct this survey in the first place. Reps for AB InBev — the owner of Corona beer — did not immediately respond to …

2020-02-27: I’m impressed with the rollout for Motherland: Fort Salem. It’s been on a slow build, and it’s not been especially clear whether this was going to be a small show or a big one, and then tonight I saw this spot for the first time, and, yeah: I’m in.

2020-02-27: It will never not be confusing to me that it’s faster to edit styles.css than custom.css, because for some reason the latter takes an order of magnitude longer to rebuild and publish than the former.

2020-02-27: And with just four words, The Bold Type punctures influencers far more brutally than did my bastardized Leslie Knope: “So, you’re a saleswoman.”

2020-02-27: I’m not a night sky photographer, but I’m okay with this shot of the moon and Venus, and a crescent closeup. Taken handheld with the Nikon D5300 and Tamron 18-200 VC.

2020-02-27: I’m definitely here for any opportunity to dunk on the smug, smarty-pants asshole named Neil deGrasse Tyson. In this case: he publicly tried to shame the 🎥 Arrival, but didn’t understand it.

2020-02-27: Here’s what I have to say to the Democratic officials, including 93 superdelegates, willing to burn down the house in order to stop Bernie Sanders: while I think Sanders is overzealous in his “don’t you dare” proclamations, it’s profoundly insulting, …

2020-02-27: Shuja Haider provides a handy list of the Republican resistance grifters who love to tell Democrats that to win they need to be more like Republicans, and I’d fucking love to see fewer of my follows ever again retweeting these people.

2020-02-27: It is somewhat flummoxing and more than a bit exhausting that in 2020 someone still needs to explain that it’s okay for kids to read comics. (No surprise: it’s a librarian doing the explaining.) Let me let you in on a little secret: a lot of people my age in many ways …

2020-02-27: Today I spent more than four hours out and about in St. Johns, from breakfast to two different coffeeshops to walking further west than I’d gotten since moving up here. I did not actually stop at the tavern; it was my western most point.

2020-02-27: Is there any reason to switch from Sprint to Xfinity Mobile? I could have the same setup I have now for the same price, so it’d only make sense if there’s some obvious benefit. Otherwise, I’ll stay where I am and continue pondering that upgrade fee which gets me …

2020-02-27: I can’t speak for anyone else, but when I use the word agnostic it’s not to be “friendly” or because the word atheist is “scary”. I use it because it’s what I am: a devout agnostic. To me, atheism carries too much of its own belief load, …

2020-02-27: On one and the same day, I came across Tom Whyman on “the spectre of the wallet inspector [which] is summoned whenever someone falls for an obvious grift” and Barry M. Mitnick on how “con artists are especially skillful at what social scientists call framing, …

2020-02-27: Current best-guess sense of how the fatigue side effect of the mirtazapine is affecting me is that I think it’s mostly accentuating my existing state. So if I engage in activities which tend to deplete me, it’s making me feel more depleted than usual. This in itself is not l, I …

2020-02-27: If you know what’s good for you, you’ll start your morning like I did: by watching “Hometown Hospitality with Senator Elizabeth Warren” from last night’s The Late Show with Stephen Colbert.

2020-02-27: The biggest question posed by tonight’s The Magicians: is this the first time Eliot and Margo have Freaky Friday’d? It really does seem like the sort of magic they would have done.

2020-02-26: One more brain-addled addition to the blog: a new Subscriptions page, generated from a Feedbin .opml export that I converted to an .html file and then pasted into that page; if you’re interested in what I’m reading via RSS. Addenda I’m slowly adding my email …

2020-02-26: Just made a small ennui-prompted design tweak, changing the font for the main site header and page headers to font-family:'Rock Salt';.

2020-02-26: Someday I will find a Mastodon instance that feels right and fits me. It will either be a matter of the domain, or one of the site-local community. I’ve currently got accounts on four different instances, but nothing’s really stuck. I’m aware that I can follow …

2020-02-26: Browsing old photos on my phone, I came across this shot of Robert Ainsley, outside at Director Park in downtown Portland, conducting the Portland Opera Chorus on August 29, 2010.

2020-02-26: No one will beat Limericking in reactions to Vice President Mike Pence being named the United States’ “coronavirus czar”.

2020-02-26: I’m not sure I’m capable of judging the degree to which this John Stoehr piece approaches being, in a sense, appropriative, but I take his point: in both a very real and a rhetorical sense, the truly American politics is black politics. What I personally was most …

2020-02-26: My difficulty, ultimately, with calling potentially-radical formal experiments “blogging”—no matter how far they might end up deviating from what we know as blogging—is that words have to mean things. It’s sort of like how I feel about “reading”. New …

2020-02-26: Having finally come to the final episode of The Blacklist: Redemption, I can say that I support the fact that it wasn’t renewed. It’s anywhere from “who cares” to “remarkably bad”, but my completionist urge required me to watch, since I’m still watching The Blacklist itself.

2020-02-26: “No way to prevent this,“ says only nation where this regularly happens.

2020-02-26: By the way, your love of ride-sharing is bad for the environment, as the Union of Concerned Scientists reports that these trips are “about 69 percent more polluting than the types of trips they are replacing”.

2020-02-26: I admit that I find public proclamations that one doesn’t blog about the news to be akin to public proclamations that one doesn’t own a television. To me, a fair amount of the news is “my world” or “things happening in the realm with which I …

2020-02-26: Someday, when we somehow successfully push Chris Matthews off of MSNBC, he will have a comfortable gig as the host or pundit Fox News rolls out to mime they are “fair and balanced”. Even if we only think of the past week, it’s long since time for him to go.

2020-02-26: Kuhn’s discovery prompted research into the plight of three of Kauai’s six remaining honeycreeper species: the anianiau, the Kauai amakihi, and the akekee. His hunch was correct — the three species now sing much more similar songs, with less complex vocal signals, due to the …

2020-02-26: Reading that the Trump campaign has sued The New York Times for libel, I assume we all had the same thought: the Times gets to seek documents from the campaign through the discovery process. Addenda MetaFilter, on the ball as ever, with a post about the other libel, “a …

2020-02-26: I’m not sure if there’s a competition for the cringiest thing to say when discussing why you were hired to direct a 🎥 from a major Hollywood studio, but surely this (more discussion here) would be a very strong contender. “Although it’s a critically …

2020-02-26: Nicole Kornher-Stace answers a question about the potential aromantic and/or asexual nature of the protagonist in her Archivist Wasp 📚.

2020-02-26: This thread of Democratic candidates described by the role they’d play in a 📺 writers room probably will be the highlight of my Wednesday.

2020-02-26: Moderate Democrats have been consistently inconsistent for decades. They have been rightfully critical of the prospect of a progressive presidential nominee: A progressive could alienate centrist voters, drive up voting rates among conservatives, and imperil the reelection …

2020-02-25: Wait: exactly how often are six-year-old black girls arrested for “tantrums” at school by Florida cops, because this update on an incident from September is not even the same fucking incident I blogged about just last week.

2020-02-25: Oh, hello, If You Take My Meaning by Charlie Jane Anders appearing on my Kobo automagically because I’d remembered to pre-order it.

2020-02-25: Anyone have any idea why, while most locations I’ve saved as Favorites in Apple Maps when clicked bring up an info pane, some locations bring up the directions pane instead?

2020-02-25: Christa Holmans offers a terrific and concise reframing of being autistic by focusing on exactly how autistic behaviors and experiences can be differerent from the typical without necessarily being somehow about deficits in those behaviors and experiences.

2020-02-25: It’s not even that I have an inherent problem with “co-living” as an option (and its resurgence is fascinating), it’s that it’s weird that the tech industry ethos which helped break San Francisco housing now has proceeded to grow a startup providing adult dorm living there.

2020-02-25: Warren’s unbridled bellicosity Wednesday night offered an unconventional answer to that question. Some saw her performance as an act of desperation: a flagging candidate seeking discount media coverage with a parade of quotable moments. Or it may have been more strategic: …

2020-02-25: Finally, I can stop minimizing Safari whenever I accidentally hit Cmd+M when I go to open a new tab and then type micro.blog: thanks to this answer I now have “some bizzare key combination” in its place.

2020-02-25: Oh shit. FreakAngels from Warren Ellis and Paul Duffield is being adapted by Crunchyroll. I think I originally read this via a self-rolled .cbz from files downloaded from wherever the original webcomic was hosted. Addenda Theres a brief glimpse of FreakAngels near the end of the …

2020-02-25: Colin Walker (discussing a purported “text renaissance”) loops back to an earlier discussion about Dave Winer being dissatisfied with blogging. This is back when I made the observation that for all intents and purposes what Winer is doing these days is disavowing the blog and …

2020-02-25: For weeks I complain that the Twitter topic for Sci-fi and fantasy films is nothing but Star Wars as if nothing else exists, even to the point where it once was entirely about television, and what do I get when I look today? Elon Musk. Serves me right, I guess.

2020-02-25: “Why is Tom Steyer a frontrunner in South Carolina?” I’ve been asking and New York Magazine tried to answer, but I got stuck on this quote from Dr. Janice Ryan-Bohac: “He’s a billionaire with a heart and I think we need a different kind of president.” …

2020-02-25: Despite its blithe dismissal, I think the explanation below (via Paul Bausch) is exactly why nothing akin to tabletop roleplaying games (notwithstanding Kriegsspiel) appeared before the modern era. Most of history is forgotten, and surely a historian would know this. An …

2020-02-25: Despite the general understanding that internet comments are an existential exhaustion, I feel (for now?) vaguely excited for replies on Micro.blog. If you missed it earlier, Manton also put up a help page about it. My one caveat for those looking to turn this feature on: …

2020-02-25: I’m really pretty exhausted with DuckDuckGo’s search of this blog. Despite even having a sitemap.xml with every blog post in it, I often just get category pages as results, and not posts. Google’s results are a bit better, but I don’t want to use them. …

2020-02-25: John Stoehr brings me the term skinfolk through its use by Michael Harriot. I’ve noted it for future reference.

2020-02-25: “The war game is notable,” reports The Guardian, “[…] because it embodied the controversial notion that it might be possible to fight, and win, a battle with nuclear weapons […].” It literally was just two months ago that I wrote (in the shadow of tensions …

2020-02-25: Joanne McNeil pens today’s edition of Why is this interesting? to offer some background on how she stumbled upon Cafe Los Negroes while writing her 📖, Lurking, which I wrote about yesterday; it’s available in hardcover and ebook today.

2020-02-24: Ed Asner on Briarpatch just sitting in a chair and not even giving one fuck is my entire mood.

2020-02-24: That feeling when not one of the four books you want to re-read are available to borrow as ebooks from the library through OverDrive.

2020-02-24: The obvious and fundamental problem with Bernie Sanders’ plurality plan for the Democratic National Convention is that if all the delegates outside that plurality could agree on a single alternative candidate, that candidate would then have a majority of delegates. So, is …

2020-02-24: It can’t just have been fatigue plus hyperfocus drain, because it’s coming up on 7:00pm, I’ve had breakfast, I’ve had lunch, and (just recently) I’ve had dinner, and I basically feel like I am sick. The question is, am I sick, or is this the …

2020-02-24: Still looking for a macOS solution for basic photo edits, mostly things like resizing and saving to .png without ending up with files that are massive compared to the original .jpg. It used to be Photoshop Elements for me, but the version I have doesn’t work right under …

2020-02-24: Two years ago today in the herd of nonprofit urban goats I used to manage, at their now-former home in Lents Town Center, Bailey was wearing a very fine hat.

2020-02-24: What I want to know is: when Nevada switches to a primary will it incorporate the one aspect of a caucus that can and should be scaled up, and utilize the ranked-preference ballot they used for “early caucusing” this year?

2020-02-24: So I didn’t, after all, re-read some early 2000s books before finally writing up Lurking but I still intend to do those re-reads, plus I’m adding We’ve Got Blog to that list (no link because it’s not available on Bookshop). Addenda Another book worth re-reading: Derek …

2020-02-24: I realize now that when I asked if anyone had any experience with NuFlo earbuds the answer of course is no, because I guess they still are listed as being in production, and not yet shipping. So only those “influencers” they’ve sent them to have used them.

2020-02-24: Currently shaking from having hyperfocused myself well past needing to supplement the pancake and bacon I had at Slim’s with some additional nutrition. I went out for bar breakfast because this morning I awoke still somewhat fatigued from yesterday’s fatgue, and then …

2020-02-24: In some sense, it’s interesting that I had to pause my reading of Building and Dwelling: Ethics in the City in order to read Lurking: How a Person Became a User (the latter suddenly came through for me on NetGalley), in that a significant part of why I’ve wanted to read the …

2020-02-24: Chris Aldrich brings me Cory Doctorow’s glorious paean to the ethic of gopherspace. My first access to the internet was via a dialup gopher server run by a public library in upstate New York; I adoringly went on to run a gopher server for awhile.

2020-02-24: Disinformation attacks this consensus. It warns us that the Democrats are ushering in “socialism” to America, but this warning is a throwback to Reconstruction, when black men began to vote just as the government instituted national taxes. Racist opponents began to argue that …

2020-02-24: Here’s the Bloomberg campaign complaining about graffiti on their storefront in Flint, Michigan. What does it read? ”Eat the rich.” Bloomberg is worth $62 billion, and single-handedly could have funded a fix for Flint’s water supply. Fuck him, and his team.

2020-02-24: Manton mentioned the much-anticipated ability to show replies on your blog posts, so of course I peeked at how it worked and at least for the moment have it running here, too. I do wonder how, or I guess if, this might affect how people reply to things in Timeline, since those …

2020-02-24: This description in Semicolon about a previous way of thinking about the use of punctuation literally is how I use punctuation. Although I don’t necessarily think musically., I am thinking about rhythm. When the topic of punctuation usage came up, a reader was likely to be …

2020-02-24: Today’s fatigue apparently was so mentally-blinkering that when returning after spraying ant-barrier outside my windows and doors, I didn’t bother to lock or chain my front door. At any point in the last six hours, anyone could have just walked right into my …

2020-02-23: For the life of me I don’t understand what Bernie Sanders gets out of a Marianne Williamson endorsement. I can only assume that her dangerous claptrap is why he didn’t actually appear on-stage with her, but if so then he shouldn’t have let her on his stage at all.

2020-02-23: On my fatigue-defying photowalk on Saturday, I came across this iron works facility down the hill in St. Johns, and was struck by its architectural contrasts.

2020-02-23: Anyone have any smart suggestions as to why Safari intermittently opens the link when I Control-Click to bring up the contextual menu and then select Copy Link? It does copy the link when this happens, and it doesn’t happen all the time. I’m at a loss.

2020-02-23: So, Friday’s fatigue bled into Saturday which bled into today, and I had a hard crash for a couple of hours late this afternoon into evening. Literally I looked up from what I was going on the laptop around 5:00pm and realized that my entire upper body felt heavy. I moved …

2020-02-23: I’ve started reading Semicolon by Cecelia Watson; I’m still reading The Sky Is Yours by Chandler Klang Smith; and I’ve finished reading Building and Dwelling by Richard Sennett. I’ve finished nine 📚 so far this year, with nine waiting in my queue.

2020-02-23: Well, this is extraordinarily annoying. I’d discovered that my old Photoshop Elements 14 would still Save for Web without crashing as long as I chose PNG-8, but now even that has stopped working. This is maddening.

2020-02-23: This week on 📺 I’m watching Doctor Who, Batwoman, Supergirl, Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist, Black Lightning, Briarpatch, The Flash, DC’s Legends of Tomorrow, The Masked Singer, Nancy Drew, The Magicians, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, The Bold …

2020-02-23: I’ve expanded the meaning and approach of my Colophon page to include copyright and usage information, an ethics statement, and a list of sources for the random quotes widget. Addenda While searching for other previously-used quotes, I ran across an early colophon page of …

2020-02-23: The streets in Lego’s city sets had space for cars, trains, even tiny storm drains but no designated space for zero-emission, human-powered vehicles like bikes. Even worse, it appeared that Lego’s streets were becoming more hostile toward pedestrians over time. As compared to …

2020-02-23: Asked “if America has ever been in such a crisis before”, Heather Cox Richardson details three other times it has happened here. The answer to the first question is yes, it has, three times, although only once was this bad. In the 1850s, the 1890s, and the 1920s, …

2020-02-23: In a late-night sop to my early web-making days, I’ve added a randomized secret message to my blog design. After a trip in the Wayback Machine, the list of messages actually incorporates many of the ones I was using on websites in the late 1990s and early 2000s.

2020-02-22: Now I’m wondering, late on a Saturday night, thanks to CJ Eller, whether I’m more of a baboon or more of a squid.

2020-02-22: I freely admit that I am an MSNBC viewer, excepting Morning Joe, MTP Daily, Hardball, or any show that has any of those hosts on as guests, but even I now might have to boycott unless they fire Chris Matthews. Once was a head-shaker; twice is a pattern.

2020-02-22: That feeling when you notice that your package of Newtons describes its Triple Berry variety as: “Natural flavor with other natural flavor.”

2020-02-22: I’m not sure why but this last photo from my accidental fatigue-denying photowalk around St. Johns feels like it sums up a lot of things.

2020-02-22: Not for nothing but when Elizabeth Warren just said in Seattle that for a running mate she wants “a partner in this fight”, I flashed on just the other day when, while describing support she has, she said, “I could not ask for a better partner than Julián …

2020-02-22: “There is no ethical example of a gig economy company,” says Daniel Harvey. The cited specific? Even everyone’s much-beloved Target is screwing over gig workers in a rather dramatic fashion.

2020-02-22: I need to thank Jay Springett for calling my attention to the fact that while it’s all well and good to be impressed with “the Volume” used for The Mandalorian, a couple years ago filmmaker Michael Plescia documented his journey developing the same approach as a …

2020-02-22: For some reason after breakfast out I went for a walk, I think because I was rebelling a bit against the tired I felt, and like a genius person I walked downhill to look for photographs to take, and then had to walk back uphill to get home. No rebelling against tired now.

2020-02-22: Early on in her Semicolon, Cecelia Watson poses a question which—ironically—practically begs for the answer that, yes: Twitter does. The rhetorical question mark, on the other hand, faltered and then fizzled our completely. This isn’t too surprising: does anyone really need a …

2020-02-22: It’s not lost on me that Mike Bloomberg is violating the same Twitter policy as the Russian bots supporting Trump which prompted the policy to begin with, but why isn’t Twitter also suspending Bloomberg himself and his campaign account. It’s his spam farm.

2020-02-22: Are there any magical incantations to utter at a Sprint store to get them to waive their ridiculous $30 upgrade fee? That’s the only way I could justify switching from the iPhone XR to the iPhone 11. The investment of time to go to a store is too much as it is.

2020-02-22: “I would love to hear a believable explanation for all this,” challenges Heather Cox Richardson, “that does not lead to the conclusion that Republicans are willing to invite Russia—or any foreign power— into our elections, so long as it means they win.” Richardson’s newsletter, …

2020-02-22: I’m getting what at the moment is a vague historical urge to do a re-read of The Weblog Handbook by Rebecca Blood and Small Pieces Loosely Joined by David Weinberger, possibly because I’m about to finish Building and Dwelling by Richard Sennett which means I’m …

2020-02-21: It’s telling that Stephen Miller effectively confesses to government officials that all he has is his seething racist xenophobia, and equally as telling that he’s Mine Furor’s longest-running staffer. As the meeting ended, Miller held up his hand to make a final comment. “I …

2020-02-21: I’ve adjusted my 📺 lineup and have decided not to start in on Hunters given that I remain behind on The End of the F***ing World, Glitch, The Man In the High Castle, The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, and She-Ra and the Princesses of Power, but I’m definitely continuing with Diablero, …

2020-02-21: Killing time with urban architecture and transit infrastructure while waiting for the bus at SW 1st & Oak in downtown Portland while listening to The Juliana Hatfield Three.

2020-02-21: I admit that I misread CJ Eller quoting Robin Sloan as having written, “Is it simply… the feeling of being alone?” and, honestly, I got confused about whether that would be a quality of being in a place or a space.

2020-02-21: My own autistic support needs aren’t quite as high in this sort of situation as described by Rhi here but the general shape of how these things can transpire probably is worth neurotypicals knowing.

2020-02-21: I’d wondered if my regular fatigue, yesterday’s zoo trip, and the mirtazapine fatigue would mean that today would be a wash-out, and sure enough I’ve been necessarily asleep for the past few/several hours.

2020-02-21: “The One Where They Film Us Sitting Around and Talking About Having Once Made a Scripted 📺 Show Together and Then Go Cash Our Massive Paychecks For It”.

2020-02-21: Yesterday’s trip to the Oregon Zoo, as represented by either mountain goat Sassy or mountain goat Montane in Great Northwest, sea otter Uni Sushi in Pacific Shores, and red panda Moshu in Discovery Zone.

2020-02-21: One of the mirtazapine side effects I haven’t discussed much is vivid dreams and, yes, I very much am having them. I don’t necessarily remember them any better but they are noticeably clearer and, curiously, much more well-structured as stories, or at least they have …

2020-02-21: While the concept is much older, of course, my first awareness of rear projection in filmmaking was James Cameron’s use of it in Aliens. I’ve not seen The Mandalorian, but through its production the idea has come a long way and been transformed into “the Volume”, an immersive set …

2020-02-21: Mostly, I maybe need to learn not to post politics before, oh, say noon or so. The thing below is completely wrong. I don’t know how Warren got the “two paragraphs” thing, unless she did what I did: load the main page and not notice the several links to specific …

2020-02-21: At some point seemingly in every debate, someone, usually Buttigieg, hits Medicare for All over its tax increase. Sanders, usually, tries in response to argue that total costs go down. Is there a reason not a single moderator ever injects themselves to ask the obvious and very …

2020-02-21: Among the many ways in which being a pedestrian in Portland can be a dangerous endeavor: cars parked too close to intersections, disabling line-of-sight. Now, a $5.9 million lawsuit in the death of a bicyclist aims to end the practice.

2020-02-21: Medical updates: I’m hoping to have a decent enough sense of whether the fatiguing side effects of the mirtazapine are abating to be able to get in my first shingles vaccine shot sooner rather than later. The first week of March brings a followup ultrasound to check on the …

2020-02-20: Last October, however, I received a letter from CFI suggesting that “we part ways” and dismissing me from my role as co-host of Point of Inquiry. I believe the dismissal was a response to my outspoken views on CFI’s negligence toward matters of race and diversity — issues that …

2020-02-20: So, this seems bad, but, really, the question we maybe should be asking is: why didn’t Tom Perez and the Democratic National Committee think to do this and head Trump off at the pass? In the immediate run up to the U.S. presidential election and on Election Day, the …

2020-02-20: There’s a weird history of Brooklyn Nine-Nine somehow getting some hilarious things past Broadcast Standards and Practices but immediately to the top of that list goes tonight’s, “The pegging worked!”

2020-02-20: “Republican senators affirmatively voted to allow the president to use his official powers,” wrote Adam Serwer on Wednesday, “to suppress the opposition party, [and] to purge government employees who proved more loyal to the Constitution than to Trump.” The very next day, …

2020-02-20: Michael Harriot with the apparently-surprise lesson learned by pundits, viewers, and voters last night: Elizabeth Warren exists.

2020-02-20: Someone, whether denizens of downtown Portland dive bar Yamhill Pub, random punks, stray antifa, or all of the above, would like you to know that all cops are bastards.

2020-02-20: So our intelligence agencies briefed everyone that Russia again is interfering in a U.S. election to help Trump, and he gets so angry that Congress, too, was told that he pushes out his acting Director of National Intelligence, and, further, makes a Russia gaslighter a senior …

2020-02-20: In today’s bulletin from life inside the Mirtazapine Regime, while I wasn’t sure if the zoo would happen today because of the somewhat unpredictability of the medication’s fatiguing side effects, I did end up pulling myself out for a breakfast sandwich and …

2020-02-20: One of the chimpanzees at Oregon Zoo takes some quiet alone time inside the Red Ape Reserve, their home while Primate Forest is under construction.

2020-02-20: Not that anyone wants to repost my blog posts, but given the Malcolm Blaney situation, I’ve posted some very simple terms to my new Colophon page. Words and pictures are copyright © Bix Frankonis and reproduction beyond what’s permitted by fair use doctrine is not allowed …

2020-02-20: There’s value to being sociable, but one of the perks of having your own personal site is freedom from follower counts, likes, claps, and other popularity contests that reduce your self-expressions into impressions. It’s nice to know when people like your work, or find it …

2020-02-20: As the saying goes: news tweeting is only the first rough draft of history blog posts.

2020-02-20: On the one hand Meru is pretty firmly fixed in place. On the other hand Willow is going to want the blinds opened in the southern-exposure windows. On the third hand I do need breakfast and to decide if today is zoo day.

2020-02-20: Camille Soleil details a changing St. Johns as nearly a dozen businesses on the main drag downtown close up shop. Unreported: it’s my fault, as this all began after I moved here in November, 2018.

2020-02-19: I’m sure there must have been drama that I’ve missed, but today I witnessed my first Micro.blog conflict, and, worse, one that’s apparently resulted in the departure of one of the site’s only people of color. (For more on what went down and what Sameer reacted to, …

2020-02-19: “When the mayor says he apologized, listen very closely,” said Elizabeth Warren at the debate. “The language he used, about ‘how it turned out’. Now, this isn’t about how it turned out. This is about what it was designed to do to begin …

2020-02-19: Even if it’s not true that Mine Furor offered Assange a pardon if he exonerated Russia for its election interference, in a sane world the fact that Dana Rohrabacher told Assange this would mean that somewhere there’s an active counter-intelligence investigation into …

2020-02-19: If like me you suddenly looked up today and asked the sky how you can have early voting during the Nevada caucus, thankfully CNN thought this might come up and provides the answer: ranked preference ballots. Addenda I still think that vote-by-mail using ranked-preference ballots …

2020-02-19: To be honest what I appreciate most here might be that someone went to a lot of effort first to enpinken a priority mail label and then write this on it.

2020-02-19: All you really need to know about this ridiculous Neal Simon piece arguing that a Romney/Bloomberg ticket is what “America deserves” is that Simon, according to his Wikipedia page, has “described his fiscal positions as being closer to that of the Republican …

2020-02-19: I don’t normally go “meta” or “process” with photo posts but the Soft Mist preset in Lightroom does wonders on pictures of Meru.

2020-02-19: Once when posting about genrefication I wondered where I’d be shelved given that an NYPL quiz about Dewey placed me in 636: Pets & farm animals. Kimberly Hirsh mentioned at the time that fiction tends to be genrefied more than nonfiction, so today I was super-curious …

2020-02-19: In discussing which medical records voters do or don’t have the right to see, Jill Filipovic touches somerthing of a disability rights third rail when it comes to political campaigns and elected officials. […] I can’t help but think it’s relevant if a person who is seeking …

2020-02-19: The fatigue that came with life under the Mirtazapine Regime seems to be lessening but it’s paid a visit post-breakfast and I want to both relax in the bedroom instead of the living room and be able to watch Netflix while working on the laptop. Luckily, I found a Safari …

2020-02-19: Mike Bloomberg is paying Californians to regularly spam all their contacts with messages promoting his presidential campaign.

2020-02-19: The rising southeastern sun’s winter wall shadows taunt the morning inertia of bed.

2020-02-19: I am beginning to receive spammy inquiries from people wanting to get their content into my blog, which means I’ve hit another milestone in my return to blogging.

2020-02-18: I come to you, wide-eyed, and with the joy of learning something new. You know that feeling. It’s almost like a teen-spring crush. It’s thrilling, exciting, full of awkward moments, triumphs, and failures. I have that annoying energy and “whywhywhy” of a toddler. You are an …

2020-02-18: Well, that certainly was the darkest episode-ender DC’s Legends of Tomorrow has ever done. A very sudden stark contrast to what’s effectively the bwah-ha-ha show of the DC Comics 📺 stable.

2020-02-18: No elementary school which sends a neurodivergent six-year-old girl to a mental health facility because of a “tantrum” has the right to be called Love Grove.

2020-02-18: Did some more CSS tinkering (mostly around the navigation menu and the search box), and made a custom sitemap.xml template because I’d forgotten to turn off my replies to others being published to a section of my blog, and they were in theory getting indexed because of …

2020-02-18: This thread is powerful because it invites us to imagine being haunted by this weird rat-like boy your whole fucking life, watching on in horror as he actually comes somehow close to forcing the world into alignment with his wildest West Wing fantasies. But it also serves a more …

2020-02-18: Anyone who credits the pair of stories saying that Barr is telling people he might resign over Trump’s interference as being about the interference and not about its publicness should get out of journalism, politics, or punditry right now.

2020-02-18: Dear web browsers, please can I have support for this :has() pseudo-class? Because able to select for any a tag that directly contains an img child would be useful to me, eventually. The :has() CSS pseudo-class represents an element if any of the selectors passed as parameters …

2020-02-18: People trying to argue “context” for these Bloomberg remarks don’t seem to notice that even in-context they are pretty problematic. For one thing, no: he isn’t “quoting someone else”. He starts to quote a hypothetical person in “the …

2020-02-18: This should maybe just be another addendum to the last post, but: I sure am existentially tired of getting all of five minutes breathing-room to appreciate (if not necessarily enjoy) successfully tackling some necessary but exceedingly difficult thing before this one family …

2020-02-18: Now that a family member is making conservatorship noises at me because the flow of my management of medical, psychological, and social services needs isn’t happening at the “right” pace, let me be clear: if there’s one way to turn me into someone experiencing suicidal ideation, …

2020-02-18: Self-professed “not a Whovian by any means” Dan Barrett has decided he knows how to make Doctor Who “fun to watch again”. I”m not sure why he singles out today’s Doctor Who for “a half-hour serialised format” but not, you know, any …

2020-02-18: It’s baffling to me that in weather like this, St. Johns Coffee Roasters does not put their outdoor seating out. I get it’s a bit of extra work, but come on.

2020-02-18: If you’re any sort of progressive urbanist, you’ll probably weep at this short film from 2018 (via CityLab) showing how curtrailing car traffic in a nine-square-block area in Barcelona turned mere urban space into an urban place.

2020-02-18: I don’t have anything especially incisive to say about it but I was struck at the contrast between Colin Walker’s take on Seth Godin (“bands spend most of their time essentially ‘playing covers of their own work’”) and something I literally …

2020-02-18: By the terms of this study of success in autistic adults, I should be living independently, be working, and have multiple friendships. Instead, while I am living independently I am not supporting myself, and I do not have a job; arguably I do have multiple friendships albeit …

2020-02-18: According to psychologist Madeline Levine writing for The Atlantic, the path to success isn’t a linear progression; it’s Jeremy Bearimy.

2020-02-18: Patreon is looking to turn its creators into debtors (via Andy Baio), which does not seem like a great idea to me.

2020-02-18: Mine Furor today commuted the sentence of one person guilty of corruption and pardoned another person guilty of concealing a crime. Not that you should read anything into these things, of course.

2020-02-18: Brace yourselves: people who take astrology seriously and somehow think “Mercury retrograde” means anything at all are here.

2020-02-18: In an unusual move, an association of federal judges has called an emergency phone conference to discuss political interference in prosecutions, not waiting until their regularly-scheduled meeting this spring.

2020-02-17: I’ve reached upgrade eligiblity on my leased Sprint phone. Is it worth switching from the iPhone XR to the iPhone 11 for the same monthly lease amount? I’m thinking mostly about going from the XR’s single camera to the 11’s wide and ultra-wide with …

2020-02-17: Somehow I misplaced where I saw this, but check out Neal Agarwal’s “Printing Money” if you’ve somehow forgotten how much the Haves have that you don’t. Now someone do Tom Steyer and Mike Bloomberg.

2020-02-17: Dragging, like I am every day right now, but also because I pushed myself past the point of any sense of wisdom to go buy laundry detergent and ant-barrier spray, take out the compost and recycling, and then vacuum up all the cat hair. So now I’m pushing my budget to have a …

2020-02-17: You’d think that a story on an advanced supercomputer “designed to improve extreme weather and climate forecasting” would mention its carbon footprint.

2020-02-17: Dan Barrett’s newsletter tips me to the imminent I Am Not Okay With This, from basically the same folks who brought us The End of the F***ing World, which I still need to finish, and now probably will get to soon. Not Okay is going onto my watch list and drops at the end of …

2020-02-16: I don’t think that I thought that “social was a panacea”, and I don’t mean by that to say that I thought better than Colin Walker; I mean in fact that I doubt I really thought about it at all at the time. When social media (as opposed to the …

2020-02-16: If this general tiredness and fatigue is going to be a persistent feature of life under the Mirtazapine Regime, two things are guaranteed: my housework is not going to get done even more than it doesn’t get done already, and my emotional fuse is going to run very short. …

2020-02-16: The fact that this episode of The Blacklist just straight-up steals the Miniature Killer from CSI: Crime Scene Investigation makes me realize I should probably wonder from whence CSI stole it.

2020-02-16: Jason Becker being “disappointed it’ll be another year” before A Desolation Called Peace comes out reminds me that I never did link to Arkady Martine’s plot-relevant space kitten.

2020-02-16: I’d be really curious to know what the statistics on my Twitter activity look like since I started primarily reading my feed through Feedbin instead of through Twitter, and deleted the apps from my phone and laptop.

2020-02-16: It’s too bad this rental isn’t closer in towards downtown St. Johns and isn’t amenable to more pets on the property. I can’t imagine many other rentals where I might not find 380ft2 claustrophobic.

2020-02-16: That feeling when you decide to walk over to Grocery Outlet to get some of that Vanilla Cinnamon gelato from Talenti and discover a cheap bag of cashews and then find they carry Mrs. T’s frozen pierogi.

2020-02-16: The other day when I reposted an old thing about Inception, it linked the old blog where it had originally appeared, and today I remembered how much I liked the color I used in that site’s very-minimalist scheme (I’d also used it in an earlier incarnation of a …

2020-02-16: It’s true that I’m primarily reading Building and Dwelling: Ethics for the City looking for interesting observations about urban planning and cities that might have analogues when it comes to online communities, but along the way I am learning about some fascinating …

2020-02-16: The road to this place started in the 1950s, as a small group of Republicans who hated FDR’s New Deal insisted that any government intervention in the economy to make sure the haves did not dominate the have-nots was “socialism.” As voters kept siding with government activism, …

2020-02-16: This morning I watched the “Dog Tales” episode of NOVA and really my one lingering question is where do I go to adopt one of these domesticated foxes from that experiment in Russia.

2020-02-16: “What is the middle ground between real-time chat and blog posts?” wonders CJ Eller. “Between synchronous and asynchronous communication?” I don’t mean to be flippant but I confess that literally my immediate response to this was, …

2020-02-16: This week on 📺 I’m watching Doctor Who, Batwoman, Supergirl, Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist, 9-1-1: Lone Star, The Flash, DC’s Legends of Tomorrow, The Masked Singer, The Magicians, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, The Bold Type, Briarpatch, Hunters, and Seven Worlds, One Planet. …

2020-02-16: Lurched awake around 5:00am on the verge of getting sick. On the one hand, nausea is a possible side effect of living under the Mirtazapine Regime; on the other hand, this happens to me several times a year anyway. I’ve no idea which this was.

2020-02-15: I’m in my second year living in St. Johns and twenty-third year living in Portland. I’m in my fifty-first year of being alive and my fourth year as a diagnosed autistic. I’m in my third year of trying to figure out my health and my second year of trying to find …

2020-02-15: It might help things if actually-autistic people themselves would stop using the same “functioning” language which helps cause neurotypicals to have such misconceptions about us to begin with. Discussion shouldn’t be about functioning but about support.

2020-02-15: Diving back into Netflix’s international partnerships, I’ve started in on Diablero, the titular Elvis Infante being for all intents and purposes sort of the John Constantine of Mexico City.

2020-02-15: Chloe, one of the chimpanzees at Oregon Zoo, unintentionally dramatizing some of my internal psychological struggles of late.

2020-02-15: Next, take it one step further and add captions to everything. You’ll find it helps with mumbling actors and unfamiliar accents, you’ll enjoy catching side remarks in your favorite shows that you never noticed before, and you’ll discover the hidden joys of surprisingly creative …

2020-02-15: Asleep by midnight, up at 8:00am to feed the cats then back to bed to snooze the alarm until 10:00am. Out to breakfast at 10:30am, not seated until closer to 11:00am, back home by just before noon. By around 1:00pm, back into bed until after 4:00pm. This has been your bulletin …

2020-02-15: Life under the Mirtazapine Regime also has brought changes to my dreams, which in addition to being more numerous appear to have been upgraded from standard definition to high.

2020-02-14: Used my monthly free FandangoNOW 🎥 rental from Sprint to watch Terminator: Dark Fate. It’s mostly just okay. Diversionary enough, I guess? Too much Snyderesque “suddenly we’re a video game” action, though.

2020-02-14: An active mountain goat diorama in the Cascade Crest habitat at the entrance to Oregon Zoo, featuring Murphy and Leah, and either Sassy or Montane.

2020-02-14: Andrew Weissmann was just on The Rachel Maddow Show arguing that the dissolution of the rule of law under Attorney General Barr isn’t a Democratic or Republican matter, because, effectively, members of both parties have in the past when it comes to the rule of law operated …

2020-02-14: Because the public is listening to what’s going on, and I don’t think people like the fact that you got somebody at the top basically trying to dictate whether somebody should be prosecuted. I just think it’s a banana republic when we go down that road and we …

2020-02-14: Chloe, one of the chimpanzees at Oregon Zoo who is about the same age as me, without shawl and with shawl on Valentine’s Day.

2020-02-14: Life under the Mirtazapine Regime means it’s tougher to overcome morning inertia upon waking up, and the transit trip to the zoo was tougher than usual, but the zoo visit itself was comparable in energy-levels to normal. The transit trip home does seem a deeper tired.

2020-02-14: Cool, I’m once again staring at an imminent rental agreement termination at 11:59pm next Tuesday if this rent does not get properly paid, and between here and there is a three-day weekend.

2020-02-14: In the mirtazapine side effects lottery I won “drowsiness” and “fatigue”. Which I guess is better than “nausea” and “rash”? I just had a security guard ask me if I was okay, because I was leaning, standing-up, against the building abutting the MAX station, with my head down. It …

2020-02-14: Still waiting for the mea culpa from Rachel Maddow and the other MSNBC hosts who regularly fawned all over Michael Avenatti as a guest despite his obvious griftiness.

2020-02-14: Everyone out there crowing, “I called it!” as if every other Stranger Things viewer didn’t also call it.

2020-02-14: I am not by any stretch a huge morning person as it is but this mirtazapine is not making it at all any easier, and I really want to make the zoo today else there won’t be a zoo trip this week but it’s so difficult to get moving. I’ve only just now managed to sit up. Addenda …

2020-02-13: It would help if I knew whether I’ve been drained all day because of the mirtazapine or because starting the mirtazapine happened to coincide with having a low-energy day, which I do have. It seems weird to think that I could be taking tonight’s pill while still feeling the …

2020-02-13: Are you willing to provide your driver’s license, passport, or national ID card in order to participate in a social media platform? Voice is betting on it. What do we know about HooYu, the verification service they’ll be using?

2020-02-13: For the love of god, can we please keep the tech sector away from voting and just nationalize paper ballots and vote-by-mail. Democracy does not require disruption. New research from a team of MIT engineers has found an alarming string of vulnerabilities in a leading blockchain …

2020-02-13: So I was in bed until 11:30am, pulled myself up and out for cheap bar breakfast, came back after for sitting on the couch with the laptop, had to go back to sleep at 2:30pm, and then about two hours later woke up weak and shaky because I’d been sleeping instead of having a second …

2020-02-13: The sedative effects of mirtazapine are so pronounced that it wasn’t until I was on my way back to bed from having to get up and go to the bathroom in the middle of the night that I realized I’d not insignificantly urinated all over my left pajama leg. So that’s …

2020-02-13: Because the D.C. press corps has yet to learn how to deal with people who are not acting or speaking in good faith, no one will report that this is just Barr pretending that Trump isn’t simply saying the understood quiet part out loud.

2020-02-13: I’ve turned all of my Goodreads shelves other than the to-consider one into lists on my Bookshop page, minus books only available as ebooks (that’s coming to Bookshop soon, supposedly). Bookshop will be replacing the current in-house sales links on IndieBound, and …

2020-02-13: Nextdoor, the folks who disrupted your lack of daily knowledge of just how racist and othering were all your neighbors, now is making a special app for cops. What possibly could go wrong.

2020-02-13: Some of the possible side effects of mirtazapine include severe sedation, drowsiness, and fatigue. I wanted to get up and have cheap bar breakfast this morning but I’ve been unable to do anything other than keep hitting snooze on the alarm. I did manage to feed the cats.

2020-02-12: Because mirtazapine causes drowsiness, I’m supposed to take it before bed. Which is soon. I still have nerves about starting my first ever mental health medication.

2020-02-12: I don’t anymore like the layout of my Reading category posts. I was going to just do the same format as image posts, using just a single image of the book I’ve started, but then it displays on my Now page, too, because I’m not sure how to display .Content in …

2020-02-12: I’ve started reading The Sky Is Yours by Chandler Klang Smith; I’m still reading Building and Dwelling by Richard Sennett, which is taking longer than I’d thought it would; and I’ve finished reading A Song for a New Day by Sarah Pinsker, which I’ve …

2020-02-12: I cannot for the life of me figure out why only some of the Kindle books I converted to Kobo format kept their chapter breaks and tables of content. I’m uncertain what’s different about the ones that ended up considered as one long, book-length chapter. Addenda Well, I re-ran …

2020-02-12: Today’s skies and traffic cooperated long enough to get a shot of this shipping container in St. Johns, Oregon, that I couldn’t get the other day due to shadows.

2020-02-12: Sam Rowley won a wildlife photography award with the subtly stunning “Station Squabble” showing two subway mice fighting over crumbs (via CityLab Daily). He said it reminds us that “humans are inherently intertwined with the nature that is on our …

2020-02-12: Christa Holmans discusses whether or not the actually-autistic can hide their stims, and really I just wanted to remention that for two of the four-and-a-half decades of my long pre-diagnosis period, smoking camouflaged my manual stimming.

2020-02-12: I’m not sure whether to be more angry with Jeremy Christian’s defense for putting on the stand two psychologists to attest to his being autistic, or with Aimee Green of The Oregonian for referring to Christian as “an atypical case of autism” because in the …

2020-02-12: I don’t know who that is but given that I can’t support myself and depend on someone else paying for my coop maybe they’ve got the right idea.

2020-02-12: Last night before going to sleep, I finished Sarah Pinsker’s A Song for a New Day (a Charlie Jane Anders recommendation), and weirdly it’s a bit akin to Tim Robbins’ Cradle Will Rock, at least in that I wept for the end. If you’ve read the book and seen …

2020-02-12: I just read my mirtazapine paperwork and sure enough I am having nerves.

2020-02-12: There are only three places at the local breakfast place where I can sit with any mental stability, and somehow on a Wednesday morning they are all taken, because this morning isn’t already a mental stability shitshow for me.

2020-02-12: It’s too bad the anxiety meds that arrived today won’t take effect immediately since once again my rent didn’t get paid and I’ve received another 72-hour notice. I’m pretty sure there’s a point at which this can’t happen again without being kicked out period.

2020-02-12: Psychologists called by the defense in the trial of Jeremy Christian, who after a racist rant stabbed people on a MAX train here in Portland, testified about his alleged autism and you should expect some angry writing from me later.

2020-02-11: As a followup of sorts to the questions I asked and answered about Bookshop, I do still have a number of them which I can’t answer myself. When will ebooks be added? Is this still planned by March? Who will be the ebook partner or partners? Are there plans to be able to …

2020-02-11: My biggest takeaway from Noah Kulwin’s look at Acronym (the company behind the Shadow app that helped break the Iowa caucuses) for The Outline is that founder Tara McGowan’s philosophy—she told Axios, “The space was ripe for disruption and innovation. Yet …

2020-02-11: If you’re looking for a good election events calendar to subscribe to, the Los Angeles Times made one, if you can ignore the California-specific events included.

2020-02-11: What do the Vegas oddsmakers say about which Democrat will be arrested by Barr during the campaign on the orders of Mine Furor?

2020-02-11: I think it’s fair to say that the title of today’s edition of What The Fuck Just Happened Today?—“Excessive”—is accurate. Today in one sentence: Trump’s Justice Department will overrule its own prosecutors and reduce Roger Stone’s sentencing recommendation; three career …

2020-02-11: My mirtazapine is on its way, but how do I tamp down the anxiety of waiting for it, and then the anxiety of taking it for the first time. This will be my first experience of any sort of anxiety or depression medication, and I know this is an every day occurrence for plenty of …

2020-02-11: Meru apparently decided to take Tongue Out Tuesday very seriously this week.

2020-02-11: Goodreads offered a list of “great books” coming out this week and while there’s nothing there for me I’m captivated by this explanatory text on one of them. You should read this book if you like: Sophisticated contemporary fiction, librarians, family …

2020-02-11: I still read Whitney Fishburn’s newsletter even though I can’t quite figure out what she means by “herd immunity to anxiety and depression” and don’t really get what she’s doing, but today she described what she took from an edition of Heather …

2020-02-11: Today I realized that I could use the templating stuff I do on my Now page to create a “Pinned Post” on my main page, but it might have been more of a distracting tinker than an element I want to add to the blog. We’ll see.

2020-02-11: They’re clamping down. The last four updates in the Winno app in their “Trump probes” section all relate to Roger Stone, all within the last twenty-four hours. Prosecutors have asked a judge to sentence Trump associate Roger Stone to seven to nine years in …

2020-02-11: Welcome to Oregon, the Deep South of the Pacific Northwest. Always remember: Oregon (and Portland) literally began as a racist state.

2020-02-11: Is there a write-up somewhere of Bookshop as compared to IndieBound? Are independent bookstores embracing Bookshop or are they pointing at IndieBound and going, “Um, hello?” What’s the rationale behind a site not run by the American Booksellers Association …

2020-02-11: It’s certaintly true, as Elle Loughran writes, that “we should encourage more qualitative, open-ended research that seeks input from autistic people and establishes a firmer basis for future studies”. Why, then, does she only focus on work that doesn’t …

2020-02-11: The good news: Byways Cafe indeed is having a popup at Sisters Gourmet Deli. The bad news: it’s on a Sunday when all of Portland’s brunch spots already are super-crowded. Why isn’t this happening on an off-day (by which I mean a slow day, not a day off) at …

2020-02-11: There’s a thing going around Twitter where people post five 📺 shows to get to know them. I’d be more interested in you picking five shows you think would tell people who I am. I don’t mean shows I like, although they could be. Five shows you think describe me.

2020-02-11: On the one hand why is Monica Hesse penning an obit for the Elizabeth Warren campaign. On the other hand, the latest pollling average for New Hampshire has her trailing Amy Klobuchar. Amy Klobuchar. I might go back to sleep.

2020-02-11: There was just an ant crawling across the left lens of my eyeglasses and I swear to god if this apartment has an ant problem like it did last spring—and it’s only February right now—I am not sure I’m going to be able to avoid the shutdown I only just …

2020-02-10: Please, please, tell me there comes a point in The Blacklist where Liz just fucking murders both Reddington and Tom for never, ever listening to or trusting what she says she wants.

2020-02-10: The convergence of three blues while walking through downtown St. Johns on a winter afternoon.

2020-02-10: Yes, of course I dropped everything to watch the first New Hampshire primary votes from Dixville Notch and Hart’s Location.

2020-02-10: My erstwhile favorite breakfast place Byways Cafe is teasing a popup, and it involves Sisters Gourmet Deli which has hosted popups before and is a straight-shot ride on one of the buses out of St. Johns.

2020-02-10: Good news out of the local Academic Autism Spectrum Partnership in Research and Education (AASPIRE), which has been awarded a new research project grant from National Institutes of Health (NIH). According to Christina Nicolaidis the “goal is to develop a set of accessible …

2020-02-10: One thing about the February weather here leaning towards high-40s to mid-50s: when combined with the fact that I’ve brought the pocketable Olympus XZ-1 back into my photography rotation, I’ve been more inclined to go on walks. This would-be habit would be especially …

2020-02-10: Alas, as feared, I’ve dropped Netflix’s Locke & Key after mostly being bored through the first two episodes and unable to get very far into the third. I might have to rewatch the old Fox pilot as a palate cleanser.

2020-02-10: The view from Chop in downtown St. Johns during a visit for latte-drinking and book-reading, alternating between the uncomfortable outside chairs and the too-loud inside music.

2020-02-10: Wow, okay. Apparently there was a Ride to Care data breach back in mid-November when someone stole a GridWorks laptop, which they didn’t tell Health Share of Oregon about until the third week of January, nine weeks later. Health Share, to its credit, then took only two …

2020-02-10: It looks like SpaceX is eyeing May 7 for the first crewed Dragon test flight, so I’ve got three months to decide if I have the stomach for the nerves I’d experience watching it live.

2020-02-10: Note: This morning on Twitter, Netflix asked, “Is Cobb still dreaming at the end of Inception?” My answer—“Of Tells and Totems”—was written ten years ago on my then-blog (Twitchy, Unreliable-Looking), but had fallen offline. I’m reposting …

2020-02-10: My one exasperation with having switched to Kobo is that there’s a bug in its built-in OverDrive functionality: every so often, but not very often, the two systems disgaree about what’s in OverDrive’s holdings, and a library loan simply refuses to appear on the …

2020-02-10: This brutal look by The New York Times makes it clear: it’s time to end the Iowa Clusterfuck once and for all. It’s charming, and watching partisans calmly push and pull at each other in this day and age is a psychic balm, but they have no earthly idea what they are doing.

2020-02-10: Nothing like starting the week by lurching violently awake before the alarm because your body is trying to prevent you from vomiting into your mouth while sleeping.

2020-02-10: It’s late at night and no one will see this and I’m still only about 70% through it but you all should sort of run not walk to read Sarah Pinsker’s A Song for a New Day.

2020-02-09: So, earlier I promised I would try one more episode of Locke & Key, and I am, but I feel like it should be batshit-real like The Magicians and not this peculiar almost light-hearted, family-oriented, “Oh, weird, we live in mystery house!” thing. Is it just me?

2020-02-09: Oh, hey, good job at the Academy Awards, Parasite, which I only just watched last night. Did I even see any other nominated 🎥 this past year, in any category?

2020-02-09: Something I wish the Kaiser Permanente app had: a sort of ongoing health diary/journal/log feature, so that as you notice things you can make a note of them and they automatically become a part of the information available to your doctor. It wouldn’t notify them; in fact …

2020-02-09: I’ve been skimming some posts and article about aphantasia since learning about it, and I’ve mostly been curious about how it might or might not feed into the executive function issues that come with being actually-autistic. Art Kavanagh’s thoughts on executive …

2020-02-09: Joe Biden out there in New Hampshire arguing that Iowa doesn’t tell you how a candidate will perform in other states as if that’s somehow unique to Iowa and as if he wouldn’t have crowed loudly about the sainted wisdom of Iowans had he won Iowa.

2020-02-09: That feel when you instinctively get excited at a new 📺 commercial for Cosmos: Possible Worlds and then feel sick because you remember Neil deGrasse Tyson is an asshole and then get angry because the ad namechecks Carl Sagan.

2020-02-09: Spare me your claims of progressivism if this is your response to needing to choose between accepting a woman’s bodily autonomy by voting for Democrats and risking further gains by American fascists by voting third-party.

2020-02-09: It looks like what I set up as a monthly Chewy delivery is almost exactly what I need for the cats over the course of a month, and looks to be something less than $35/month including shipping. So, I guess this will work, and also lessen the burden of hauling food and litter.

2020-02-09: What I really need is not a third-party Twitter client that reproduces most of the native features even while adding additional ones, but a client that only shows me my timeline, my mentions, lets me post, and lets me reply. That’s it. No retweets, no likes, no telling me …

2020-02-09: On paper, Dispatches from Elsewhere sounds like a 📺 show that could be right up my alley, but then it wants me to take Jason Segel seriously as a sort of low-rent The Da Vinci Code Tom Hanks and I just can’t see how they make that work. Addenda It’s almost as if …

2020-02-09: This week on 📺 I’m watching Doctor Who, 9-1-1: Lone Star, Black Lightning, The Flash, DC’s Legends of Tomorrow, The Masked Singer, The Magicians, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, The Bold Type, and Seven Worlds, One Planet. I’ve already watched this …

2020-02-09: Nature programs have reached the point where I am seeing things I’ve seen before: at least three sequences in Seven Worlds, One Planet I’ve seen versions of in other nature shows also narrated by David Attenborough.

2020-02-09: So, I was browsing that original thread about visualizing an apple (which mentioning yesterday yielded a reference to aphantasia), and other people, too, started discussing that earlier discussion about having or not having an internal narrative, but they were discussing whether …

2020-02-09: After getting winded yesterday just from trying to sing while showering, I told myself that as long as I fed the cats at eight in the morning I could go back to sleep until whenever. Then I managed to sleep until eleven. Today’s goal: clean the bathroom and vacuum the floors.

2020-02-08: By the way, for Micro.blog users, if you add "enableEmoji": true, to your theme’s config.json, you can, according to Hugo, manually type the emoji codes in this cheat sheet, which I find much easier when posting from the laptop.

2020-02-08: Successfully watched the 🎥 Parasite without knowing anything going into it, even, frankly, the genre. Weirdly staid and on-edge at the same time, and compelling from start to finish.

2020-02-08: First I learn that there are people without an internal narrative and now I learn there are people who literally visualize things when they close their eyes. Which ones of us are the freaks? How can the ways in which we experience the innerspace of our brains be so dramatically, …

2020-02-08: I think that Matt Baer conflates the ease, speed, and ubiquity of text communication with its relative informational or emotional payloads and comprehensibility. The idea that we might have let ourselves slip into a social world where, as he sees it, “velocity” reigns …

2020-02-08: Was the end of The Blacklist season three a backdoor pilot to a spinoff series? Because at this point I’d rather watch whatever this Famke Janssen show is than another episode of the Raymond Reddington Toxic Entitlement Hour. Addenda Turns out, yes: The Blacklist: …

2020-02-08: That feeling when you planned to do housework but just the act of trying to sing along to the music playing in the bathroom while you shower leaves you winded to the point of needing to pause for a moment to catch your breath.

2020-02-08: Inscriptions found at ancient Kourion in Cyprus in the 1930s give precise instructions on how cursing was to be done. A tablet hexing a person very much alive had to be put in the tomb of the fresh corpse of a person who died prematurely – having failed to complete the “normal” …

2020-02-08: For what it’s worth, here’s how I approach updating blog posts, generally: additional thoughts on an existing post are added as Addenda to that post if it’s still the same day as the post; additional thoughts on the next day form a new post.

2020-02-08: Still reeling from how much better was the Fox pilot for Locke & Key from 2011 than the first episode of the Netflix show from 2020, and not because it hews more closely to the first volume of the comic. It’s just…stronger, more focused, simpler, more elegant. For sure it’s …

2020-02-08: Well, I was trying to leave myself the option of getting downtown tomorrow to take pictures at Umbrella, so of course as I was prepping the kitchen for breakfast in the morning I spilled the contents of the used coffee filter into the coffee maker and it’s already almost midnight …

2020-02-07: I’ll confess that I am posting about Umbrella in part to demonstrate that I’ve discovered a way post the “three rightwards arrows” character as a proper antifascist ⇶ thanks to applying transform:rotate(135deg); via CSS. Hopefully you don’t have a …

2020-02-07: I’m starting in on Netflix’s Locke & Key (I never did manage to finish reading the comics, though I think they are available from the library via Hoopla) and got to wondering if anyone ever managed to get the original 2011 📺 pilot from Josh Friedman back online and thanks to …

2020-02-07: On the one hand, the defunct Fencing Center Salle Trois Armes (and not, excuse me, the “North Portland Fencing Club”, apparently) will be a great coffeeshop location, what with that southern exposure. On the other hand, if the previous Two Stroke location is any …

2020-02-07: I’m a little bit tempted to watch tonight’s Democratic debate after having skipped the last two, but skipping those two really was very good for my sanity levels, and after the clusterfuck of Iowa and impeachment maybe I should continue to abstain. Addenda One thing …

2020-02-07: Well, shit. Somehow when I rebooted the blog design the revised Hugo template tags I put in for the list of categories on posts broke alphabetizing. Addenda I’ve reverted to the original code, but I sort of prefer the comma-delimited list so I’m going to have to …

2020-02-07: The top two turtles of the four turtles in “Street Theater Turtle” by Peter Helzer on the grounds of Oregon Zoo.

2020-02-07: The heart of Market Street in San Francisco now is car-free, mostly: “Only buses, streetcars, traditional taxis, ambulances, and freight drop-offs are still allowed.” There are potential lessons from Europe (via Mark Isero) for other ways American cities could reduce …

2020-02-07: I’d thought I was through the worst of it but then The Blacklist throws at me first perhaps the most ridiculous wedding episode in the history of 📺 and then Tom playing DJ at the nightclub where Liz is giving birth. Season three has really turned out to be a crapper, but it’s …

2020-02-07: A small portion of the vinyl mural on the concave wall of the Robertson Tunnel at the eastbound “Sunrise” platform of the Washington Park MAX Station.

2020-02-07: So, the Politico profile of Rachel Bitecofer doesn’t do much to help you understand who’s right on whether the issue in elections is “swing voters” or instead is the matter of whose voters are successfully “activated”, but I admit that the …

2020-02-07: Not sure if I’m going to make the switch, but I’m going to spend the weekend, I think, with the blog theme changed to the partial rework of Marfa that I’ve been puttering around with lately. Really, in some ways what I’m playing with is backing away from …

2020-02-06: That feel when you walk in on the Western painted turtles in the Cascade Stream and Pond habitat at Oregon Zoo shooting an album cover.

2020-02-06: Heidi Klum, white woman, whose response to Gabrielle Union’s complaints of racism at America’s Got Talent was to explain that “she didn’t experience the same thing” and that “everyone treats you with the utmost respect” says those facts …

2020-02-06: Kendi, over the span of an enlightening and often infuriating book, brings this point home in many ways: racist policies have to be combatted with antiracist policies. It is not enough, nor is it possible to be neutral; there is no “not racist” in a society that is inherently …

2020-02-06: Step one: issue an executive order prohibiting any new federal architecture other than (neo-) Classical. Step two, inevitably: build the Trump Monument on the National Mall. But advocates for traditional architecture should think carefully before supporting a government position …

2020-02-06: Of course 4chan was involved in the Iowa caucus debacle, because of course it was. This clearly is election interference, but I hardly expect Bill Barr to look into it. I’m sure he and Trump have had a laugh over it already.

2020-02-06: Okay, I hyperfocused myself into a mild sleep deprivation, but here’s the progress so far on what I’m calling Marfa, Rebooted?, where I’m trying to apply the theming things I did to my current blog to a more vanilla-look Marfa.

2020-02-05: Michael Descy is exactly right that “the original vote should be on paper” and any technology should only come after—which is why elections officials from other states are looking to Oregon for guidance.

2020-02-05: I really hate this. I only just recently redid my entire blog design and now I’m experiencing this psychologically painful compulsion to revert to an almost-vanilla Marfa except with obsessively-reformatted HTML. It hurts. Someone scoop out my brain, it’s broken.

2020-02-05: While you’re all writing Mitt Romney hagiography, I’ll just note that he (1) asked us to credit everyone’s “good faith” when his party, all the more under Trump, acts without it as a matter of course, and (2) stated that this decision was a difficult …

2020-02-05: Finally remembered CSS variables so I made a --main-accent: variable for the blue color on my blog, which means if I get bored you might see the color change at some point (I’ve already changed it today) because now I just have to change it in one place.

2020-02-05: I’ve reached the midpoint of The Blacklist season three and for the life of me I don’t understand Liz and Tom as anything other than the writers wanting a relationship in there even though it makes no emotional sense whatsoever, and only is of a shoehorned narrative …

2020-02-05: Just now I had a major albeit comparatively brief bout of looking around at everything, my apartment, my wardrobe, my website, and thinking everything was wrong and it all needed to be different and I swear that I literally felt the electromagnetic field generated by my brain …

2020-02-05: “Why isn’t there a way in Lightroom CC to Enable Lens Corrections on photos taken with the Olympus XZ-1?” is a question I’ve been pondering. It turns out that if I remember to shoot .orf, the raw file “contains a built-in lens profile for correcting …

2020-02-05: Haddayr Copley-Woods explains why not distracting a service dog involves more than the (relatively-)common knowledge of simply not petting one.

2020-02-05: Amber Case ponders the dangers of having moved from “build it as safe as you can” to “move fast and break things”.

2020-02-05: Since I did so much reading over brunch in my decade patronizing Byways Cafe, I’m commemorating them in the banner image of my Bookshop page, where you can find and buy the books I’ve read over the last several years, although they haven’t yet added ebooks.

2020-02-05: In the greater scheme, in the big picture, nothing we do matters. There’s no grand plan, no big win. […] If there’s no great, glorious end to all this—if nothing we do matters—then all that matters is what we do. —Angel, “Epiphany”

2020-02-05: This morning I spent $20 on breakfast out because I needed to fortify myself against the dramatic mental dive I expect post-acquittal. Of course, this now restricts budgeting for the rest of the first half of the month, which itself impacts my mental state. I can’t win.

2020-02-05: After watching last night two hours of Donald Trump’s State of the Union speech, the word “gothic” keep ringing in my ears. It wouldn’t stop. His address was a perversion of morality, an inversion of common sense and a glorification of pettiness and barbarism. Making it all the …

2020-02-05: So has anyone actually asked Susan Collins about Trump completely dismissing her contention that he’d learn from impeachment, and so she simply doesn’t have to vote to convict him, or are we just letting her skate by on this as they close in on the vote.

2020-02-04: Behind this door lay a psychic weariness and limbs seemingly too sensitive to the pull of gravity, waiting to do this all again tomorrow.

2020-02-04: This was going to wait until tomorrow after the acquittal, but I’ve deleted Twitter from my phone, unfollowed all news-type people, deleted my autism and news lists, and will be reading my timeline via Feedbin. Should I feel the need to tweet something, the extra steps of having …

2020-02-04: ‪I’m curious how doctors were able to tell the cancerous parts of Rush Limbaugh apart from the cancerous parts.‬

2020-02-04: Entering this pithy remark for the record: I don’t need a party with an app, I need a party with a plan.

2020-02-04: Today is supposed to be grocery day because SNAP reloaded but after waking up and having breakfast I can’t really even move from the couch. Honestly I think it’s psychic hangover from yesterday’s visit to the site of the nonprofit I quit a year ago, which went fine, per se, but …

2020-02-04: You haven’t said if we’re meant to interpret this piece as dystopian, but I can’t help but assume that we are (it owes a serious debt to “The Lottery,” yes?) and as such, you really need to clarify who gets to be in the room and how and why and, conversely, who doesn’t (or can’t) …

2020-02-03: It’s only been 2020 for just over a month and in a single week Trump’s getting acquitted and the first Democatic voting is an almost total clusterfuck. I can’t take a year of this.

2020-02-03: Garbiel Sherman presages an unchained and unchastened Donald Trump, thanks to your cowardly and complicit Republican neighbors and their senators.

2020-02-03: For the first time since quitting the nonprofit a year ago, I made a brief visit to the goats, as Precious can attest photographically.

2020-02-03: In the history of memes, the familiar story is one of harmless images accruing sinister meanings that turn them into weapons—the most famous example being Pepe the Frog, an innocuous web-comic character that was co-opted by various extremist groups leading up to the 2016 …

2020-02-03: Andy McIlwain’s hopes for Instagram “swinging back to something more real” will be in vain if Adam Mosseri doesn’t allow for a vanilla chronological feed. Viewing lives out of order isn’t “real”. Not seeing the hours of a local business, …

2020-02-03: The view from bar breakfast at Slim’s in St. Johns, Oregon, late on a winter Monday morning.

2020-02-03: Stephen Webb on how never before in the history of Doctor Who has the show reflected the concerns of so-called politically correct social justice warriors, except for all those other times it did on a very regular basis.

2020-02-02: Walter (far) and Sonia (close), two of the goats living at the Trillium Creek Family Farm area of Oregon Zoo.

2020-02-02: I also had the incredible and unexpected honor of seeing A Memory Called Empire named the best science fiction novel on the American Library Association’s Reference and User Services Association’s 2020 Reading List. I didn’t even know this was a thing a person could win, and I’m …

2020-02-02: Meru and the morning sun as seen by the Olympus XZ-1 recently pulled out of a storage bin.

2020-02-02: Physical and psychological resources ran out by 1:30pm and I crashed again and slept for three-and-a-half hours. All I’d done is wake up, have coffee, a weak breakfast, watch cats on television, and get dressed.

2020-02-02: ‪We’re going to end up with a primary of Joe Biden and Mike Bloomberg flexing their performative man muscles and I’m going to dig my own brain out through my eye sockets with a fork.‬

2020-02-02: Seeing other people’s photos, I am reconsidering my intention to do this month’s photoblogging challenge. I think neither my brain nor my eye is suited for trying to shoot to prompts and have any real sense of satisfaction at the results.

2020-02-02: Sinclair Target goes searching for the “deeper, darker web” and ends up in the forgotten world of the telnet’able BBS.

2020-02-02: This week on 📺 I’m watching Kitten Bowl, Puppy Bowl, Doctor Who, The Masked Singer (which somehow is back already?), 9-1-1: Lone Star, Black Lightning, Nancy Drew, The Magicians, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, The Bold Type, Briarpatch, Locke & Key, and …

2020-02-02: Xfinity tells me that Puppy Bowl XVI starts while Kitten Bowl VII is still airing, and I don’t at all see how that’s fair to me today.

2020-02-02: I’ve started reading A Song for a New Day by Sarah Pinsker; I’m still reading Building and Dwelling: Ethics for the City by Richard Sennett; and I’ve stopped reading Bridge 108 by Anne Charnock because it turns out it’s just a republished edition of The …

2020-02-01: So here I am, reading the galley of Anne Charnock’s Bridge 108 from NetGalley and I’m recognizing characters but I knew it’s set in the same world as another of her books so I didn’t think much of it but then specific things started feeling really, really familiar, so I do some …

2020-02-01: I’ve been awake for four hours since my three-hour deep crash into sleep and just feel tired, sad, disappointed at everything, and disconnected from everything.

2020-02-01: Somehow I feel like “view your life as a seamless, worky fever dream” and “think of life as a latticework of projects” are both fairly empty, depressing propositions?

2020-02-01: There are a number of things worth noting about the latest Dan Hon newsletter, not the least of which is the Vonnegut quote I’ve cited before (while discussing Eighth Grade, of all things) as one of my top-two literary quotes. It’s through Hon that I learn of this …

2020-02-01: After breakfast out I went for a walk to look for photoblogging options, ran out of steam and had to spend bus money to get back, briefly did some photo work, and then hard crashed into a dead sleep for…four three hours, until just now.

2020-02-01: February photoblogging challenge, Day 1: Open.

2020-02-01: It took me longer to understand what I was doing wrong than it should have, but I finally got GLightbox doing galleries properly, e.g. no longer making one single gallery out of all photos on my main blog page.

2020-02-01: Trying to set my personal ground rules for Micro.blog’s February photoblogging challenge (or, to me, FotoFebruary), and I almost decided to use an antonym of each day’s prompt, but thought better of it. Briefly, I pondered doing the Randonaut thing and letting myself be directed …

2020-02-01: Constitutional amendment to prohibit Hillary Clinton and Bernie Sanders, and Hillary Clinton and Bernie Sanders supporters and voters, from mentioning the other ever again.

2020-01-31: I’ve started reading Bridge 108 by Anne Charnock (a PDF proof through NetGalley); I’m still reading Building and Dwelling: Ethics for the City by Richard Sennett; and I’ve finished reading Waste Tide by Chen Qiufan. I’ve finished seven 📚 so far this year, with …

2020-01-31: Oregon Zoo animals as seen by the Olympus XZ-1, shooting B&W with only crops and contrast adjustments in Lightroom.

2020-01-31: It is freakishly pleasant in Portland this evening, after being a perfect mid-50s and overcast all day, so I spent an hour or so outside a coffeeshop reading and tinkering with the Olympus some more.

2020-01-31: Well, at least we’ve got the California attorney general successfully delaying the sale of the .org domain registry to a private equity firm, amid questions such as the removal of price caps.

2020-01-31: Trying to get myself into the right state of mind for Micro.blog’s photoblogging challenge, which for lack of a better phrase I’m dubbing FotoFebruary so that I can add a category for the posts the way I did for Microblogvember. Unlike that challenge, all the prompts …

2020-01-31: So, I did lug my Nikon and lenses with me in the backpack on the zoo trip today but I stuck with the old Olympus XZ-1 all day anyway. I shot all day on black-and-white, but played with the “art scene” settings on the commute home.

2020-01-31: Interesting: Bookshop wants to be the place you buy your books online, supporting affiliated independent bookstores rather than Amazon. Orders are fulfilled via Ingram, and the involved bookstores get a share of the sales pool. Ebooks coming this spring.

2020-01-31: It might be a need to shake something up in this politically and existentially depressing moment, or it might just be not having enough energy for the DSLR and lenses, but today I’m going to try a zoo trip with the old Olympus XZ-1 instead. It’s charging at the …

2020-01-31: Will I be watching the coronation of King Donald I, today? No, I will be at Oregon Zoo. That is, if I can tamp down this existential hangover from yesterday. I can feel, from the inside, the expression of resignation my face is making this morning, like it’s not worth the effort …

2020-01-31: Literally, I have a headache from weariness. I don’t think that’s on the list for either acetaminophen or ibuprofen.

2020-01-30: “This is where democracy started,” proclaims Chidi Anagonye on the night both The Good Place and the American republic come to an end.

2020-01-30: Somehow I managed to finesse my collapsing end-of-month budget to leave room for the requisite zoo-trip lattes, which means I will head there tomorrow in the overcast, high-50s weather even if it kills me.

2020-01-30: Theoretically, everything I want to do in order to handle different numbers of images in a post is detailed or explained either here or there but for the life of me I’ve reached the limit of being able to follow even the story of the code, and for all my not being a …

2020-01-30: Somewhat at sea. The inevitable rent-increase notification after the property on which I live was sold a few months back arrived today in the mail. Republicans are about to in effect codify that the President (as long as he’s Republican) can do whatever he likes in the …

2020-01-30: Portrait of the author making Google Street View again for the second or maybe even third time, in an image captured in May 2019.

2020-01-30: That feeling when you might be looking at bread, salami, and cheese for breakfast because there’s simply no way you can do the dishes necessary to make even a bowl of oatmeal and plate of frozen sausage. Addenda I managed to make an egg, turkey pastrami, and provolone …

2020-01-30: Last night I forced myself to go to bed rather than stay up trying to solve a CSS thing, and then I dreamt about analyzing the way people were arranged on a street based upon their margins and alignment.

2020-01-29: But he came around to the idea of the sanctuary, in part as he saw the potential for tourism. He began working with conservationists from the World Wildlife Fund and scientists from around the world. He created a Twitter account where he posted videos of himself in a cloud of …

2020-01-29: In the end the whole .png rigamarole turns out not to matter anyway, because Hoopla for some reason disables the Fire HD’s screenshot capability, and the entire point was that I wanted to post teases of some of the comics I’m reading now that I’m getting back to …

2020-01-29: “Is the world interested in seeing Lethal Weapon 5?” asks Dan Barrett. If it opens with Martin Riggs dying on an exploding toilet, I might be in.

2020-01-29: I’ve resumed reading comics on the Fire HD, beginning with finally reading the rest of Natasha Alterici’s Heathen, whose Kickstarter I’d backed.

2020-01-29: Since I no longer can “save to web” in Photoshop Elements 14 under macOS Catalina and can’t afford to upgrade Elements, what are my software options? No headaches, please. Just something that works.

2020-01-29: Well, this is frustrating and pretty weird. I’ve now tried to post a .png to Micro.blog from the iOS app, mobile Safari, desktop Safari, the macOS app, and desktop Firefox and it gets converted to a .jpg instead every time. I don’t get it: how are people posting that …

2020-01-29: For what it’s worth, that sort-of-weird forthcoming new social media platform Voice posted a slide deck they presented to the Securities and Exchange Commission, of all things, which details how they think they will be different, including their use of “tokens” …

2020-01-28: I want to highlight this systematic demand that women shut up because it’s the entire problem, isn’t it? I know some people spoke from a place of distress and anger (none of us is perfect on the internet, and especially when tragedy hits, emotions go raw). But others spoke from a …

2020-01-28: So, this ad published and featured by Variety is one giant stinking turd. Joker as “a voice for the forgotten, the troubled and the downtrodden” with “compassion [as] the movie’s superpower”? I was going to say more about this ad, but I’m too angry …

2020-01-28: Sorry. I’ve posted and deleted a thing twice now, because for some reason no matter how I try to post a .png from my phone (iOS app, or mobile Safari), Micro.blog is converting it into a .jpg, and I need that not to happn. Addenda Well, okay. Apparently I cannot upload …

2020-01-28: I’m going to need to get back to reading comics, or at least those I can borrow from the library via Hoopla and read on the Fire HD. Since I no longer use my Paperwhite for ebooks (having switched to Kobo for that), I’ve had Amazon move my “without special …

2020-01-28: Well, okay, I’m hellishly curious to see how Hollywood adapts Memetic, but even more curious if they will move on to adapt the even more batshit Cognetic if it’s successful. Which reminds me that I need to read the third story, Eugenic. Maybe I’ll re-read the …

2020-01-28: I gather that Fast Company is a content farm, given this press release for a mathematician’s new book, masquerading as an article that doesn’t actually do anything to inform anyone about what likely would be a fascinating debate between traffic engineers, urban …

2020-01-28: Hayes and Marshall are a political junkie’s political junkie, but even they shrink away from engagement when lies pile up faster than fact-checkers can keep pace. Why aren’t we talking more often about how a malicious system of lies makes us feel? Who benefits when even political …

2020-01-28: Who wants to make me an iOS app for Twitter that only shows you your timeline—chronologically from top to bottom like Feedbin does—and your mentions and nothing else?

2020-01-27: Red pandas Mei Mei and Moshu forage bamboo leaves during a winter afternoon wander of their enclosure at Oregon Zoo.

2020-01-27: After this morning I’ve just remembered another internet project from my early days: the Internet Emergency Broadcast Network. In the wake of the Communications Decency Act, folks from the Center for Democracy and Technology (probably Jonah Seiger), Voters …

2020-01-27: This experiment I’ve been running of reading my Twitter feed via Feedbin has been pretty interesting, and even on my laptop I’ve basically been staying out of Twitter proper until I wanted to reply to someone or retweet something, do a quick browse of the two lists I …

2020-01-27: Meanwhile in journalism, The Washington Post threw one of its own reporters under the bus for tweeting about news they apparently consider outside her lane, and the State Department kicked an NPR reporter off a plane for letting Mike Pompeo embarass himself in front of God and …

2020-01-27: Hyperfocused myself into a serious state of hunger dizziness, perfectly exemplifying how these autistic features are not superpowers but instead are fundamental tradeoffs.

2020-01-27: Last night’s Doctor Who was the most at-sea I’ve been during an episode of the series in a very long time, and it was pretty great 📺 because of it. (Note: I will not be running spoilers though rot13, so reader beware.) After the ads telling us that if we’d …

2020-01-27: Bruce Steinberg makes a fair point about the expanded, emoji-driven “likes” available on Facebook, of all platforms, as part of the discussion of “minimal viable social actions” and the questions of context and friction. It feels good to “hear” the people …

2020-01-27: Why are the Senate Republicans putting their political lives on the line for a president so ready to betray them? I don’t know. Perhaps the Republicans don’t either. For their own sake, they’d better figure it out. The drip-drip-drip of bad news will continue through Election …

2020-01-27: Out of nowhere this morning while reading Building and Dwelling over breakfast, I suddenly realized I’d completely forgotten about one of my early internet projects: CyberPOLIS.

2020-01-27: I’ve mentioned before that one of the things I still like about the way Medium organizes itself is that a user’s profile includes tabs for everything that user does on the site: posts, claps, highlights, responses. I wish this sort of thing were native to the entire web. In the …

2020-01-26: This week on 📺 I’m watching Doctor Who, Batwoman, Supergirl, 9-1-1: Lone Star, Black Lightning, the Arrow series finale, Nancy Drew, The Magicians, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee, Star Trek: Picard, the series finale of The Good Place, The Bold Type, the Evil season finale, and …

2020-01-26: And then I crashed hard for I think more than two and a half hours suffering stress dreams the entire time and missed serving my cats dinner by an hour and it’s going to be another hour before I feel like I’ve slotted myself back into the world.

2020-01-26: John Bolton confirms the quid pro quo in his new book, indicating that Trump wanted the Ukraine aid held “until officials there helped with investigations into Democrats including the Bidens”. Now we find out just how complicit Senate Republicans want to be.

2020-01-26: I have no idea if George Lucas is autistic, but this story about his take on dialogue and exterior shots (from here) is just about the most stereotypically autistic thing I’ve ever heard. Lucas was a stickler for logic. Editor Paul Hirsch, who worked on the original 1977 …

2020-01-26: Red pandas Mei Mei and Moshu enjoy some winter afternoon foraging in the same spot at different moments at Oregon Zoo.

2020-01-26: Well, I just solved part of my pants mystery: I didn’t outgrow the 36-waist, I outgrew a 34-waist, which explains why I thought I needed to buy a 40-waist but then those turned out to be too big. So, what I need is either a 36 or a 38. Annoyingly, it appears that Prime …

2020-01-26: “Minimum viable social actions,” suggests Colin Walker, “may give an initial, instant dopamine hit but are ultimately worthless.” Walker’s responding in part to the Rebecca Toh comments on comments I mentioned yesterday, and getting at what …

2020-01-26: I’ve not had this issue on my Clara (yet?) but Mike Hall has your rundown on what to do if suddenly you don’t seem to be able to read DRM-protected ebooks on your Kobo, the tl;dr of which appears to be to ignore the advice and factory reset your device.

2020-01-26: Today’s experiment: only reading my Twitter feed via Feedbin when I’m away from the laptop. I’ve moved the iOS app off the dock and into a folder. I’d already done away with Twitter notifications anyway so I won’t be missing those. It’s not necessarily so much that I’m looking to …

2020-01-26: Another restless night’s sleep filled with anxiety-dreams and outright nightmares, so I can confront another day starting out with with vastly imperfect and insufficient capacities.

2020-01-25: Given that knowledge gap, some psychologists have been sounding alarms for years. In the late 1990s, the psychologist Stanley Sue expressed concern that his field paid too little attention to the experiences of non-white ethnic groups. A 2008 study, which found that the research …

2020-01-25: Meru and Willow enjoy the reverse of their usual southern exposure window positions on a winter Portland morning.

2020-01-25: I’ve changed my mind: I no longer want RSS readers from which you can reply to blog posts via webmention. It completely violates my contention that social media has too little friction; it’s not a flaw an indieweb blogosphere software ecosystem should replicate. One should have …

2020-01-25: CJ Eller makes note of email correspondent Hudson Gardner’s remarks about the differences in conversation when comparing social media to discussion forums. I feel like, strangely, social media is about getting somewhere alone, as an individual: follower counts, post …

2020-01-25: I’ve reached the point where the belt “setting” which keeps my pants up is too tight on my internal organs when I sit down. So this is a new and exciting time for me.

2020-01-25: It turns out that the answer is that The Good Place: The Podcast this week did not at all address the fact that the solution to the obstacle in this week’s episode of The Good Place was fhvpvqr. I’ve a nagging feeling that it’s because the writers have an …

2020-01-25: One design element of the Kindle which is missing on the Kobo is that very slight rough texture Amazon gives the display of at least the original Kindle and the first few Paperwhites. (I don’t know if newer models that went flush with the bezel maintained this.) The idea was to …

2020-01-25: Lightroom’s look at final photo in yesterday’s Oregon Zoo shoot right before my camera stopped firing because I hadn’t reset the card and ran out of room.

2020-01-25: So, the big takeaway is that, yes, Secretary of State Mike Pompeo really is a pompeous ass, but what I really want to know is: did Bangladeshis wake up this morning wondering why they’ve been dragged into this? I feel like surely BuzzFeed must have someone checking through …

2020-01-25: For the sake of mental clairty, I guess, I want to delete my previous theme files from the blog but I keep worrying there’s something in the old set I’ve forgotten to incorporate into the new set, so, yeah, this is going to get under my skin for days.

2020-01-24: The past couple of weeks turn out to be such a mental blur that I haven’t been able to listen to this week’s edition of The Good Place: The Podcast to see if they discuss that the solution to this week’s episode of the series was fhvpvqr because apparently I …

2020-01-24: About 72% agreed that the trial “should allow witnesses with firsthand knowledge of the impeachment charges to testify,” including 84% of Democrats and 69% of Republicans. And 70% of the public, including 80% of Democrats and 73% of Republicans, said senators should …

2020-01-24: I’ve resumed reading Building and Dwelling: Ethics for the City by Richard Sennett; I’m still reading Waste Tide by Chen Qiufan; and I’ve finished reading Lurking: How a Person Became a User by Joanne McNeil, which I read thanks to NetGalley. I’ve finished six 📚 …

2020-01-24: Free trial week of CBS All Access has begun so I can watch some 🖖. First up: season two of Short Treks. And then the premiere of Picard. Then I’ll decide if I feel like a rewatch of Discovery season two. Addenda All of season two of Short Treks are terrific, but if we …

2020-01-24: Significantly sped up page rendering on the blog after the redesign I did by realizing that the issues happening on the Archive and Photos pages were caused by having a script at the end of body instead of the beginning, which caused to-be-hidden elements to render briefly.

2020-01-24: E Ink e-readers that let you do other things, too seems like a completely miserable experience to me. Half the reason getting my first Kindle all those years back so transformed my reading (I’m now on Kobo) was it was just books.

2020-01-24: Terrible night’s sleep and I feel terrible and the first thing I hear upon getting up to feed the cats is someone fucking chainsawing outside and my reserves are so low my zoo trip might kill me so if I die you’ll know why probably. Addenda It’s a fucking leafblower. …

2020-01-23: It’s not a common experience for me during The Good Place but I’ve some pretty mixed feelings about tonight’s episode of “the smartest, dumbest show on 📺”, because the solution Team Cockroach conceived was fhvpvqr (yes, I am using rot13 for …

2020-01-23: I guess if I start a seven-day trial of CBS All Access tomorrow, I can get in a bunch of 🖖 with season two of Short Treks, then this week’s Picard, then watch next week’s Picard, then cancel. Then at a later date I’ll have to buy a month to catch up in a binge.

2020-01-23: According to some social justice cartographers, when you map the locations of historical racist housing covenants and lay them atop a map of modern Minneapolis you clearly see that “areas of the city where racial covenants were widely used tend to be predominantly white today”. …

2020-01-23: Prince Charles snubbing Mike Pence is like the exact opposite of that guy walking through a bunch of fascists in Portland. (You have to watch both videos to understand.)

2020-01-23: It’s taken me hours, but I’ve found a way to solve a needwant regarding my blog design. Due to the way Micro.blog creates the Archive and Photos pages, there are no Hugo template variables available to distinguish them from the “home” page, and I’ve …

2020-01-23: Knitting belongs in public as much as it does in the home. Public spaces should be platforms for human expression and interaction, places where passions and ideas can be exchanged, and where we can be inspired by each other’s creativity and individuality. There’s power in the way …

2020-01-23: I’m sorry but why is this freakish carbon nanotubes material called Vantablack and not Nonemoreblack?

2020-01-23: It is now 100 seconds to midnight as the Bulletin of Atomic Scientists, in “a decision taken in full recognition of its historic nature”, advance the Doomsday Clock further than it’s ever been, due to nuclear proliferation, climate change, and information warfare.

2020-01-23: This latest Reuters/Ipsos poll says that even 69% of Republicans want new witnesses and evidence requested by Senators in the impeachment trial of Donald Trump.

2020-01-22: Moshu, the only one of the two red pandas at Oregon Zoo that I’ve spotted for weeks, comes down from a wall perch for a winter afternoon drink.

2020-01-22: Thankfully, there is a way on NetGalley to expain your reasons if you decline to give feedback on a title. I do all of my longform reading on E Ink readers (as it turns out, I realize now, in part for sensory reasons), and due to the combination of margins and crop-marks …

2020-01-22: That uncomfortable moment when you hit pause on the 📺 remote and happenstantially freeze someone in an expression that uncontextually could be an orgasm.

2020-01-22: Alfie Kohn offers a very helpful and easily-understood, for-the-layperson breakdown on that recent meta-analysis of psychological research which found little to no evidence that Applied Behavioral Analysis actually works as an autism treatment even on its own terms. You might …

2020-01-22: In the only clip from The View that I will ever watch, Patrick Stewart invites Whoopi Goldberg into the second season of Picard, his new 🖖 show on CBS All Access.

2020-01-22: Willow exhibits the behavior which keeps cats sane and which the author might start considering a model.

2020-01-22: Browsing old blog posts I find that I miss Horoscope Blender. “Real” astrology is fake; the Blender’s randomness, however, often was hilariously accurate. My Daily Blend for Christmas Day: You are often so pathetic people can only laugh nervously. Nobody really …

2020-01-22: Last year, the team behind Highly (one of many attempts over the years to create a “highlights layer” for the internet) moved to Twitter to help with “the public conversation”. Highlights (one of the best parts of how Medium works) should be part of …

2020-01-22: There are a lot of things in this interview with Shannon Hughes that trigger what for lack of a better phrase I’ll call my autistic imposter syndrome (which also presents in other ways) but not this bit. What was it like living as an adult without a diagnosis? Being an …

2020-01-22: Warren Ellis muses, “What would Twitter look like if everyone had private accounts?” He gets the flaws, of course, but he’s also not wrong that “not every social occasion is a street party [for] all-comers”. The problem isn’t so much …

2020-01-21: In cities like Portland, some areas are referred to as “heat islands,” areas where development has exacerbated the effects of high temperatures. Now, a new study from Portland State University is showing, for the first time, that areas prone to excessive heat are …

2020-01-21: It’s never not stunning to watch the Democrats negotiate against themselves by tipping the press to the fact that they’re considering a terrible and compromised Plan B while actively still trying to make a righteous Plan A happen.

2020-01-21: Because of my autism, I cannot readily change my behavior anyway. For example, I find it impossible to ‘code switch,’ or change the tone of my voice and mannerisms to fit in with different people. One white female supervisor complained that I should learn to change my demeanor …

2020-01-21: It’s an Impeachment Trial Day miracle! After just over a year in this mother-in-law cottage, I’ve discovered that the blinds on my front door, which are “secured” into place at the bottom, in fact can be disengaged at that spot and raised. Mostly this is …

2020-01-21: It’s not going so well on the Hugo forums where I asked about what I’m trying to do in order to simplify some stuff on the blog, even if comes with some difficulty costs up-front.

2020-01-21: So, the Senate Republicans are pretty resoundingly shameless, but I appreciate Representative Schiff doing everything he possibly can today to shame them with history and precedent and even just common sense on what the word “trial” traditionally entails.

2020-01-21: Portrait of the author in his uniform for the Senate debate of rules for the impeachment trial of Donald Trump.

2020-01-21: I’d been hoping to be both dressed and fed for the start of the impeachment trial (or, rather, the debate over the rules of the trial), but it looks like it’s eggs, bacon, and potatoes in pajamas and bathrobe. Addenda For the record, I managed to get fully dressed …

2020-01-21: Since I’m sure you’ve all been awaiting an update on PantsGate: while my collection of Wrangler cargo pants all are a 36 waist, and while when trying to button them they insist upon a four-inch gap, the pair of 40 waist pants I bought are too big. So, some combination …

2020-01-21: ‪I’ve already been awake for two hours this morning and I’m pretty sad about it to be honest.‬ And maybe a little angry. And pretty tired. I feel kind of awful because of it.

2020-01-21: This morning I am randomly remembering that once upon a time I was making meals with chickpeas and wondering why I stopped doing that so I am lazily browsing the web looking at various simple chickpea dishes to adapt but now I wish I had any chickpeas at home.

2020-01-21: My code cleanup on a customized Marfa is so far along that now I’m “relaxing” by editing templates to get all of the HTML readably nested for anyone doing a view-source, just like the good old days, because easily-readable source is how we learned HTML and CSS.

2020-01-20: “If you’ve met an autistic person,” the saying goes, “you’ve met one autistic person.” Yet it’s impossible, I find, not to constantly compare myself to other late-diagnosed autistics. Rhi Lloyd-Williams recently took stock of life since a …

2020-01-20: Well, this is pretty maddening. Per template debugging, by using printf "%#v" ., I can get my blog pages to output “a list of all the variables scoped to the current context”. I wanted to see if there were any variables tied specifically to the photos/ and …

2020-01-20: Finally going to donate 🩸 early tomorrow afternoon just so that I can re-learn what is my damned blood type. I used to know, and I’m fairly confident it’s an O; I don’t remember whether positive or negative, although I’ve a vague sense it was positive. …

2020-01-20: On July 30, 1967, less than a year before a bullet from a white supremacist assassin’s rifle would end his life, Dr. King came to County Hall in Charleston, S.C., for a speaking engagement. The visit occurred during the “Long Hot Summer of 1967,” as race-related riots broke out …

2020-01-20: One way to tell when my particular actually-autistic feature set is being “worse” than usual (other than, you know, the obvious anxiety spikes) is that even the v-neck t-shirts feel like they are strangling me.

2020-01-19: And so we lose Guardian Cities and its Cityscape newsletter barely a month after we lost CityLab to the open question of the Bloomberg media empire. What else is out there I should have been reading already? I know of Radical Urbanist and City Observatory.

2020-01-19: When I’m singing along to music, Meru 🙀 becomes very concerned because clearly something quite terrible is happening.

2020-01-19: After answering some questions on Slack for John Philpin and Matt Langford about bits of Hugo code I’m using and then watching the latter’s work customizing Marfa, I’ve made some design changes here as well. Next up: organizing my customizations more cleanly by …

2020-01-19: Steve MacDouell describes the three things he’s learned about people from the “third place” that is his local coffee shop: they want to linger in places where they can be seen, heard, and known; long for places where contextual ideas—for the common good of the …

2020-01-19: It looks like maybe we aren’t misunderstanding Dave Winer after all, as he’s freely admitting to “rethinking” RSS. Per his earlier posts on this, what’s really happening is that Winer has copped to being a newsletterer, not a blogger; it’s just …

2020-01-19: This week on 📺 I’m watching Doctor Who, 9-1-1: Lone Star, Batwoman, Supergirl, Black Lightning, Arrow, DC’s Legends of Tomorrow, The Magicians, Nancy Drew, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee, The Good Place, The Bold Type, and Seven Worlds One Planet (which started Saturday but …

2020-01-19: Breakfasts for me tend to be consistent over weeks or months. My current bowl: hash browns, bacon, egg, pico de gallo.

2020-01-18: When I’m physically and psychologically flailing, my brain spasmodically searches for something to change and control. Often, that’s the design of my website(s). I’m going to take a break but here are some changes I’ve been toying with for the blog design.

2020-01-18: Dave Winer disavows blogging and RSS. Mitch Wagner (which is where I saw this) posits he’s just misunderstanding Winer. But if so, I am, too. But, we’re not, although Winer will eventually claim this isn’t what he means.

2020-01-18: After around a year of trying to obtain it, I finally am reading the report from the “consultive exam” I had to undergo through Disability Determination Services as part of my Social Security benefits claim. Right off the bat, the guy commits a basic factual error, …

2020-01-18: Woke up several times overnight with whichever hip I’d been sleeping on aching. That’s new. Yesterday’s near-total resource drain left me this morning only able to have a bowl of cold cereal and some quick-to-heat frozen sausage for breakfast.

2020-01-18: I don’t have any need for JetBrains Mono but the website for this font itself (via Gus Mueller) is a worthwhile design experience.

2020-01-18: Well, okay, terrific. I’ve woken at quarter-to-two in the morning plagued by the sensation that the muscles and joints in my limbs require the intense stretching of being tortured on a rack, and in the absence of such I’m unable to return to sleep.

2020-01-17: In the end, today was, in fact, almost a total resource drain, as I glanced off the edge of a sobbing fit once I finally got home from the zoo this afternoon.

2020-01-17: I’m at that annoying and inevitable stage where I like everyone else’s blog design better than my own and I’ll now spend the next couple or few weeks beating myself up over it for no reason. Addenda The upside of Micro.blog not having a wide-ranging assortment …

2020-01-17: The internet still allows for great innovation and connection today, but it’s just not the same. Social networks like Facebook and Instagram and Twitter constitute “the internet” for many people, but they are not. They are only a pale version of what was and what could have been. …

2020-01-17: In the later wake of Twitter’s announcement of conversation controls, meteorologists expressed concern about disinformation and misinformation during severe weather events, while others technically laud the idea but call it ten years past due. Shuja Haider, meanwhile, somehow …

2020-01-17: Four ducks paddle around the Cascade Stream and Pond area at Oregon Zoo on a chilly winter midday.

2020-01-17: I’ve started reading Lurking: How a Person Became a User by Joanne McNeil; I’m still reading Waste Tide by Chen Qiufan; and I’ve finished reading Trauma, Stigma, and Autism: Developing Resilience and Loosening the Grip of Shame by Gordon S. Gates. I’d …

2020-01-17: This morning felt disappointingly resource-free. Disappointingly because I haven’t been on my weekly mental health trip across town to Oregon Zoo since the week before last. The weather looked to be one of those “could go either way” circumstances in terms of the comfort of …

2020-01-16: Meru unknowingly poses for Teeth-Out Thursday which probably isn’t actually a thing that happens.

2020-01-16: James Parker thinks middle age is great because “[y]ou’re through the disorientation period” and “through the angst and the panic attacks”. David Blanchflower claims that its misery peaks at 47-years-old. All I know is that my autism diagnosis hit when I was 46 and my midlife …

2020-01-16: I’m continuing to work on my Goodreads profile, having just added some new shelves: on-kobo and from-netgalley. At some point I will add to this an on-kindle shelf. In addition to the open-read titles I grabbed, NetGalley just approved me for Anne Charnock’s Bridge …

2020-01-16: According to Anthropocene’s Prachi Patel, in the future our walls will be made of bacteria—with a little help from sand, gelatin, growth enzymes, and calcium chloride. And the bricks will reproduce (sort of).

2020-01-16: If I were a Senate Republican, I’d worry most about the House Democrats. After releasing two rounds of Parnas documents, the chairs of the impeachment committees issued what could be interpreted as a threat. “There cannot be a full and fair trial in the Senate without the …

2020-01-16: Admittedly I kept hitting reload on OpenStreetMap Haiku until I got one I liked, but two in a row put me in this garage, so that seemed like a sign. In the middle of the day Life in Multnomah County In the garage where I belong

2020-01-16: Ask of Snopes and ye shall receive of Snopes: No, wombats are not shepherding other animals under threat from wildfires into the safety of their burrows.

2020-01-16: As part of trying to stage a political comeback, Sam Adams released the results of an “investigation” about himself which he himself paid for, so this campaign already is a clown car. (Turns out I’m on his mailing list, according to my junk folder.) Portland’s going to …

2020-01-15: Goodreads policies for cover images are inexplicable. They incidate that in fact you can use the cover of a book you personally own as a source, but not as a reference to then pick cover artwork that matches; no, you use your photo of the cover. This is madness. Who is in charge …

2020-01-15: Every candidate has flaws. Every candidate is human. These are people running for president of the United States, people who believe they and they alone are best suited to lead the free world. They are narcissists to a one. They are human, and they are power-seeking, and that …

2020-01-15: Look, I hereby expressly grant permission to Meru and Willow to eat my corpse should I die and no one finds me before the next scheduled meal time. What kind of cat parent would I be elsewise?

2020-01-15: On the downside, I felt so physically unwell today that I opted to just sleep from 4:00pm until 7:00pm. I made it until 6:00pm but stayed in bed. On the upside, that’s the same period as a “peak time” event at my electric company so maybe I saved some money what with me not using …

2020-01-15: For some reason my doctor, who knows I’m like an hour away by transit, simply had her office leave that consultive exam report I’ve been trying to get from the state for over a year at the front desk. I had to call and have them stick it in the mail.

2020-01-15: In the end, I was pleased with the 📺 version of “Crisis on Infinite Earths”. I”m sure I could think of a thousand things from the original that I wish had found their way in, but Berlanti et al had to do their own thing in the context of the Arrowverse, and for …

2020-01-15: I wonder a lot about so-called “evidence-based” treatments. Along comes a systematic review of early-intervention autism treatments indicating that “[f]ew of the most popular early treatments for autism are supported by strong evidence”.

2020-01-15: An interesting look by Angela Lashbrook on how Instagram can be a boon for introverts and the socially anxious. Compare and contrast to how it is for my particular blend of autism, anxiety, and OCD.

2020-01-15: At some point these ten-minute treadmill walks need to become longer, but until I somehow can avoid the tiredness, aches, and windedness that rapidly sets in, today I at least will try to make it a Monday, Wednesday, and Friday thing. Addenda Yeah, not happening. I could barely …

2020-01-14: Confirmed. My doctor has the report from Disability Determination Services that Social Security used to deny me benefits. She received it last month; I just have to wait on it getting sent to me now.

2020-01-14: Let me know what happens at the Democratic debate, internet people. I’ll either be watching The Rachel Maddow Show or, more likely, The Blacklist. I skipped the last one, too. I just can’t, anymore. Also, I don’t want to be in a foul mood for the “Crisis on …

2020-01-14: Signed up on NetGalley and pulled down a couple of things already: Whitelash by Terry Smith, and The Hidden Girl and Other Stories by Ken Liu. Not sure I will be able to read the former as it’s a PDF instead of an ePub; it’s tricky on a Kobo device to read a …

2020-01-14: “I’d love to see more experimentation and investment in technology that doesn’t have a product monetizable outcome,” says Danielle Robinson, director of Code for Science & Society, a nonprofit that supports the development of open-source technology built in the public …

2020-01-14: What do we know or think about this whole suggestion that “the autonomic nervous system may govern anxiety in autism”?

2020-01-14: Recently a physical education teacher posted to Twitter a photo of the new “safe spot” she’d created for students to self-regulate. She’d made it out of a garbage can. You can imagine the blowback, although the teacher themselves was flummoxed by it. Today …

2020-01-14: Drownings may increase during unusually warm weather because more people go swimming. Deaths from traffic accidents may increase because higher temperatures tend to result in greater overall road traffic (at least in North America), erosion of driving skills, and increased …

2020-01-14: Meru and Willow enjoy the winter morning southern exposure on a day when it did not in fact snow.

2020-01-13: Wonder of wonders, today there already was voicemail from the contact at SSA saying that in fact they have sent my primary care physician a copy of that “consultive exam” I’ve been trying for over a year to get my hands on. He didn’t say when they did …

2020-01-13: Why is everyone buying only the “ugh.” shirts? There are like a dozen ways to express your quiet disgruntlement! That one version must have gotten linked somewhere, or maybe keeps making its way around Threadless follows? I’ve no way of telling.

2020-01-13: So, it’s 2020 and still no one at The Hill looked at this headline (or the subhead) and asked, “Did we not find out what any actually-autistic people want for themselves?”

2020-01-13: ‪I thought I’d gotten to lunchmaking in time but, nope: no sooner had I eaten a sandwich than the Weakening struck. Fed myself a quick bowl of cereal as an extra but had to go lie down pretty immediately.‬ Head-swimmingly exciting.

2020-01-13: Today I learned that, yes, "enableEmoji": true does work in my Micro.blog theme’s config.json file, which means I can just start using this cheat sheet to enter emoji when blogging on the laptop. Has this been true all along, without adding this to config?

2020-01-13: Colin Walker noticed that increased commitment to writing increased desire to tinker. I’ve had a similar experience, although as I said I don’t actually or especially enjoy the tinkering, as it frequently results in much aggravation and frustration before any solution …

2020-01-13: I understand why it didn’t, and I don’t mean it should have made any specific reference to any specific thing, but I wish the section of Autism: A New Introduction to Psychological Theory and Current Debate which discussed “evidence-based” theories or …

2020-01-13: Since apparently I can only walk the treadmill for ten minutes before becoming tired, achey, and out of breath, I’m trying to add Monday to the Friday. At some point, though, ten minutes isn’t going to do it, I’d assume. But, so winded.

2020-01-13: Three of the four most-nominated movies—The Irishman, Joker, and Once Upon a Time…in Hollywood—are stories about white men who feel culturally imperiled. The fourth, 1917, is about white men who are literally imperiled. It is no accident that those movies have arrived at this …

2020-01-13: Well, it’s happened, and while this partially might be too much information, I guess I’ve got to buy a couple of pairs of fat pants until and unless I manage to lose this weight, else I’m just going to keep squeezing my bladder into muscle spasms. My button is a …

2020-01-13: At some point last month, Disability Determination Services here in Oregon informed me that they didn’t actually keep the report from my two-hour “consultive exam” which Social Security used to deny I was disabled, and gave me the name of a person at the Social Security …

2020-01-13: After a short stretch of sleepful nights back to waking up over and over. I’m miserable. It doesn’t help that there’s some sort of house fan or vehicle engine running and so this steady mechanical drone is pumping into my bedroom.

2020-01-12: So, I ordered food and litter from Chewy in order to start the tracking experiment on usage, so I can figure out a more or less fixed budget on routine 🐈 costs, and because I was having litter delivered instead of having to carry it, I ordered a big pail of not lightweight …

2020-01-12: I suspect that the distinction CJ Eller is circling is the difference between space and place. Forums—as opposed to open networks like Twitter—are more likely to feel like a where as opposed to an ethereal nowhere.

2020-01-12: I’ve started reading Trauma, Stigma, and Autism: Developing Resilience and Loosening the Grip of Shame by Gordon S Gates; I’m still reading Waste Tide by Chen Qiufan; and I’ve finished reading Autism: A New Introduction to Psychological Theory and Current Debate …

2020-01-12: Timothy Chambers reminds me of the history of FOAF (“Friend Of A Friend”) era, if it can be called that. I’m reasonably certain that I had a FOAF file once upon a time, likely back in my self-hosted Moveable Type-using golden-age-of-blogging days, and just as reasonably sure that …

2020-01-12: Days are much easier to manage when you sleep until almost one and then go for a latte and a book at like quarter-til-four in the last bits of the winter sun.

2020-01-12: Meanwhile, the purest show on 📺 has been renewed for a third season, and I’m torn between wanting the season to just air weekly or wanting it to air in full over two weeks like this last season did.

2020-01-12: This week on 📺 I’m watching Doctor Who, Arrow and Legends of Tomorrow (the conclusion of the “Crisis on Infinite Earths” crossover), the season premiere of The Magicians (finally), Nancy Drew, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee, The Good Place, and Evil. I’m …

2020-01-12: Thanks in part to having recently bought a sleep mask, I successfully murdered half the day by getting back to sleep and managed to sleep until 12:45pm. I got all my morning chores and pills and sprays done within fifteen minutes, and now the time before the next sleep is …

2020-01-12: My big plan after last night was to sleep as long as possible this morning so as to avoid being a person so of course once I abided by the alarm to feed the cats I can’t get back to sleep and I’m stuck awake and aimless and angry and I really just need to be asleep even if the …

2020-01-11: One last time I tried the Goodreads Librarians Quiz, even though the time limit sends me down an anxiety spiral, and this time it had at least one question on it that had no correct answer to select. What irritates me, ultimately, is that if I were actually doing Goodreads …

2020-01-11: While I agree with Erin Bulluss and Abby Sesterka that “a diagnosis of autism in adulthood can change self-concept for the better”, it also can do this to a much lesser degree than they describe. It’s true that I’ve said that my midlife diagnosis changed some thinking about my …

2020-01-11: So now I’m wondering, is or is not the so-called genrefication of libraries controversial among librarians? Like, are librarians as a culture resistant to changes like this or more interested in, for lack of a better term, just pushing 📚? At first blush, it seems to me to make …

2020-01-11: “You wake up in your house. A house. But there’s only a few rooms. An apartment? It resembles something like an apartment that used to be….decorated in clean lines, bright colors, slogans on the walls.” So begins a dystopia from Forty-Year-Old Grad Student.

2020-01-11: The disability community often criticizes the term “special needs” (it’s coming up a lot lately because Andrew Yang uses it, typically when he asks if anyone in his audience knows someone who is autistic but never seems to ask if anyone in his audience is autistic), rightfully …

2020-01-11: It’s not that it’s at all inappropriate to study burnout among parents or caregivers of autistic children. It’s that we actually-autistic adults desperately need research (.pdf) into actual autistic burnout, too.

2020-01-11: The press here in America is so hopelessly blinkered by creeping authoritarianism that it’s now writing “there were very fine definitions on both sides” stories.

2020-01-10: So it turns out that the winter days are a vast, bottomless, endless empty that is pretty near impossible to fill when nothing really motivates or holds you.

2020-01-10: ‪So I’m back on watching The Blacklist for the first time because there’s nothing on 📺 and I’m not interested in my streaming queues, and what’s with Lizzie in the S1 finale taking notes on legal pads using giant three-inch letters and maybe all of two words per page. Do they …

2020-01-10: For the life of me I cannot grasp how McIlwain can in the first part of his post type the words “thought leadership content” and “movement-first content” and “pontificatorials that business folks drop as LinkedIn Pulse articles” and somehow then in the second part tie these …

2020-01-10: Things I have recently learned: you can give Meru, 🐈 number one, liquid antibiotics pretty quickly once you get past the trepidation and anxiety of that first time, and she will still come sleep in your lap after. Also, the first thing she will do later on when you smother a …

2020-01-10: CJ Eller is talking about context again (it’s come up here before ), in this case specifically about public highlights and bookmarks. I should note that once upon a time, many bloggers—myself included—used Delicious to bookmark interesting links and then automatically posted …

2020-01-10: Historically, I kept a private Amazon wishlist of 📚 that at some point looked interesting and might someday move to my actual list of titles to buy or borrow. This week I’ve been spending time methodically culling it onto my new to-consider list on Goodreads, which as I …

2020-01-10: I think I am overthinking a regular treadmill schedule and just need to lock in something simple and small and seldom, like a set time just once a week. It’s difficult to switch gears from all the inertial distractions that exist at home to go set myself up on the damned …

2020-01-10: John Stoehr highlights that The Wall Steet Journal reported Trump’s other abuse of national security in a political quid pro quo: “Mr. Trump, after the strike, told associates he was under pressure to deal with Gen. Soleimani from GOP senators he views as important …

2020-01-09: Paul Manafort appeared in court in a wheelchair and now Harvey Weinstein appears in court with a walker. These old shithead men sure all work the same playbook when they finally get caught and have to start facing even the potential of consequences.

2020-01-09: Just downloaded the Red Cross blood donor app so I can finally get around to doing that soon, and in the process finally re-learn my blood type. I swear I’m an O but I don’t know which one.‬ I was going to schedule for next week but I should wait on the snow forecast.

2020-01-09: Joanne McNeil predicts a potential “return to blogs” in 2020: “I’d expect new blogs to step in the same ambiguous territory as newsletters have — a venue for material where not everyone is looking, but privacy is neither airtight nor expected.” And now I’m looking forward to …

2020-01-09: Per the veterinarian, tonight I switched the cats from Iams indoor to Iams senior and I guess they are sufficiently similar that neither 🐈 batted an eye; both simply got down to eating. ETA: ‪In fact, I don’t know what’s in Iams senior but they inhaled it. I’m not sure if they …

2020-01-09: While sorting out my author follows on Goodreads by browsing back through the 📚 I’ve read over the last few years, I discovered that Nicole Kornher-Stace, author of the terrific Archivist Wasp, has a new 📖 coming…but, alas, not until next year.

2020-01-09: I don’t know what the hell FX on Hulu is (are FX and FXX not enough 📺 space for them, and is this why I’ve taken to calling it Pique TV?), but Devs looks interesting. Although since Ex Machina was good but Annihilation wasn’t, who can tell, really.

2020-01-09: After geting trapped in pre-telephone appointment about anxiety anxiety and then post-telephone appointment about anxiety anxierty, and at the risk of just walking into a whole other arena of and for anxiety (and at the certain risk of budgetary anxiety), I got dressed and took …

2020-01-09: The dormant storefront of the North Portland Fencing Club serves as a window-display venue for the #ArtSeenInStJohns project.

2020-01-09: Here’s some blogging nostalgia for you. While using the Wayback Machine to find my local coverage of Iraq war protests in 2003, I noticed in my sidebar from the time a Meta section which linked to several ways to find blogs related to or referencing mine: Blogdex, Daypop, …

2020-01-09: I am in fact still anxiety’ing an hour after my telephone appointment to discuss anxiety, so I was right about needing anxiety meds to discuss anxiety meds.

2020-01-09: I’m switching back to Feedbin for awhile in my ongoing comparison between it and NetNewsWire. Something about the former seems smoother and quicker as a UI experience. I did drop email newsletters from Feedbin as it’s pretty terrible at them, in that it scrapes the newsletter …

2020-01-09: No decisions on anxiety meds made during the phone appointment with my primary care physician (I need to stop making decisions in-the-moment). Taking the day to mull and to ask about things we discussed. First question: who has experience with mirtazapine? (I did find a study). …

2020-01-09: ‪The construction noise next door is getting worse and the sensory onslaught is not doing my any favors on a morning where I have to have a phone conversation about anxiety.‬

2020-01-08: Tomorrow morning I have a telephone conversation with my primary care provider on the matter of anxiety meds but sort of like how you need to have had coffee in order to make coffee I feel like I need anxiety meds to talk on the phone about anxiety meds?

2020-01-08: If there’s one thing that annoys me the most about Meru, 🐈 number one, is that she’s routinely uninterested in things until and unless Willow, 🐱 number two, is interested in them. This most commonly comes in the form of never wanting to curl up on the blanket that’s next to me on …

2020-01-08: After much resistance, I’ve started building out my Goodreads profile, expanding from the read and currently-reading shelves to include my lists of 📚 to-read, to-get, and to-consider. I’d been using private Amazon wishlists for these things.

2020-01-08: Regardless of whether or not Twitter(?) was responsible for the apparent de-escalation, I guess we won’t all be warblogging (again) after all, which means maybe I didn’t jinx us? You should still be keeping a close eye on this guy, though.

2020-01-08: Dino Bansigan notes that Jim Erickson is done with what he calls the “traditional model” of blogging and what’s sad here is that I guess that is the tradition at this point, but it certainly wasn’t the original model of blogging which was to just fucking …

2020-01-08: If there are any longtime readers here (such that a return to blogging that only goes back to 2018 can be considered to have a longtime anything) know that I have trouble with articles about burnout because, as an actually-autistic person who’s experienced that particular type of …

2020-01-08: A politics of happiness may sound frivolous, and it is if you think of “happiness” as simply feeling good (especially since “feeling good” is also not an experience we tend to associate with the federal government). But happiness as shorthand for a good life, which is how a great …

2020-01-08: Something very weird is going on over at Teen Vogue regarding a bit of Facebook hagiography that might or might not have been sponsored content and now has disappeared altogether. ETA: THe New York Times confirms it was “sponcon”, but the story is still pretty …

2020-01-08: Twitter is poised to make one simple change that will dramatically improve the platform in one fell swoop, although not without raising other questions to address along the way. Xie says Twitter is adding a new setting for “conversation participants” right on the compose screen. …

2020-01-08: I am beginning to wonder what, if anything, I might have unconsciously thought as a child about being actually-autistic. Not in those terms, of course, since diagnosis wouldn’t come for decades, but one of my clearest elementary school memories is telling people I wasn’t from …

2020-01-07: So, I failed the god damned Goodreads Librarian quiz again, for the second night in a row. My 🧠 simply doesn’t work right under a time gun, even when it’s an entire thirty minutes. I don’t know why the quiz has to have a fucking clock running. I really do not want to …

2020-01-07: The world is too much today, apparently. For dinner, after thinking about nuclear missiles and listening to all of U2’s War, I first had some bread and cheese, then had too many lightly-salted potato chips, then now it’s snickerdoodles and coffee. If it helps anyone, …

2020-01-07: When the editors of the Encyclopedia Galactica formulate the entry on just how and why alien civilizations threw their pseudopods in the air, gave up all hope for Earth, and moved on to watch someone else, I imagine that it will consist solely of this exchange.

2020-01-07: Albert Burneko assures you that you’re not hallucinating: “The same craven motherfuckers who sold us the Iraq War are back on the TV.”

2020-01-07: All because Simon Woods mentioned Panic, I only just now this afternoon learned that that goose game everyone had been going on about is local.

2020-01-07: Here’s a take: I don’t think Gen-X ever really believed we would get out of this world without experiencing a nuclear war. At one point in high school I’d been put into the “gifted and talented” program (I later had myself removed from it) and our …

2020-01-07: I’m not entirely sure I’m down with this new edition of Clue. President Trump and Secretary Pompeo in The Dead Zone with the football?

2020-01-07: Today I learned more about the secret life of Zipcars than I ever thought I wouldn’t want to, thanks to another WTF installment of Becky Jo’s Carfree Life (as prompted by the FBI).

2020-01-07: Willow’s first trip to the new Cathedral Animal Hospital for a wellness check. She’s in good health and just had to get one of her 3-year vaccines.

2020-01-07: The common conception of the swing voter is one who shifts between voting Republican and voting Democrat. These center-right or center-left voters are typically white and older. Meanwhile, people of color and young people, and especially young people of color, are more likely …

2020-01-07: Every couple of years I am reminded that The WELL still exists and it always seems so very disconcerting to me somehow.

2020-01-07: Today: take Willow (🐈 number two) to the new local veterinarian to establish care and do a general wellness check. She’s never peed on a cat carrier walk before, but she did during the cat carrier drive when I moved, so I’m wondering who has cheap pee pads, just in case.

2020-01-07: “Backchannels accommodate neurological pluralism,” writes Ryan Boren, “while fostering the serendipity of networks.” Serendpity, indeed, as also today Paul Bausch linked Basecamp’s guide for internal communications. When I read Basecamp saying things …

2020-01-07: I’ve started reading Waste Tide by Chen Qiufan; I’m still reading Autism: A New Introduction to Psychological Theory and Current Debate by Sue Fletcher-Watson and Francesca Happé; and I’ve finished reading Ormeshadow by Priya Sharma. Just the Fletcher-Watson is …

2020-01-06: So I just took the Goodreads Librarian quiz and failed, despite it being open book, because the looming time limit kept shutting down my 🧠. I’m just tired of adding ebook editions of 📚 no one else has added but being unable to add cover images.

2020-01-06: Okay, I need this in Captain Dummy talk: what’s the easiest—and cheapest—way to mount old internal hard drives from my OpenBSD days on my MacBook Air? There might be some old blog exports on them, or at least database files although that would complicate …

2020-01-06: Delia Cai highlights some Kathryn VanArendonk thoughts about criticism in which the latter posits two kinds of questions to ask. The work at hand is You, which I don’t watch, but I’ve stripped out the show-specific things to keep the observation general. The first …

2020-01-06: Anyone know a way to convert an exported .xml from a Blogger site into something Micro.blog would understand? I’m starting to give serious consideration to buying a second blog here to host old content from as many of my prior blogging incarnations as I can find, but it …

2020-01-06: Had I my way, we’d somehow manage to hate the depraved pseudoscience of The Goop Lab out of existence in much the same way that we hated the aborted 📺 pilot for Zombieland out of existence. Bill Nye Saves the World is gone, but Paltrow gets a “lab”?

2020-01-06: I’m not actually lying when I say that in my already anxiety-spike state of late, and certainly today, this particular story about a flailing, confused U.S. military in the midst of rising tensions with Iran literally made my stomach spasm like I was about to be physically …

2020-01-06: From this post by Ryan Boren I learn the term “access intimacy” from Mia Mingus—“that elusive, hard to describe feeling when someone else ‘gets’ your access needs” (Mingus) and/or “understood that compassion and good user experience …

2020-01-06: There’s a thing called “tagmoji” on Micro.blog—to help with discovery—that I basically haven’t been using because I don’t especially like the way it looks when prepended or appended to my posts. That said, I’ve started using some of …

2020-01-06: There’s a weird experiment of sorts happening over on Write.as which CJ Eller calls “silent mentions”, but I’m not entire sure I get it. As near as I can tell, it’s just people posting to the same hashtag. It might not be a reply, as such, at all? …

2020-01-06: I’m about to buy both 🐈 food and litter, and I need this time around to track how long each lasts and how often the re-up happens, because if I can switch to a regular Chewy delivery that will help in a few different ways. Right now, though, I have no idea how much …

2020-01-06: This morning, not having much in me, I walked to a cheap bar breakfast I hadn’t done in awhile. The walk itself was an anxiety spike. I did manage to find a reasonably-cornerish table more or less as far from the stereo speakers as I could get, and was able to calmly sit to eat …

2020-01-06: ‪I was today years old when I learned that Transitions lenses work off of UV light and therefore are useless as a solution to when I have to walk to a bright grocery store after sundown.‬ ETA: Apparently there’s a kind of Transitions lenses called XTRActive that I guess work a …

2020-01-06: Two short bouts of insomnia overnight, and ceaseless anxiety dreams throughout the hours I was asleep. Bodes poorly for how well 🧠 and body will function today.

2020-01-05: Rewatching last week’s Doctor Who, then watching tonight’s, then either rewatching more of The OA or going to bed to read more of Ormeshadow.

2020-01-05: Feeling—and this is a weird hybrid not-quite-physical but not-quite-mental sensation in that it’s “in” my head but “feels” like it’s the body—as if I have another body maybe a centimeter beneath my skin that wants to stretch all its …

2020-01-05: For a while, I thought the answer to this question was simple: nerds ruined everything. They carried a teenage sense of grievance into adulthood and nobody stopped them and now here we are. In pop culture they gave us people who go to the mat for blockbusters and in politics they …

2020-01-05: Question: is the reason people care about editing tweets instead of just deleting and re-posting that they don’t want to lose existing engagement numbers, and if so isn’t the real answer to get rid of engagement numbers. If it’s breaking the chain of interaction, then how about …

2020-01-05: Has anyone written about the transformation of coffeeshops from places of comfort to places for productivity? From places with soft lighting and cushioned chairs to places with hard surfaces and harsh lighting? From places just to be to places to get something done?

2020-01-05: I’m currently having a pretty strong freakout over the fact that in the last five minutes I’ve with certainty seen words I’ve typed that then turned out to be completely different words, while also scrolling back and forth eight times through a list of terms to find one I knew …

2020-01-05: For the hell of it I want to say one more thing about disruption versus serendipity: if I’m sitting at my local breakfast place, by myself, reading a book, and someone were to walk up, sit down, and start talking to me, that’s disruption. If in the same circumstances I …

2020-01-05: I am having one of those days where it feels like my body does not fit into the air of the world around it.

2020-01-05: In over the transom this weekend from Research in Autism Spectrum Disorders is a discussion of anxiety as it relates to treatment of autistic patients. It’s limited, if only because it revolves around talking only to eight people, and all eight of them only practitioners, …

2020-01-05: I’ve started reading Ormeshadow by Priya Sharma; I’m still reading Autism: A New Introduction to Psychological Theory and Current Debate by Sue Fletcher-Watson and Francesca Happé; and I’ve finished reading Pet by Akwaeke Emezi. Both the Sharma and the …

2020-01-05: This week on 📺 I’m watching Doctor Who, Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist, The Good Place, and Evil. I’ll also be finishing up my full rewatch of The OA.

2020-01-04: Three years ago today I filed my court papers to change my name to Bix, the name by which for all intents and purposes other than those legal I’d been going by for two decades, the reduction of an online handle which had replaced my original—from slowdog to baby-X to the …

2020-01-04: ‪I’m into season two in my full rewatch of The OA and I keep seeing Brad Pitt’s name in the credits and, really, even he couldn’t convince Netflix to keep it going? It was bad enough that 📺 powerhouse Shonda Rhimes (who has her own Netflix deal) being a fan didn’t matter, but …

2020-01-04: Steve MacDouell posted a list of three neighborly things he’s setting as goals for 2020, and I just wanted to make a language comment. I hate the term disruption. What he’s talking about, really, with his second goal—become more disruptable—is being open to serendipity. …

2020-01-04: I’ve started using the Want to Read shelf on Goodreads to list the 📚 I either own or have borrowed from the library. Basically anything I have on the Kobo that I’ve not yet read. I’m still mulling a Wishlist shelf and a Considering shelf.

2020-01-04: I walked the two blocks down for breakfast and despite Saturday apparently being much less frenetic than Sunday and so less of a drain on me, as soon as I got home afterward I joined the cat who had never left bed and passed out for nearly three hours. I briefly woke about …

2020-01-04: You cannot create or curate a community where everyone is welcome. It’s an incoherent, fake goal. It sounds nice but it is categorically impossible. Some people, by their very presence, make a space unsafe and unwelcoming to others. From Here’s an idea to carry into 2020 by …

2020-01-04: ‪Yesterday’s truncated trip to the zoo due to extremely low, rapidly-depleting resources leaves me with the decision this morning of what will take fewer of what few resources have replenished during a thrice-interrupted sleep: breakfast out which spends money of which there’s …

2020-01-04: “[I]t should be about identifying what is causing distress collaboratively with the person,” writes Sonny Hallett, “and addressing that with an acknowledgement of the broader context in which they exist.” This is certainly true. What’s causing much of my distress, however, is …

2020-01-03: Folks with Bluetooth headphones/earphones: is it common for the device you’ve paired with to later on not connect and instead tell you to “forget” the earphones and re-pair with them? I had these do that on my iPhone XR today.

2020-01-03: I might have to go to bed. It’s not even 7:00pm. I only spent two hours at the zoo today, barely worth the hour commute (not including wait-time) in each direction. Someone in the world must have resources to spare, but it’s certainly not me.

2020-01-03: One particular Allen’s swamp monkey leans in too close to the glass at Oregon Zoo to remain in focus.

2020-01-03: I spotted some 📚 on sale right now that I’ve read and you should go pick up, each for $1.99: Binti by Nnedi Okorafor; The Genius of Birds by Jennifer Ackerman; Shadowshaper by Daniel José Older. Check wherever you get your ebooks.

2020-01-03: So, this research from Orbit Media (via Andy McIlwain) should actually be read as a list of all the things we should ignore if we truly want to revive the blogosphere. The average length of time to write a blog post should not be three hours. It’s fine, of course, to take …

2020-01-03: Today I learned about making buttons and you’d better believe I’m on board with reviving the phrase. And just in time for World War 3!

2020-01-03: Two days after announcing his resignation for health reasons, Commissioner Nick Fish died of abdominal cancer. I’m not interested in hagiography here, as I didn’t know Fish personally and it’s been over a decade since I’d had interaction professionally, but I did go and dig up …

2020-01-03: At least two wake-ups overnight that robbed sleep. Already tired this morning, the thudding, thunking construction next door hammered away at what few resources I had to start the day. Still attempting to do this week’s zoo trip but had to leave the DSLR at home because even that …

2020-01-02: Back in November an early edition of my “now page” I trumpeted my return to blogging “only this time hopefully with much less warblogging”. One and a half months later, we’ve assassinated a high-ranking member of the Iranian military and no one seems to know if this means we are …

2020-01-02: ‪Trying a pair of cheap Bluetooth earphones‬ because I thought they’d fit under my ear defenders, since my Apple earbuds don’t, and really it seems if I’m listening to music I don’t think I’d even need the ear defenders. Test-run on zoo commute tomorrow.

2020-01-02: Woke up several times after 4:00am with difficulty falling back to sleep. Then after carrying a cat to and from the vet (maybe a ten-minute walk each way?), I tried to sit and read at home but instead hard crashed in the living room for almost three hours. Now I’m additionally …

2020-01-02: Meru’s first trip to the new Cathedral Animal Hospital for a wellness check. She’s in good health but has some dental issues to keep an eye on.

2020-01-02: I’ve watched the season premiere of Doctor Who. It was something of an enjoyably Pertwee-style throwback. Earlier this week, I finished up another self-care Girlboss rewatch, and started in on my first full rewatch of The OA.

2020-01-01: I’ve started reading Autism: A New Introduction to Psychological Theory and Current Debate by Sue Fletcher-Watson and Francesca Happé; I’m still reading Pet by Akwaeke Emezi; and I’ve finished reading The Uninhabitable Earth: Life After Warming by David …

2020-01-01: Speaking of health stuff: tomorrow (after I take the first of my two cats to the new local vet in the neighborhood for a general checkup and any shots that might be outstanding), I call to schedule my followup gallbadder ultrasound. Meanwhile, I nudged my primary care physician …

2020-01-01: As soon as I’m done with The Uninhabitable Earth, I’ll be embarking upon a run of autism-related nonfiction books. My local Multnomah County Library finally obtained on OverDrive the ebooks of Autism: A New Introduction to Psychological Theory and Current Debate by …

2020-01-01: One thing I have noticed about this current run of autistic burnout is that everything is noticeably worse: my anxiety is worse, my reflux is worse, my sleep is worse, my sinuses are worse, the twinge of potential gout flare (so far avoided) is worse, and I’ve got some …

2020-01-01: Currently reading: The Uninhabitable Earth by David Wallace-Wells; and Pet by Akwaeke Emezi. Both are borrowed from the Multnomah County Library through OverDrive. I’ve not yet finished any books this year.

2020-01-01: According to My Year in Books over on Goodreads, in 2019 I read more than 15,000 pages across 60 books. The 60 books I read in 2019 is 25 more than my Reading Challenge, which I’d once again set to 35 books, the same goal I’ve set for the past four years. (Note: Not all of the …

2020-01-01: Bizarrely, it is nearly the mid-50s in Portland today, with lots of blue skies passing overhead, and so I credit myself for walking Lombard to see what if anything was open today, thereby finding breakfast that wasn’t at the bar. Back at home, my cats are fairly intent on …

2020-01-01: New Year’s Day breakfast at the remarkably-open Paiku, while reading about the coming of an uninhabitable Earth.

2020-01-01: Nothing changes on New Year’s Day, on New Year’s Day. —U2, “New Year’s Day”

2020-01-01: ‪Twenty-twenty, to live up to its name, would be a good year to bring with it some fucking clarity.‬

2019-12-31: I live in St. Johns, Oregon, since November 2018, where I’ve started my fifty-first year of being alive. I’m in my fourth year as a diagnosed autistic and no closer to feeling like anything other than a failure and a fuck-up. I don’t know what’s going on with my …

2019-12-31: The final photo on my phone from 2009 (not a typo). Taken in November, not December, but it will have to suffice.

2019-12-31: Scenes from a New Year’s Eve: I woke up having dreamt the importance of the statement, “I will have not having.” This afternoon I finally started a full rewatch of The OA. Tonight my fortune cookie read, “I learn by going where I have to go.”

2019-12-31: This wil jinx it somewhere but for whatever reason @media (prefers-color-scheme: dark) { body { filter: invert(100%); } img { filter: invert(100%); } body { background-color: #000!important; } } currently is working in both Safari and Firefox.

2019-12-31: Anyone in the social timeline side of Micro.blog have Goodreads edit privileges? I keep asking on Twitter to get covers added to the generic ebook listings for Supernova Era by Liu Cixin and Pet by Akwaeke Emezi but no joy so far.

2019-12-31: I realized the other day the degree to which my adult pre-diagnosis social interactions were occasioned by alcohol and I wonder what role alcohol plays in masking/camouflaging for an undiagnosed autistic, and for the suppression of comorbid social anxiety. I’m thinking …

2019-12-31: Well, this ends ridiculously. I just got my blog’s dark theme working—having sat down prepared to have to go through line after line of CSS methodically and laboriously—and it turns out that apparently all I needed was @media (prefers-color-scheme: dark) { html …

2019-12-31: A whole week of people extolling the great things they’ve done this year or this decade won’t kill me at all. No, sir. Everything will be just fine over here.

2019-12-31: I’m not actually watching the Doctor Who marathon on BBC America but “The Doctor Dances” was on and the ending is still the best thing ever and I actually came by at just the right time for it.

2019-12-31: My final photo from yesterday’s Byways Cafe finale, bringing to a close their twenty years in business and my decade as a regular patron.

2019-12-31: It seems weird that on mobile web there’s no way to purchase a Kobo ebook I currently have on loan from the library. I wonder if it’s the same on desktop web. I think there’s a purchase option on the ereader itself, but mobile web just says I already have the book.

2019-12-30: I’ve removed all my prefers-color-scheme: dark CSS because I tried making it better and a bunch of stuff didn’t work and I just don’t have the psychic wherewithal to deal. I’m probably the only one who ever looks at my blog at night anyway. ETA: It turns …

2019-12-30: It’s hard to overstate the impact of the now-late Syd Mead (Star Trek: The Motion Picture, Tron, Blade Runner, Aliens, and the unsung favorite that is Strange Days), whom the Art Directors Guild is scheduled to honor, now posthumously, in February.

2019-12-30: If only we were dogs, it would be so easy to be happy, happy, happy. —The Juliana Hatfield Three, “If Only We Were Dogs”

2019-12-30: “It’s important to note, though,” writes Sara Meyer, “that in ABA, ‘best’ means most efficient at changing the behaviour, not ‘best’ in terms of the long range well-being of the client.” Remember this when ABA proponents proclaim …

2019-12-30: Why is it like this? We took this beautiful thing with so much promise and trashed it. Why are WE like this? Because we as people are terrible at grasping web scale in our minds. People cannot scale up like machines. We can’t possibly think through all of the consequences of …

2019-12-30: My final Byways Cafe meal: the Bar Car Grilled Cheese. Thanks for my decade of one, steady, reliable, consistent space.

2019-12-30: Yeah, I am not going to do a year-end wrap-up of any detail. It’s simple: most things sucked, most things look to continue sucking. No one needs paragraph after paragraph of that, least of all myself.

2019-12-30: I’ve been trying to find a metaphor for the idea that if, as some research suggests, autistic brains have more persistent connections in the face of stimuli, and how that might help account for how environmental and sensory stimuli impacts autistic people, and I think I found it: …

2019-12-29: Byways Cafe comes to an end tomorrow. It’s my longest-running regular Portland fixture; I’ve been going for ten years. This shot happens a lot.

2019-12-29: Someone should reboot Girlboss as a post-apocalyptic something with Britt Robertson as Sophia fighting whatever-there-is in that jacket.

2019-12-29: Current reads: The Uninhabitable Earth by David Wallace-Wells; and Pet by Akwaeke Emezi. Both are borrowed from the Multnomah County Library through OverDrive. I’ve read 60 books so far this year.

2019-12-29: Watching this week: Wednesday: Doctor Who. That’s…it. I’ve apparently no motivation to finish up She-Ra and the Princesses of Power and Glitch; or to get to the latest of The End of the F***ing World, The Man in the High Castle, and The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel. I’m once again …

2019-12-28: If we’re going to build a new web, and a new internet, that respects our privacy and security, that doesn’t amplify abuse and harassment and misinformation, we’re going to need to imagine models of experiences and communities that could provide a better alternative. There’s not …

2019-12-28: Oh, no, you printed out internet comments? You’re never going to be happy again. —Girlboss, “Long-Ass Pants”

2019-12-28: I don’t have the mental patience for cooking. This was breakfast: frozen hash browns, pre-cooked bacon, egg poured from a carton.

2019-12-28: “And more often than not,” observed Elizabeth Davis, “white people see racism as an issue of manners more than anything else.” Her remark was prompted by a recent debacle within the Romance Writers of America but almost immediately it struck me again just days later as white …

2019-12-28: Shea is a particularly prominent example of how views we write off as “fringe” are not quite so on the right. There’s a knee-jerk media tendency to “both sides” this issue, pointing out that there are leftist extremists, too. But the difference is that no extremist on the left …

2019-12-28: “This is why algorithmic time is so disorienting and why it bends your mind,” writes Katherine Miller (via Alan Jacobs). “[W]e operate inside a technological experience that moves forward and back, and pulls you with it.” As good an explanation as any I …

2019-12-27: Today is Meru’s 5th adoptiversary. Taken in by the county on 12/18, moved to the humane society on 12/23, adopted on 12/27 (one week after Scully’s death).

2019-12-27: A reminder from the blogosphere of old: it’s possible to be both substantially correct on many merits and swaggeringly, gratingly, self-congratulatorily full of oneself at the same time. Not sure we need that in the revived blogsophere. It was the worst thing.

2019-12-27: The hilarious thing here is Autism Speaks, which supports the autistic conversion therapy known as Applied Behavioral Analysis, warning people away from so-called brain-training centers that “claim to address a long list of disorders without much scientific proof”.

2019-12-26: I’m not especially reassured by the fact that the FCC thinks NOAA is just selfishly and spuriously suggesting that 5G is going to wreak havoc on weather forecasting and anyway, god damn it, there’s $2 trillion to be made, meterologists! It’s not like accurate …

2019-12-26: Watch out: 2019 is sneaking in some last kicks to the crotch before it’s done. Overdrive, the leading provider of ebooks to public libraries, is being sold by Rakuten to the investment firm which “bought and bankrupted” Toys R Us. Just this month I switched from …

2019-12-26: Just over a year and a half ago, I noted that Instagram hates me. Recently, on my original Medium post, I got yelled at for saying Instagram was “out to get us”. I didn’t say that, of course, and the real point is that impact trumps intent—and the impact is that Instagram’s …

2019-12-26: It’s a pet peeve I can’t shake: audiobooks are not reading. They are perfectly valid and every bit as valuable, but literally they are not reading, they are listening. I feel like whatever readers did to try to make listeners feel inferior has resulted in pushback …

2019-12-26: It is, I’m afraid, entirely unsurprising to me to learn that, at least in one city but I’d be further unsurprised to learn elsewhere as well, the majority of car crashes are caused by two things: (1) men and (2) large vehicles.

2019-12-26: Jay Rosen brutally savages Chuck Todd, except that I’m not sure it’s right to call it brutal when it’s so correct and so called-for. Rosen obliterates Todd’s self-professed claims to a mere naïveté, labelling it instead “malpractice”, “willful blindness”, and “lack of …

2019-12-26: Mountain goats (yes, plural) at the Oregon Zoo entrance laze and lounge in an increasingly-rare bit of winter afternoon sun.

2019-12-26: My annual rewatch of Desk Set happened on Twitter as usual. Remind me next year, though, not also to read and get shit-mooded by autism Twitter, which I really should just leave altogether, right as my enjoyment of the movie is coming to a close.

2019-12-25: Random updates: My insane prescription sinus congestion regimen mght finally be taking hold; we’ll see. I successfully left the apartment to sit for a latte and a book before Affogato closed for the day. Last night I ran up to Kung Food to grab some Pea Pod Pork for dinner …

2019-12-25: Last night I stayed up late to finish my rewatch of The Magicians now that season four is on Netflix, because I noticed I’d gotten as far as episode eleven and needed to reach one of the best funeral scenes of any show I watch. How’s that for a Christmas Eve.

2019-12-24: In which the author learns there are fortune cookies operations utilizing hack writers, and also this will never happen.

2019-12-24: This morning after being awake from 4:00am to 6:00am again being unable to breathe through my nose sufficiently, I then had to get up at 8:00am not just to feed the cats but to have a telephone appointment with my primary care physician, most of which about said ceasless …

2019-12-24: Current reads: Supernova Era by Liu Cixin; and The Uninhabitable Earth by David Wallace-Wells. The latter is borrowed from the Multnomah County Library through OverDrive. I’ve read 59 books so far this year.

2019-12-23: Siberian reindeer Ginger and Cookie seem somewhat shocked to be visible from this vantage point at their temporary Oregon Zoo enclosure.

2019-12-23: It’s not my typical circumstance, having past events set off anxiety attacks or potential meltdown/shutdown situations, but I was still struck by this passage in The Deep by by Rivers Solomon, Daveed Diggs, William Hutson, and Jonathan Snipes. Whenever an event triggered a …

2019-12-23: If, on the other hand, we take the kind of long view I’m proposing, instead of seeing Facebook and surveillance capitalism as the culmination of the internet’s short history, we can view them instead as an early experiment that is in the course of failing (or at least of having …

2019-12-23: One of the North American river otters at play in the window in the Great Northwest area of Oregon Zoo.

2019-12-23: The good: finally slept through the night without waking due to being unable to breathe enough through my nose for the first time in ages, but it did take 10-15 minutes of working with nasal saline and three different prescription sprays. The bad: this morning after making and …

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2019-12-22: This week’s television: Sunday: Patriot Act with Hasan Minaj, Mr. Robot; Tuesday: Lost in Space (which I’m likely to binge this week). I’m still trying to finish up She-Ra and the Princesses of Power, and Glitch; and still need to get to the latest of The End of the …

2019-12-22: Photo posts on my blog are going to break for a bit, as the range .Params.photos code I needed to work right now works right. What am I doing? I’m changing the Hugo code for my photo posts so that I can upload photos on the go using Sunlit but still have my posts publish …

2019-12-22: It’s a small thing, but I really do appreciate that, unlike Kindle, the Kobo sense of aesthetics includes the sleep display being the cover of the book you’re reading.

2019-12-21: There’s hardly a reason to tear down a Palm Beach trailer park for the Donald J. Trump Presidential Library when the library can’t possibly have claim to more room than a single trailer. (Not even a double-wide.)

2019-12-21: Whoever would have guessed? The sensory processing differences of actually-autistic people predict “executive and cognitive dysfunctions”. Accommodate or mitigate our sensory sensitivities and, lo and behold, our brains function better.

2019-12-21: Current reads: Because Internet: Understanding the New Rules of Language by Gretchen McCulloch (on the Kindle); and Supernova Era by Liu Cixin (on the Kobo). I read the short Blood Is Another Word for Hunger by Rivers Solomon just before starting Supernova Era. Because Internet …

2019-12-21: Yikes: “I don’t care whether you liked The Last Jedi or not: It is deeply uncomfortable to watch a feature-length subtweet of it.”

2019-12-20: I guess I’d forgotten that Terry Gilliam already had been cancelled due to comments about women standing up for themselves being “mob rule” but the thing about cancelled people is they always renew their cancellation at some point. “I hated ‘Black Panther.’ It …

2019-12-20: Portrait of the author after his long-sleeve v-neck hoodie t-shirts and v-neck “meh.” t-shirts arrived, featuring cameo by empty plate of grilled cheese.

2019-12-20: Some initial thoughts about testing out the Kobo Clara HD. It’s noticably smaller and lighter than the Paperwhite, although the actual screen size is the same. The narrower bezels don’t seem to be an issue for holding the device, in part because of its lighter weight. …

2019-12-20: Not feeling it. This blog intentionally left (mostly) blank today until and unless something strikes me.

2019-12-19: Apparently you can’t create a private shelf on Goodreads; in fact, their “workaround” is to create an entire private group just for yourself and use its shelves for this. As I investigate the degree to which I can wean myself off of Amazon (yes, I know Goodreads is …

2019-12-19: Famous author J.K. Rowling today spoiled her new book, Trans-Exclusionary Radical Feminists and Where to Find Them, by revealing you can find them right there on her own Twitter account. Judging by the comparative engagement numbers (replies, retweets, likes), I’m wondering …

2019-12-19: Yet focusing solely on Section 230’s role in enabling abuse on the internet misses other ways it affects women and other marginalized groups. Despite the provision’s role in making it harder to hold platforms accountable for revenge porn, it also allows companies to moderate the …

2019-12-19: Have any users of the Apple podcasts app ever once gotten a notification of a new episode? All the relevant settings say to send me notifications. The app never once has sent me a notification.

2019-12-18: I confess: “PRESIDENT TRUMP IMPEACHED” came up as the chyron on MSNBC just now and this weird sort of slow-build crylaugh rose up from deep within my diaphagm.

2019-12-18: Impeached.

2019-12-18: “[O]ne potential outcome of [potentially traumatic events],” according to a study in Journal of Autism and Developmental Disorders, “is the development of trauma and stressor-related symptoms such as avoidance of stimuli associated with the event, severe anxiety …

2019-12-18: Happy 13th(?) birthday, Meru; and happy 2nd adoption anniversary, Willow. Meru’s own (5th) anniversary is next week. Both were adopted from Oregon Humane Society.

2019-12-18: The point here is that Trumpism did not replace conservatism. The former rose from the latter. The GOP saw Democrats as illegitimate Americans long before Trump. The GOP did not abandon its principle either. As I said, the principles animating Mitch McConnell and Lindsey Graham …

2019-12-18: Oh hey look, my Threadless store sent me my first $15. You, too, can send me money by expressing your quiet disgruntlement (and other things).

2019-12-18: But smart, capable Times reporters, corrupted by an editorial regime that prevents them from acknowledging those elemental truths, over the last few days put forth such epically, historically bad examples of pox-on-both-your-houses, boring-what-else-is-new, and self-contradictory …

2019-12-18: I’ll be honest. “It is impossible to see who’s popular and attracting a lot of people,” is the complaint of someone who was never going to be happy here, and whose priorities were never going to align with the design decisions and social philosophy of Micro.blog. That’s fine, of …

2019-12-17: So, what the hell happened today, exactly? What happened was that I left my neighborhood in order to hit the soon-gone Byways Cafe again, and within minutes of setting foot on the the bus I was back in that low-level but constant startle-alert state. The one from the other day. …

2019-12-17: There are a lot of reasons to go car-free, but I can’t imagine many of them have anything to do with the Federal Bureau of Investigation. It makes for one hell of a hook, though.

2019-12-17: Portrait of the author’s POV as he has an anxiety attack for lunch instead of the fried egg sandwich waiting for him on the counter inside.

2019-12-17: It was almost a year after diagnosis, I think, before I picked up a $20 pair of shooting earmuffs to cut down on the sound of the world around me when out and about. To this day, I’ve not tried out a pair of actual noise-canceling headphones, but this has me wondering if …

2019-12-17: “I really want a sequel in ten years,” writes Forty-Year-Old Grad Student about Eighth Grade, “because I have to know that Elsie is ok.” I get it, but I think—despite what I’ve written before—that Burnham should leave it, and us, be.

2019-12-16: I’ve been bone and brain tired all day. At one point I angrily screamed at my kitchen sink. I feel like I didn’t entirely wake up this morning, or like I got put on-hold first thing and no one ever came back to the line.

2019-12-16: Wednesday afternoon I get to find out if I‘m allowed to eat in 2020, instead of Wednesday getting to just be about the anniversary of when I adopted a second cat on my first adopted cat’s assigned birthday.

2019-12-16: My full rewatch of The Magicians was rudely interrupted in October by the lack of season four on Netflix. It’s there now, so the rewatch resumes. Season five premieres in January.

2019-12-16: Thanks to Ryan Boren’s post on sensory flooding, now I know about the so-called “roundabout hypothesis” which helps explain a bit about autistic brains (and why some forms of “helping” an autistic person don’t actually help us at all). It pairs well with this Cohen Edenfield …

2019-12-16: Assuming Disney doesn’t want the takeaway from this trilogy to be that the galaxy is doomed to cycles of destruction and despair, The Rise of Skywalker’s climax can’t mirror the end of Return of the Jedi. If Rey lures Kylo back from the dark side, Kylo kills the Emperor (again), …

2019-12-16: Paul Bausch: “My alternate headline for this: Twitter CEO makes the case that Mastodon has a superior architecture for social media; forms group to invent it.” Bausch also links to Eugen Rochko’s full comments on the matter, which didn’t make the Verge piece …

2019-12-16: Eisenstein described much of this in her writings. Her larger point is that the world was never the same again. As she explained to me, we no longer register the impact of the printing press because we have no easy way to retrieve the ambient sensation of “before,” just as we …

2019-12-16: Jay Springett wants you to start a blog: “Your thread is great! But it is also ephemeral, temporal.” I agree. Corollary: stop retweeting every tweet in someone else’s thread. I skip your long threads, and I avoid your account if you retweet someone else’s in full.

2019-12-16: As I explore whether to jump from Kindle to Kobo, I agree with Bradley Chambers that Apple should make an E Ink reader for Apple Books, whether or not it’s like this joke from two Aprils ago. It’s not terribly anti-monopolistic of me, but the older I get the more I just want …

2019-12-15: According to my Threadless dashboard, the four ”express your quiet disgruntlement.” line of shirts that are selling so far are: meh., bah., bleh., and ugh. If you browse around you’ll find I’ve added the initial “(and other things.)” lineup of actually autistic., everyday …

2019-12-15: Tonight’s goal: reach the Cloak & Dagger crossover episode of Runaways before I have to adjust my headspace for the penultimate Sunday of Mr. Robot.

2019-12-15: An unposted dream from last month that I’d written down as a note in Bear in the middle of the night. Was hotel vacation maybe then lost it and needed to pack and leave then told had phone call in a store not hotel but it was texts on a pager I couldn’t work . Then asked to stay …

2019-12-15: Either I moved past this morning’s “low-level, constant…startle alert” or I distracted myself from it, but now it’s returning and I don’t know why. There’s no ready or apparent cause, no obvious trigger or evident responsible stimuli. It’s just…back.

2019-12-15: Partly inspired by my potential switch from Kindle to Kobo, I’m dropping my affiliate links to books in favor of directly linking author websites. If they have a blog, I’ll specifically link to that.

2019-12-15: It’s not like I’ve been setting out to read science-fiction books that evoke neurodiversity since my autism diagnosis, and yet An Unkindness of Ghosts by Rivers Solomon (as noted by Heather Truett); A Memory Called Empire by Arkady Martine (on sale at $2.99 again, by …

2019-12-15: Presented without comment from Paris Marx in Radical Urbanist: “Elon Musk took out the Cybertruck for a dinner at Nobu, then ran over a ‘right turn only’ sign while making a left turn to leave the parking lot.”

2019-12-15: Last week, Holly Honderich wondered whether apostophes still matter as John Richards, founder of The Apostrophe Protection Society, surrendered, thanks to people like Rudy Giuliani who somehow is a graduate of the NYU School of Law.

2019-12-15: This week’s television: Sunday: Patriot Act with Hasan Minaj, Mr. Robot; Wednesday: The Masked Singer, Full Frontal with Samantha Bee. I’ve started in on the latest (and final) season of Runaways, after which I will start in on the latest of The Expanse. I’m still trying to …

2019-12-15: Your experience of the internet and the language therein is shaped by who you were and who else was around at the time you joined. How much tech savvy was required to participate in conversations? Were you going online because your friends were already there, or to meet new …

2019-12-15: With the morning’s unformed thoughts, I’m trying to get at the transition from multiple communities with their own cultures and norms to monolithic platforms with terms of service legalese, in a sense, I guess. While, for example, any given Mastodon instance has its own …

2019-12-15: That feeling when you can’t tell if what’s happening to you in the morning started as psychological and became physical or the other way around. All I know is that that body and mind are on some kind of low-level, constant…startle alert?

2019-12-15: Stray unformed thought: the cultural distinction between eras of conversant media (e.g., Usenet and BBS vs. social networks) is the passing of “read the FAQ” communities. ETA: Unformed followup: distributed or federated uses won’t truly mature until in essence people can form …

2019-12-15: I’ve reached the point in Because Internet: Understanding the New Rules of Language by Gretchen McCulloch where I’m going to just start highlighting everything, apparently.

2019-12-15: This has been true my entire life but I never thought to ask: does anyone else when they try to blow their nose simply end up more congested? Blowing my nose rarely results in actually clearing my nose.

2019-12-14: There’s a third-party site to which you can upload your Kobo highlights and annotations so you can access them on the web all in one place but it requires you to upload an entire database file from your device. Anyone know what else is stored in that file?

2019-12-14: Today (or yesterday?) I realized why Halt and Catch Fire speaks to me: it’s about reasonably-clever people on the edges of exciting things that were happening in the world but who in the end were too mediocre for it to have amounted to anything for them.

2019-12-14: Next weekend I’ll be test-driving a Kobo to compare it to my Paperwhite, as part of exploring just how far I can remove myself from Amazon. The biggest drawback for me of a potential switch would be the loss of my Goodreads highlights, which are generated directly from the …

2019-12-14: Current reads on the Paperwhite: Because Internet: Understanding the New Rules of Language by Gretchen McCulloch; and The Deep by Rivers Solomon, Daveed Diggs, William Hutson, and Jonathan Snipes. Both are borrowed from the Multnomah County Library through OverDrive. I’ve …

2019-12-14: Blogs were unruly spaces. There were internecine fights. There were so many times when I saw my own little, narrow worldview challenged and sometimes exploded (that often felt very bad, even as it was very necessary). There were so, so many times when I made absolutely wretched …

2019-12-14: “[R]oad safety advocates have long complained that media outlets tend to blame pedestrians and cyclists who are hit by cars,” writes Richard Florida. “A paper published earlier this year in a journal of the National Academy of Sciences’ Transportation Research Board offers proof …

2019-12-14: Just a boy and his block in the Stellar Cove sea otter habitat at Oregon Zoo.

2019-12-14: ‪So I was wrong about Afrin having no effect. If I use it at 5:00am after using the prescription sprays at 11:00pm but waking in the middle of the night stuffed up again, it lets me breathe…but also pushes my heart rate so I feel like I’m terrified.‬ Even hours later.

2019-12-14: That feel when something you wanted to try to do in your theme templates technically seems possible under Hugo but the way Micro.blog handles image uploads apparently precludes being able to take advantage of the functionality.

2019-12-13: The Juliana Hatifeld Three song “Blame the Stylist” (off of the 2015 album Whatever, My Love) very much is not about treatments aimed at normalizing (in the bad way) autistic people, but it sure as hell works that way metaphorically.

2019-12-13: Max Masnick touts a great find: CiteAs, a tool to generate a properly-formatted citation “for diverse research products, from software and datasets to preprints and articles”. This will be much faster for adding things to How To Avoid Providing Mediocre Support than …

2019-12-13: A new approach to understanding social cognition in autistic and non-autistic people is gaining empirical support. Research is showing that difficulties in social interaction between autistic and non-autistic people are two way, evidencing a ‘double empathy problem’ (Milton …

2019-12-13: This one hurts. Bloomberg Media is buying CityLab and promptly slashing its staff in half, all while billionaire owner Mike Bloomberg is funding a vanity run for president and easily could double the site’s staff rather than cleave it in half.

2019-12-13: Up close and boopable at Oregon Zoo with an Allen’s swamp monkey, African painted dog, chimpanzee, and southern sea otter.

2019-12-13: Sometimes I wish I were not so wedded to figure and figcaption tags in photo posts to my blog, because then it would be easier to post on-the-go instead of waiting until I get home. Then again, I guess nothing is so crucial that it can’t wait.

2019-12-13: Intermittently, I’ve been checking what people have been tweeting at Bluesky. Tonight I spotted people promoting Voice, which touts itself as “social as it should be”. I don’t really understand it. They’re constructing some sort of token system whereby as their …

2019-12-12: Yes, design is political. Because design is labor, and your labor is political. Where you choose to expend your labor is a political act. Whom you choose to expend it for is a political act. Whom we omit from those solutions is a political act. Finally, how we choose to leverage …

2019-12-12: Best lede: “A group of anti-vaccine activists outraged by a New Jersey bill that would remove religious and ‘personal belief’ exemptions […] refused to leave a transit meeting Thursday after being told they were protesting at the wrong hearing.”

2019-12-12: So I am trying Apple Music again, and discovered that The Juliana Hatfield Three four years ago released a second album, Whatever, My Love, twenty-two years after Become What You Are, and it’s terrific and it’s making the end of my kind of shitty week.

2019-12-12: Last night was something a nightmare and I don’t mean the dream where Robocop was a door-to-door salesman who came to my office and showed how by attaching a compressor hose to a metal can of peanuts he could crush it to make instant peanut butter. Somewhere around 4:30am I …

2019-12-12: This seems fine, right? Facebook training materials for moderating election information was full of egregious errors. Because of course they were. Of course they were.

2019-12-11: Maya Shwayder of Digital Trends talked to Eugen Rochko of Mastodon about Jack Dorsey’s announcement of Bluesky, while Bluesky itself said that if the team decides existing standards are the way to go, that’s what they will do.

2019-12-11: Who has all thumbs and only just barely avoided his eyeglasses falling into the toilet bowl because he was stupid enough to remove them to scratch an itch above an open lid and then upon the near-miss rescue almost fell to the floor in hysterics?

2019-12-11: I was mathematically curious how much it would cost to move from Kindle to Kobo, combining device plus ebooks waiting to be read that I’d have to buy again. Noted for future reference: currently it’d be $99 for reader, $111 for books. Although technically not true, because I …

2019-12-11: Here’s a cool thing about not being self-sufficient and being unable to support myself: I’m at risk of being evicted because reportedly my December rent never happened. In honor of my current massive anxiety attack I now will sit in my apartment in the dark and not turn on the …

2019-12-11: “Temporary projects change people’s expectations for what they are allowed to do there and what’s possible,” Roberts says. “Representation is really powerful, and it’s something that Mabel and I talked a lot about with Marching On: The way that young black people are represented, …

2019-12-11: Not to go all-Bluesky-all-day here (and this would be a good place for Micro.blog to have some sort of live-blogging or “reply to self to update post” feature), but I suddenly remembered something David Gasca said to me in September that I wrote about at the time. In …

2019-12-11: FediThoughts has some interesting, well, thoughts on whether or not it’s possible to make a federated version of a Medium-like publication system.

2019-12-11: On the matter of Bluesky, I wanted to highlight this tweet which seems to suggest that Dorsey wants to get Twitter out of the social infrastructure business altogether and pivot to trying to create and corner an algorithmic curation market instead. ETA: Justin Ouellette notes …

2019-12-11: Dying to hear what indieweb folks think of the new Jack Dorsey plan to “develop an open and decentralized standard for social media” with “Twitter to ultimately be a client of this standard”. Dorsey claims the effort intends “not only to develop a decentralized standard for …

2019-12-11: Today we see something very different and far more sinister. Nihilistic forces are dismantling policies to protect our air, water, and climate. And they seek to discredit the pillars of our democracy: voting rights and fair elections, the rule of law, the free press, the …

2019-12-11: Compare and contrast the Thomas Frazier idea of understanding the atypical gaze of actually-autistic people—determined a priori by Frazier to be the source of the problem—purely in order to direct treatment to change it with the findings of a newly-published study which, …

2019-12-11: Notwithstanding the comparison, I think there’s a glaring difference between recency and temporality on the web. Recency doesn’t rule out context, whereas temporality certainly seems to. Temporality feeds into the death of the link, in the sense that a transient form like social …

2019-12-10: “With Webmention,” writes Aaron Parecki, “we’re explicitly focusing on enabling the kind of rich interactions people do on social media instead.” According to the webmention draft, such an interaction “can be an RSVP to an event, an indication …

2019-12-10: “An increase in a person’s tendency to look at social information, for instance,” argues Thomas Frazier, “could indicate that a treatment is working.” In other words, the fact that actually-autistic people have an “atypical gaze” and “do …

2019-12-10: It’s pointless to tell the Trump War Room that Thanos was utterly and completely defeated. They know that. It doesn’t matter, because this tweet is the Fascist Party openly and casually joking about being fascist, knowing full well that the same folks who in 2015 …

2019-12-10: “Cork floors soften footsteps; shutters modulate sunlight and views; extra-wide hallways ease transitions by providing more room for [you] to move,” writes Rebecca Horne; “and ‘escape spaces’ offer [you] respite from overwhelming experiences or …

2019-12-10: Noting that most linking behavior on social media contextually is both shallow and ahistorical, Chris Aldrich suggests that something else altogether happens in the blogosphere, even today. I’m seeing people linking to and I’m also reading much older blog posts. In the last few …

2019-12-09: ‪What’s very confusing to me is that the reflection of my television in the living room window appears to be just ever so slightly delayed from the television itself. It’s got to be an artifact of my perception, given the speed of light, but I can’t unsee it.‬

2019-12-09: So I mentioned this in passing yesterday when I finally remembered to note the existence of Civic Signals, but I wanted to come back to that professor studying the “unwritten code” of riding the bus. The key to Amy Hanser’s thesis is that such a compact public …

2019-12-08: I was today years old when I learned that Marc Guggenheim really did try to get Nic Cage for the “Crisis on Infinite Earths” event which begins tonight but we remain stuck with this footage of his Superman.

2019-12-08: Back in January, during a rewatch of Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, the first since my diagnosis, I noticed that Odo, by intention or not, was an analogue for the actually-autistic. Rest in peace, René Auberjonois.

2019-12-08: I’m still being driven mad by the polar opposite usages of the term “normalize”. Sometimes it’s “change a thing to be more like ‘normal’”, sometimes it’s “change what’s considered ‘normal’ to include a thing”. Can we normalize “normalize”, please?

2019-12-08: This week’s television: Sunday: Patriot Act with Hasan Minhaj, Supegirl (the start of “Crisis on Infinite Earths”!), Mr. Robot; Monday: Batwoman, Black Lightning, Making It; Tuesday: The Flash, The Masked Singer, Making It; Wednesday: The Masked Singer, Nancy …

2019-12-08: As idealistic as this vision of the Web might seem these days, it isn’t that far out of reach. Much of what’s needed, especially the publishing part, is already there. It’s also not as if our sites weren’t already connected in one way or another. Yet much of the discussions and …

2019-12-08: After importing my WordPress posts I’ve discovered a weird behavior that’s not appearing consistently across all those posts: in some, markdown italics are not rendering, because the empty space before the opening asterisk is being read as some other sort of invisible …

2019-12-08: “What I really want to know,” I wrote, “is if there’s a conference—or even just a gang blog—devoted to talking about those ways we talk about online space and offline space, and what lessons can be learned from each to apply to the other.” Lo and behold, …

2019-12-08: This morning, after the last two days of I don’t know what’s been going on, I wasn’t given a choice. Shortly after feeding the cats at 8:00am, I fell asleep again until 11:00am. Today is starting at noon, but has to include at least a walk to the store for catfood.

2019-12-08: I will not ruin my Sunday by arguing medical versus social model. I will not ruin my Sunday by arguing medical versus social model. I will not ruin my Sunday by arguing medical versus social model. I will not ruin my Sunday by arguing medical versus social model.

2019-12-07: Egg kichel, which for some reason my maternal grandmother always had on-hand despite our family not being Jewish. (These are from Challah Connection.)

2019-12-07: All day today my body’s felt weak and my brain discoordinated. On the walk back from today’s anxiety outing my head felt like I’d been hyperventilating but I’ve no idea if I’d actually been. Yesterday and today I’ve had issues with physical multitasking; I’d turn from the fridge …

2019-12-07: Currently reading: The Rosewater Redemption by Tade Thompson; and Because Internet: Understanding the New Rules of Language by Gretchen McCulloch. The latter is borrowed from the Multnomah County Library through OverDrive. So far this year, I’ve somehow read 55 books …

2019-12-07: ‪How relieving are these replies to someone like me, who gets tired of the ”superpowers” talk, and of those who view autism’s difficulties solely through the lens of the social model. The folks replying here reflect my own lived autistic experience.‬

2019-12-07: Earlier this week, I somehow stumbled upon Jenna Jameson slinging antivax stuff and tagging it with a hashtag about believing women when they come forward with stories about abuse, harassment, and assault. It turns out it’s likely an outgrowth of antivaxxers on Instagram …

2019-12-07: The tech investor Marc Andreessen once said that in the future, there will be two types of people: “people who tell computers what to do, and people who are told by computers what to do.” It was a prescient prediction, but not in the way Andreessen meant it. He imagined a society …

2019-12-07: The remnants of Pattie’s Home Plate Cafe in downtown St. Johns, Oregon, in the wake of closing after twenty-one years.

2019-12-07: Clearly I am not sufficiently recovered from whatever the fuck yesterday was (or the day before that), as within moments of ordering my cheap bar breakfast—well, no, ahead of that, really, I was descending into an anxiety attack, but I guess I was trying to power through it …

2019-12-06: Here’s a question for other folks on Micro.blog: while at some point we will get webmentions on our blog posts, has anyone got them up and running right now through something like Webmention.io?

2019-12-06: I’ve been living in St. Johns, Oregon, since November 2018, where I recently spent the skidmark of my fiftieth birthmonth, and where I’ve adopted the local preference for continuing to refer to its as its own town rather than the Portland neighborhood it became. …

2019-12-06: Remind me the next time I need to get or replace my eyeglasses that rather than one set of mirrorshades and one set of regular glasses, what I need is the mirrorshades and one set of transitions, so that on the rare occasion I need, for example, to go to the grocery store at …

2019-12-06: Despite yesterday, I’d had intentions for today. Or, at least, intentions for having cheap bar breakfast in the neighborhood. Then I woke up like this and kept going back to sleep, not to leave bed until 11:00am. While I managed to make a proper breakfast at home, after …

2019-12-06: Dear friends, please consider my reported essay about how modeling my life on Magic Mike XXL taught me mindfulness.

2019-12-06: What if the Peter Principle applies to the simple fact of one’s having been born at all? What if being given life in and of itself was rising to your level of incompetence?

2019-12-05: Almost very nearly literally, I do not understand a single word or idea in this post about post-normcore by Darcie Wilder.

2019-12-05: It’s difficult not to read the world around me as saying that if I were at least just a little bit worse maybe there’s a chance for the disability financial supports that I actually already need right now. The world should not be designed to urge me to get worse. I’m not a …

2019-12-05: In news from the “research catching up to lived, autistic experience” department: yes, eye contact does, in fact, actually fuck us up. An eyetracking analysis revealed that cross-modal coordination of speech production and facial expression was greater when the …

2019-12-05: “Mapping has been the tool of empires and governments for 500 years,” Dalton told MapLab, pointing to the days of Columbus and other Western explorers who used geographic tools to colonize civilizations around the globe. “What happens when maps get into hands of people who’ve …

2019-12-05: I tried really hard not to post about this Doc Searls post in which he essentially plays the “not all Boomers” card, but (admitting failure) I need to, even if it’s only to respond, “Ok, blogger.”

2019-12-05: Robert Henderson seems to think that cancel culture is a tool of successful “social strivers […] to move up by taking others down”. That is not my understanding of cancel culture, even if you account for the fact that Henderson appears to be describing calling-out …

2019-12-05: Somehow I missed Om Malik’s subtle funk: “This is mostly because, like most men in their early 50s, I have been struggling to reconcile the past, the present, and the future.” It was Colin Walker’s angsty anomie that resurfaced it. While I know, …

2019-12-05: Andy Baio has a pretty amazing look at just how bots are stealing artwork posted to Twitter and creating unlicensed product. Basically, don’t ever reply, “I’d love that on a t-shirt!” to an artist online.

2019-12-04: The purest show on network television returned this week and if you haven’t added Making It to your must-watch list, I’m judging you right now as you read this post.

2019-12-04: Today I learned from Michelle Delgado about Melitta Bentz, the inventor of the coffee filter: “Some articles describe Melitta as an ‘accidental engineer,’ but I don’t like that description. She didn’t stumble into her invention.”

2019-12-04: Kimberly Hirsh helpfully explains some truths about chronic illness and I just wanted to throw in a couple of things when it comes to spoons. I’m glad that Hirsh notes that the number of available spoons is an important issue left unaddressed in the original spoon theory; …

2019-12-04: It’s important to note that this isn’t a recent phenomenon. It’s been going on ever since computers, and more specifically computer networking, began entering the corporate world. Joan Greenbaum, in her book Windows on the Workplace, talks about how even before the internet, …

2019-12-04: Alex Kapitan’s look at “person-centered language” (as opposed to “person-first language”) from a couple years back reminds me of an argument I made last year: there’s a difference between autism and cancer.

2019-12-04: Tre Vayne details how white people can’t stop inventing blackface, to the point where a white photographer deems a dark-skinned black woman the “perfect supermodel”…but only if she’s digitally-created by him, artificial, and completely under his control.

2019-12-04: Kristin Rollins has the opposite problem from the one I have: I need to be present, despite feeling like I’m on display and being judged, because I need them to feel that they are being watched. (Also, I have cats that need to stay inside.)

2019-12-04: I’m finally almost done reading Mark W. Moffett’s The Human Swarm: How Our Societies Arise, Thrive, and Fall and in one of the last chapters one particular passage struck me in an unexpected, unintended way, although my thinking about it remains messy. “In the …

2019-12-03: Ginger, one of two Siberian reindeer spending time at Oregon Zoo through January. She and Cookie can be found in what will be the new rhinoceros habitat.

2019-12-03: Okay, well, I pulled the trigger on importing This Mediocre Life posts and I don’t think anything has gone horrendously wrong. Mostly what this means is all of my autism writing from April 2018 onward (which originally I’d posted to Medium) now is here. Most posts are …

2019-12-03: A good look at how red pandas like Moshu use their front paws to pull and hold bamboo during an afternoon snack at Oregon Zoo.

2019-12-03: Some months back I tried to find a psychoconsultant (my term-of-choice) at a mental health practice that was near my favorite breakfast place across town, figuring that I could reward myself with food whenever I had a session. The breakfast place is closing, so it doesn’t …

2019-12-03: Moshu, settling into the red panda habitat at Oregon Zoo, returns to his napping spot after an afternoon’s bamboo forage.

2019-12-02: I spend a lot of time in the book trying to hone in on exactly what I mean when I talk about generosity. It’s a fraught subject. As I argue at some length, the requirement to be generous is not evenly distributed in our culture — whether by that I mean to point to the academy or …

2019-12-02: “He rode the length of every train line with his eyes closed, feeling the curve of each track and then drawing the path he perceived in his sketchbook.” Antonio de Luca and Sasha Portis’ interactive look at New York City’s subway map is a true must-view.

2019-12-02: “If you are an American between the ages of 14 and 49 reading this,” proclaims L.V. Anderson, “there is a decent chance you have genital herpes and don’t know it.” I’ve only just passed 49, but I know it. Read on for a history of the herpes stigma.

2019-12-02: Katie Rose Pryal tells a story illustrating the difficulties she and her son have with surprises, with a preface about Christmas. I’ve discussed this before. As I had it, “gifts are better than presents”, in that, to my mind, presents are presentational and …

2019-12-02: I’ve been living in St. Johns, Oregon, since November 2018, where I recently spent the skidmark of my fiftieth birthmonth, and where I’ve adopted the local preference for continuing to refer to its as its own town rather than the Portland neighborhood it became. …

2019-12-02: Dino Bansigan has some results from experiments related to blog publicity and analytics, and it’s interesting that once analytics were hidden, there was less worrying about readership drops. I’ve been running without analytics for about a month and a half now, and, …

2019-12-01: There are some Kindle books on sale right now you should pick up. Me, I’m picking up Waste Tide by Chen Qiufan, which was just recommended by Charlie Jane Anders. You should pick up Blackfish City by Sam J. Miller, and A Memory Called Empire by Arkady Martine.

2019-12-01: Here’s a good thing: BBC America has put all of last season’s Doctor Who online, just weeks after I lamented not being able to do a rewatch. I’d actually forgotten how much I’d enjoyed the “reboot” in tone and aesthetic, and Whittaker is a joy, and the ridiculously-mad glory of …

2019-12-01: One way to know that it was a bad idea allowing Scott Adams column inches to define how to make Twitter safe for nazi sympathizers and rape apologists like himself is that no one at Wired had the guts to put their name on it.

2019-12-01: Enter into the record that it was shortly before two in the afternoon on this, Sunday, the first of December, in the year 2019, that I screamed profanity and threw silverware across the kitchen rather than throw the plastic container of food that would not open.

2019-12-01: This week’s television: Sunday: Patriot Act with Hasan Minhaj, Batwoman, Watchmen (thanks to a weekend of free HBO on Xfinity), Supegirl, Mr. Robot; Monday: 911, Black Lightning, Making It; Tuesday: The Flash, Arrow, Making It; Wednesday: The Masked Singer, Nancy Drew, …

2019-12-01: “This imperative to avoid being – even appearing – unhappy has led to a culture that rewards a performative happiness,” writes Cody Delistraty, “in which people curate public-facing lives, via Instagram and its kin, composed of a string of ‘peak experiences’ – …

2019-12-01: “Simply getting older is probably the best cure for anxiety,” CJ Chilvers declares. “You learn how to deal with triggers better.” Then again, if your diagnoses came in midlife, and part of what anecdotally happens with late-diagnosed autistics is that …

2019-12-01: “I absolutely believe that you can design interfaces that create more safe spaces to interact,” says Erika Hall as quoted by Annalee Newitz, “in the same way we know how to design streets that are safer.” I’m going to need to make a category here for …

2019-12-01: I should note that my use of “autism Twitter” in this post about privilege itself reflects the narrow, less-diverse-than-I’d-like nature of the Twitter list I use, a limitation which I’m trying to rectify.

2019-12-01: There’s a recurring theme in my nightmares of being in a natural disaster, typically a tsunami and flood. It happened again last night. This time at least it ended with friendly porpoise swimming repeated circles around and leaping over me.

2019-11-30: This has been one of those days where it feels like someone has turned up the earth’s gravity to eleven. I didn’t leave bed until 10:30am, only then to return at 2:00pm. It wasn’t due to fatigue, but a sort of cerebral malaise (to quote Cradle Will Rock); less …

2019-11-30: I’ll admit it: it rankles me that there will be daily prompts a few days beyond November, and so I’ll end with my first, true “meta” post and mention that I will not integrate the extension into my own series. Today is the final day, all the rest is but Fauxvember.

2019-11-30: I’ve officially decided that I’m going to deliberately spoil myself on The Rise of Skywalker because it seems like my best bet for sanely surviving the online shipping shitstorm that’s inevitable no matter what happens or doesn’t. Do I even really care about the movie anymore?

2019-11-30: Besieged by anxiety dreams all night, punctuated by being awake for an hour at two-in-the-morning with nausea that made me afraid to move. It’s discoloring my view of the morning, and of myself, and of the very idea of facing anything, or getting up, or eating.

2019-11-29: While I’ve never found anything to be “superb”, I have deemed things to be “fantastic”. An episode of television here, maybe a photograph I’ve taken there. Mostly, though, it’s irony. Real example: “Nonstop anxiety dreams all night. So today looks to be fantastic.”

2019-11-29: “We are reaching out to you about your treatment request,” emailed a mental health practice in response to my inquiry, in which as usual I detailed my troubles finding someone versed in—or comfortable with applying themselves to—adult autism who is covered by my insurance. “One …

2019-11-29: Matt Baer pens an ode to the checkout line, and while the connection he feels to how “this tiny little comment from a real-live person … would yank me out of my head” is a valid and very human thing, and while he’s right about how the increasing shift toward self-checkout turns …

2019-11-29: Here’s a hilarious bit of nonsense, though: I get more depressed watching people talk up autistic exceptionalism than I do watching people talk up alleged or desired so-called “cures”. Cure talk doesn’t make me hate my autism; superpower talk does.

2019-11-29: Monika Bauerlein is right that journalism needs to pick a side “between those who stand for democracy … and those who abet authoritarianism and minority rule” but wrong that it’s misconstrued politics as left vs. right only over “the past four …

2019-11-29: Of all the personal taglines I’ve used online over the past twenty-six years, the current I think basically sums it up: “Mediocre white guy.” I feel compelled, then, to share a bit from Michael Harriot’s write-up of a phone call with Pete Buttigieg. “A …

2019-11-29: “Facebook and Twitter and Instagram and on and on are social media. They won that title,” argues Matt Baer. “Any new entrant to the space that calls themselves that loses by default.” Is he right? Then what “space” would new entrants be …

2019-11-29: Andy McIlwain quotes Greg Sterling saying that “most online research results in an offline purchase”. Not for me. In fact, once upon a time, I’d literally visit Powell’s in person to browse new releases and find things for my Kindle wishlist.

2019-11-29: Eight months after moving to Portland (and 19 years before my diagnosis), I did what this autistic guy did (well, I bought an existing coffeeshop). I drove off my business partner within a year and ran the business into the ground a year later.

2019-11-28: One useful thing about the property on which I live is that residing in the mother-in-law apartment out back means the profane screams which mitigate my autistic brain’s true desire to throw something across the room when I am overloaded can’t bother anyone.

2019-11-28: Meru is thankful for the winter southern exposure created after a neighbor cut down all the trees at the fenceline. Willow also is thankful for the winter southern exposure and also for having a separate window from Meru.

2019-11-28: All the bats are welcome to come roost in my attic or along my eaves if everyone else has a problem with them. We kept thinking about bat boxes at the goats, but since they’d just be taken down after a move, it didn’t seem wise.

2019-11-28: I can’t speak to CJ Chilvers’ argument for music as anxiety cure, but I can say that music has helped get me through the oncoming fatigue or autistic overwhelm/risk of shutdown which frequently descends around about the time I still need to public transit my way home …

2019-11-28: David Hayter’s test footage for a Watchmen movie that never happened is terrible. I get it’s a test but actors should still act? Rorschach does head-whip line deliveries like he’s Envy Adams. Why is the Comedian’s button the size of my head?

2019-11-28: With this week’s television finishing up on Tuesday, the rest of the week consists of my annual Pangsgiving rewatch of WKRP in Cincinnati’s “Turkeys Away”, Buffy the Vampire Slayer’s “Pangs”, and The West Wing’s “Shibboleth” and “The Indians In the Lobby”. Through the …

2019-11-27: In “governments are better than corporations” news, both Apple and Google cede to Russian demands that Crimea not be mapped as part of Ukraine, while “most of the international community … does not recognise the annexation of Crimea to Russia”.

2019-11-27: Last week, leading up to the Democratic primary debate on MSNBC, a libertarian think tank ran an ad with all the hallmarks of a suburban scramble to Thanksgiving dinner—until the punchline: Instead of driving, the whole family rode scooters while hauling turkeys and pies to …

2019-11-27: Autism Twitter is a lifelong condition often characterized by: an inability to notice one’s own bullshit; a pathological need to find oneself exceptional; a compulsion to inform others of your superiority; an inexplicable failure to notice one’s own hypocrisy; an …

2019-11-27: That feel when after a long, perilous day hauling across town to visit your favorite breakfast place that’s closing, and to pick up tomorrow’s Thanksgiving dinner, and to be beaten down by public transit, you get home too exhausted to make lunch and then remember Kung Food up the …

2019-11-27: “Blogging was always about community; reading and commenting on each others’ posts,” jots Pratik. “We say that we should write for ourselves as if no one is reading but it sure helps to know that someone is reading you out there.” For my part, I …

2019-11-27: Portrait of one of the author’s final trips to Byways Cafe. Out of four most-commonly-ordered dishes, a half-order of French toast with a side of bacon.

2019-11-27: I will never be rich. I will never be anything other than on-the-edge, especially once I’ve finished depleting family resources and even if I successfully find my way to all potential benefits through Social Security. That’s what post-midlife has in store.

2019-11-26: Moshu, who recently joined Mei Mei at Oregon Zoo’s red panda exhibit, has a chilly afternoon snack in the shadows.

2019-11-26: While I assume there must be extroverted autistics (how, though?), I myself am a mix of autistic and introverted. In fact, before diagnosis I’d unknowingly mitigated some of my autism feature set through a sort of do-it-yourself introvert’s toolkit I still use.

2019-11-26: If evidence is catching up to anecdote on actually-autistic people and stimming, what else might anecdote be right about, and what else might critics of eliminationist treatments be shown to be right about, and maybe we should let anecdote inform research.

2019-11-26: Finished with mugging at the window, one chimpanzee at Oregon Zoo turns to closely groom the ear of another.

2019-11-26: Whitney M. Fishburn decided she had some things to say about transgender identity and transgender politics, and while as another cisgender person I’m going to tread lightly here, one paragraph seems especially of note. And that is really why I was thinking so much about …

2019-11-26: When I point out that Colin Walker’s description of eye contact is classically autistic I don’t mean that as an armchair diagnosis. I bring it up because I take issue with the language deeming eye contact “right” and “polite”. It isn’t; it’s merely typical. The key to …

2019-11-25: ‪Well, I just spent five minutes skimming in and out of the event horizon of a sobbing fit‬, which bodes poorly for both energy levels and state of mind this winter.

2019-11-25: As winter looms in the distance, I can’t say that I’m looking forward to the seasonal impact upon pre-existing thoughts, like how I don’t see that I ever will be even remotely close to financially secure, and so if downhill hasn’t started already, it will soon.

2019-11-25: Portrait of the author shortly after having sung, “Tater tots, tater tots, I can make myself tater tots.” to the tune of the Spider-Man theme.

2019-11-25: Last week, all my photos from Oregon Zoo came through a three-hour stakeout of the red panda exhibit. Today everything I got—chimps, lions, and red pandas—came by happenstance, luck-of-the-draw, and right-place-right-time.

2019-11-25: Meru tries to settle back in post-breakfast after the author returned to bed after putting out food because it was too damned cold.

2019-11-25: Despite the setup Forge uses, no one ever actually suspected that rich people were happier because of their purchases, but for precisely the reasons the cited study supposedly “reveals”. To wit: rich people aren’t stressed, you know, about survival. You know why …

2019-11-25: Tim Berners-Lee doesn’t seem to understand that his Contract for the Web is dead-on-arrival with the rightwing operation that is Facebook allowed to call itself a supporter. This is face-saving window dressing.

2019-11-25: We’ve begun the descent into the season where I can’t leave my neighborhood or even sometimes my apartment because it’s too cold for me, and if I dress for the weather I get roasted alive by the nonsensical public transit thermostats which are set for …

2019-11-25: There’s only $1/shirt in it for me this way (as opposed to $5/shirt directly from my shop), but if you’re short on cash there’s a 50%-off Threadless sale happening and you should get on that.

2019-11-24: I hate having people in my home. I don’t even like having people come to my door. I hate landlord inspections and repairs. I don’t have company over, ever. (I did have to suffer a post-surgery babysitter.) I’m fine with my two cats, thank you very much.

2019-11-24: When you’re a late-diagnosed autistic (in my case, midlife), the retcon of your life can include newly-realized explanations for things that you do. These things don’t have to be major. For me, I discovered that I engage in echolalia, but primarily when I am watching television. …

2019-11-24: The dumb thing is, the only reason Ukraine would have to interfere in the 2016 election (which they didn’t; it was Russia) is to stop Donald Trump from becoming President of the United States and advancing Russian interests in Ukraine. So, even if it were true (it isn’t), it’d be …

2019-11-24: “[G]ig employers claim that since their business models are ‘new’ and ‘innovative,’ traditional labour regulations shouldn’t apply,” writes Jim Stanford (via Paris Marx)—who then proceeds to show that “working on demand”, …

2019-11-24: I don’t want to talk about CJ Chilvers’ thoughts on automation, I want to talk about CJ Chilvers blockquoting of Kurt Vonnegut about why he goes out to buy a single envelope rather than order a box of them to have at home, because it mostly expresses the reasons why I …

2019-11-24: The worst part of Channing Tatum’s live-action The Maxx is that the animated MTV version isn’t available as part of Prime Video. (Oh, hey, someone put it on Vimeo.) It’s been so long, though, I don’t recall if The Maxx is problematic.

2019-11-24: “I can only hope, reader, that you have that somewhere in your life,” writes Ioana Finichiu. “Being able to share that emotional burden with others, not putting on a brave façade only to crumble alone.” My where is the internet. Your mileage may vary.

2019-11-24: There’s a followup today to an earlier Aspergian post which argued pretty persuasively that Applied Behavior Analysis is more inhumane than dog training. This time around, Carol Millman (who has “a degree in Psychology, a diploma in animal health technology, and a …

2019-11-24: This week’s television: Sunday: Patriot Act with Hasan Minhaj, Mr. Robot; Monday: 911, Black Lightning; Tuesday: The Flash, Arrow (which I’d dropped awhile ago but picked up this season because of “Crisis on Infinite Earths”); Thursday: It’s time for my annual Pangsgiving …

2019-11-23: People of color need their own spaces. Black people need their own spaces. We need places in which we can gather and be free from the mainstream stereotypes and marginalization that permeate every other societal space we occupy. We need spaces where we can be our authentic selves …

2019-11-23: Laura Andrews asked if anyone else has had difficulties with relationships specifically related to being autistic, and while I haven’t spent much time on this (because I’ve been perfectly content to be “alone” for two decades now), I’ve thought a …

2019-11-23: Self-portrait proof of the author having ventured out into the cold to read and use his full punchcard for a latte.

2019-11-23: Lately this seems a sort of journal of a woebegone brain, a fact which just spirals back in upon itself and makes things even worse. Maybe some of the past day or so worth of posts balances that out a bit, again, for however long that lasts.

2019-11-23: I’m not sure if photography is an anxiety killer, per se, but there’s little question that shooting with the DSLR is attention-narrowing and stimuli-filtering in ways which suit my autistic brain. When I had a more serious hobby, I’ve no doubt that these aspects …

2019-11-23: Whitney M. Fishburn reports that she has trademarked the phrase “herd immunity to anxiety and depression”, and after I gave it something of a raised eyebrow earlier this month, I still don’t know quite what to make of it. In addition, I have developed several projects …

2019-11-23: Currently reading: The Human Swarm: How Our Societies Arise, Thrive, and Fall by Mark W. Moffett (this one is taking me awhile); and The Rosewater Redemption by Tade Thompson. (The Future of Another Timeline by Annalee Newitz I can only describe as SJWs versus MRAs in the wiki of …

2019-11-22: “What is the weight of popcorn?” Alexa asked Amber Case, and do we really want the artificial intelligence of the Home of the Future running our households through randomly-generated Zen koan?

2019-11-22: I’ve noticed this before but for some reason only now took notice of it. Over on Medium, when viewing responses the default is to show only “in-network” responses, by which I assume they mean only responses posted by users you follow. To see more, you have to …

2019-11-22: And then internet friends and strangers hit up my tip jar and I’m now good to go for being able to visit Byways Cafe next week (before picking up my Thanksgiving order from Elephant’s Deli), my first visit since they announced their depressingly-imminent closure.

2019-11-22: People have been talking about Max Read’s look at the internet turning us into medieval peasants, and at least among people I read everyone from Delia Cal to Drew Austin seemingly has been quoting or referencing the same passage. In my own daily life, I already engage …

2019-11-22: Autistic people we consulted thought that most of the existing items of the WHOQOL questionnaires were important. From the discussions, we found 13 themes that were identified as particularly relevant to QoL, including being positive about one’s autistic identity, other …

2019-11-22: I’d never seen Om Malik’s lament of “content” until he referenced it the other day, and it refreshed my memory of its gap regarding the spacetime between old-school blogging and social media. That is, the era of sites like Slashdot and Digg where upvoting …

2019-11-22: If you missed it: the Internet Society is selling the .org registry to a private equity firm. You can add your name to the letter twenty-seven organizations have sent urging cancelation of the sale.

2019-11-22: Mei Mei, the first of two red pandas to move to Oregon Zoo, flattens out for an afternoon nap in her favorite perch atop the enclosure wall.

2019-11-22: There’s no escape from the hum of the world. Not for me, anyway. Neither the mechanical nor electronic nor even the natural. I can’t even get out of the city. I’ve no idea even what it would sound like only to hear my own, internal, sound were the external …

2019-11-22: I’m very tired of routinely getting the advice from a family member that when seeking medical or psychological services I should initially make things sound worse than they really are so that they pay attention to me. It’s not just the lie of it; it seems unsound.

2019-11-22: Here’s the fucked-up psychological issue with being broke (setting aside that I’m only broke right now because I had to waste $25 on an SD card because I was halfway to the zoo before I realized I didn’t have one and the bus route in question runs infrequently, …

2019-11-22: Are you telling me that the Pittsburgh Children’s Museum couldn’t think of a way to display Mr. Rogers’ puppets in a manner other than looking like the jarred, fetal rejects from some sort of macabre scientific experiment?

2019-11-22: Since my budget for the rest of the month is $7/day and I can’t go anywhere or do anything, I slept until 12:30pm. Since the local Safeway doesn’t sell the only oil that seems to not ruin my ceramic pans in anything but giant $14 jugs, I’ll be having a bowl of …

2019-11-21: There are things sitting in my feed-reader and my newsletters app that my brain would and could blog about if it weren’t so flat and broken lately, and it’s making me sad and angry that I’ll never get to any of it, because other things will just pile up on top …

2019-11-21: One exciting thing about being a midlife-diagnosed actually-autistic person with, at the very least, social anxiety and obsessive-compulsive disorder who only rarely ever has been even close to self-sufficient is how regularly you hollow out your family’s finances.

2019-11-21: I’m still not sure what the previous shaking was, but my current shaking is due to having to subject myself to a telephone call to figure out a prescription insurance issue. The call itself went perfectly fine, and the pharmacy technician knew exactly what was happening and …

2019-11-21: Mei Mei, now one of two red pandas at Oregon Zoo, comes down from her usual perch on the wall to get a mid-afternoon drink. Moshu, who recently joined Mei Mei at Oregon Zoo’s red panda exhibit, comes down from his brief trip to the perch on the wall an hour later.

2019-11-21: That feel when you can’t tell if your body repeatedly is shaking because you are cold or because the world around you is conspiring to tell you, “Fuck your life.”

2019-11-21: There’s a new study in Journal of Autism and Developmental Disorders of anxiety in autistic adults that indicates anxiety diagnoses in 20.1% of us as compared to just 8.7% of neurotypicals. The authors suggest possible explanations for this discrepancy drawn from both the social …

2019-11-21: It’s never not funny to me that the Oregon science teacher who a little over a decade ago tried to teach creationism (I wrote a lot about it on my FURIOUS nads! blog at the time) went on to become a physician assistant.

2019-11-20: For the second day in a row, I spent more than my daily budget. Yesterday because I’d not put an SD card in my camera, and today on breakfast out because of the stress of having spent that money. Now we see how I do with eight dollars a day until December.

2019-11-20: Moshu recently joined Mei Mei at Oregon Zoo’s red panda exhibit. They previously were together at Nashville Zoo, where they parented two cubs.

2019-11-20: Late last month I was thinking about Dunbar’s number because I’m reading The Human Swarm by Mark W. Moffett, and since I think a lot about social media I decided that someone should start a new social site where you can only follow 150 people. (Ideally it would …

2019-11-20: Some recent blog posts on blogging that have been showing up in my feed reader: Om Malik on “how to blog to today”, which I’m not even sure what he and Dave Winer are getting at, exactly; Dino Bansigan on “figuring out” the self-versus-public …

2019-11-20: Yesterday’s three-hour stakeout of the red panda exhibit at the Oregon Zoo hoping to catch a glimpse of Mei Mei’s old babydaddy Moshu, who arrived last Thursday, yielded 442 photos, in case you’re wondering what I’ll be working on this afternoon..

2019-11-20: The Atlantic wonders why Cory Booker hasn’t taken off and The New York Times wonders what happened to Kamala Harris and Gen wonders why Julián Castro is losing. Maybe things would be different had one of them been portrayed by Julia Roberts?

2019-11-19: “Online community predates the web,” says Andy McIlwain. “It was built on open protocols and platforms of the early internet.” Except it existed outside the open protocols and platforms of the early internet, too, be they dial-up BBSes or PLATO.

2019-11-19: After a pendulum day, I’m left wondering whether or not the physical and psychic exhaustion will abate soon enough to allow for making any sort of even somewhat-appropriate dinner. More appropriate, anyway, than the remains of a latte and potato sticks.

2019-11-19: Self-portrait of the fucking tired author after a day that might have yielded good photography but risked an autistic shutdown.

2019-11-19: Just briefly, I feel compelled to point out that the “small pieces loosely joined” which Chris Aldrich mentions, and which CJ Eller notes, was a David Weinberger thing for which I once ran a “gang blog”.

2019-11-19: This morning I got myself up, made breakfast, got myself out the door, grabbed Clif bars at the store and a latte at the coffee shop, and caught the bus to the zoo hoping then to catch their latest red panda addition. On the way, I realized that while I’d remembered to …

2019-11-19: Have you ever realized that your precious “meh.” t-shirt is in disrepair and you’ve no way to express your quiet disgruntlement? No worries. Now there’s at least twelve ways to express your quiet disgruntlement.

2019-11-18: There I am popping up in this week’s Micro.blog newsletter discussing possible approaches to live-blogging. My pitch essentially covers both live-blogging and just easily posting single updates to existing posts.

2019-11-18: If paper chain letters had truly worked, how long would it have taken for the earth to be consumed by the postal equivalent of gray goo?

2019-11-18: If the universe is “still just a start-up” as Doc Searls says, and “the forms of life we know on Earth are just early prototypes of what’s to come”, I have questions. For instance, “How long until the bubble bursts?” Or maybe, “Is the rise of AI a disruptive …

2019-11-18: Dino Bansigan is concerned about writing “more for myself and less to an audience” but I find myself wondering why those must be seen as mutually exclusive. Is it not possible to write for oneself yet to an audience?

2019-11-18: “I am not advocating that we should return to an Internet 1.0 or pre-internet world. I do not wish that the internet’s capabilities had stalled,” writes J. E. LaCaze. “I just want to recapture the sense of community that I fell in love with 20+ years …

2019-11-18: It’s not unusual, I suppose, for people in midlife to chart a new course for themselves. But what do you do when your midlife included an autism diagnosis which retconned your life? How do you build a new future when the foundations of your past were a lie?

2019-11-18: Note: With several so-called “gimmick” episodes so far this season on Mr. Robot, including the silent episode two weeks ago and stage-play episode last night (they aren’t really gimmicks, per se, as you’ll see below), I thought I’d repost here something I’d originally written on …

2019-11-18: Once upon a time, I disassembled a study by Lisa Sherman in which she claimed to find evidence for autism “recovery”. It did so primarily by deciding a priori not just that recovery from autism was possible at all but that any potential explanations for signals of such recovery …

2019-11-18: It’s interesting that Colin Walker has removed his blogroll “so that the words [take] centre stage”, as I only just recently removed my Links page (technically a blogroll and a…newsletter-roll?), too. Mostly, I think, because inevitably it would have become one …

2019-11-18: DNS nerds: how could a bar’s internet be resolving some domains but not others, even if they resolve via nslookup? I can access, say, Apple, Facebook, Google, Micro.blog, YouTube, but known IPs yield a Safari message that I’m not even connected to the internet.

2019-11-18: Hollywood producer Harvey Frand died on Thursday, July 23, 2009 in Los Angeles. He was said to be “the man behind the curtain” for the Battlestar Galactica revival, which had ended just four months earlier. The following night at House of Blues San Diego, what was meant “merely” …

2019-11-18: “[E]ngineer and oceanographer Derya Akkaynak,” reports Scientific American, has developed an algorithm which “removes the visual distortion caused by water from an image”, allowing us to “see true colors underneath the surface”. And it’s …

2019-11-17: I’ve only ever found one news app for my phone that was worth a damn, and we’re coming up on the third anniversary of it being murdered in its virtual crib. What made the Breaking app different was its curation by a staff who weren’t restricted to reporting by its parent company …

2019-11-17: For the life of me, I can’t think of a single thing I’ve ever called “superb”. I’m not sure if I’ve ever even used any of its true synonyms. Do people really use this word in their actual lives about actual things? What could possibly be worthy of it.

2019-11-17: Last year, when I must have been going a rewatch, I argued that of all the characters on The Good Place Jason Mendoza had the highest degree of emotional intelligence. Even when he was alive, he was the only one of Team Cockroach truly to have earnest and authentic friendships. …

2019-11-17: This week’s television: Sunday: Patriot Act with Hasan Minhaj, Batwoman, Supergirl, Mr. Robot; Monday: Black Lightning; Tuesday: The Flash; Wednesday: The Masked Singer, Nancy Drew; Full Frontal with Samantha Bee; Thursday: The Good Place, Evil. I’m also slowly making my …

2019-11-17: Adam Serwer offers a history lesson on the dangers of “prizing reconciliation over justice, order over equality, civility over truth”—a stark, specific context for why I noted yesterday that “civility cannot be divorced from power dynamics”.

2019-11-17: Eerily like a Nextdoor thread come to life, today a flyer got taped to my front door agitating against a planned local homeless shelter under the city’s auspices. Browsing the actual inevitable Nextdoor thread about the flyer, I’ve now learned that there’s also …

2019-11-16: I’m pretty selective about the places I go; call it rigidity or call it routine. I’ve two walkable places I regularly go for meals out, plus my favorite place which is further afield and thus takes effort. It’s closing at the end of the year, and it’s irreplaceable.

2019-11-16: I’m not sure if it’s real or perception but I feel like at some point The Good Place: The Podcast somewhat devolved into endless recapping of seemingly every single line of dialogue, interspersed with a few lines of commentary. Has it been like this from the beginning and it’s …

2019-11-16: While I’m waiting for the “reboot” of NetNewsWire to be available for both macOS and iOS, what should I use for RSS that isn’t Feedly, whose user experience I’ve never especially enjoyed. Disclaimer: I don’t have money to spend on an RSS …

2019-11-16: For the life of me I do not recall how this Thomas Chatterton Williams tweet found its way into my feed, but it led me to Teresa M. Bejan, which led me to wonder whether or not I wanted to read her book, Mere Civility. It was tough locating a sense of what her stance on civility …

2019-11-16: When the operative question for political candidates apparently isn’t, “Have you ever given money to a stripper?” but instead, “Will you be taking contributions from strippers?”, you know you live in Portland, where it’s long been asserted that …

2019-11-16: As near as I can tell, my last bit of import housekeeping is done, but I’m afraid to pull the trigger on the actual import in case I’ve actually forgotten or missed something. I’m not sure how to convince myself, at some point, that it’s really ready to …

2019-11-16: While I get the idea behind collecting your testimonials, I’m pretty sure that would only increase my anxiety. There’d be nothing like having an assembled reminder of how I don’t actually live up to the potential people falsely think I have.

2019-11-16: Fellow users of Micro.blog, help me. I make efforts on Twitter to find and follow people who are not, like me, white men. Scrolling follow lists on M.b is like swimming against a tide of other white men. Who are your best M.b follows to recommend who aren’t?

2019-11-16: ‪I need a completely soundproofed apartment, which I assume is not a thing. I can’t speak to correlation versus causation but my increased agitation seems to correspond to the increase in construction in the immediate vicinity over the last six months.‬

2019-11-15: It’s a long way off in the scheme of things, if only because I still don’t know what the Disability Determination Services consultive exam indicated to result in my being deemed not disabled for Social Security purposes (all the proper channels for requesting my own …

2019-11-15: “The first generation of developmentally disabled adults who grew up at home, not in an institution,” writes Dan Goldberg, “are now middle-aged and facing a health care system that’s largely unprepared to take care of them as their baby boomer parents age out of …

2019-11-15: Mei Mei, the Oregon Zoo’s red panda, climbs up for a snack during a midday wander of her enclosure. / Mei Mei, the Oregon Zoo’s red panda, bounds down from a rock during a midday wander of her enclosure.

2019-11-15: Need a lift? Here’s something you don’t see every day. The owner of a new chocolate shop has his storefront targeted by an art-activist pointing out colonialist implications of its branding. His response? “It’s not the community’s job to understand what my …

2019-11-15: Coming out of a fatigue-induced crash (how long was I out today, maybe an hour and a half?) leaves my brain a murky mix of confusion and dead thoughtweight. Staring at the television is about all the focus I can muster for the first little while.

2019-11-15: My last bit of blog migration housekeeping is that I’ve still not brought over my WordPress posts. It’s taking a lot of cleanup, much related to URLs but some to a bit of HTML sloppiness I won’t even try to explain. I’m hoping this will be completed this …

2019-11-15: Dino Bansigan is still adjusting to life without blog metrics as the experiment to hide or ignore them continues. Psychologically, I still struggle, here, not knowing readership numbers, but I won’t be restoring my analytics code.

2019-11-15: So, you think you know, when you first read that someone replaced James Daniel Jordan’s voice with Jeffrey Dexter “Jeff” Boomhauer III’s, that you know how it will feel to watch, but then you do watch and it turns out it’s actually exponentially …

2019-11-15: Portrait of a chimpanzee at the Oregon Zoo taking a Thursday afternoon nap in the sun atop a (favorite?) blanket.

2019-11-15: Colin Walker describes his anxiety as “a feeling I can only liken to claustrophobia”, a term I use frequently in just this manner. One thing to know about anxiety is that it doesn’t always require “busy, crowded environments”; I can be at an empty …

2019-11-15: Jennifer A. Kingson somehow filed a report on therapy llamas for The New York Times that never once mentions Rojo, arguably the most well-known such llama (he’s the first Google result for therapy llama) who literally was just in the news for dying at 17 after an entire decade of …

2019-11-15: ‪Is there a betting pool for when Trump will pardon newly-convicted felon Roger Stone, whether he will do it by tweet, and if that would count given that the judge banned Stone from ‬social media and he won’t see it?

2019-11-15: ‪Meru the cat did not come to bed at all last night, choosing instead to sleep on the love seat in the living room, but now she expects me to spring into action to feed her right at eight o’clock in the morning when my alarm goes off?

2019-11-15: ‪Not for nothing, but if we claim Elon Musk as actually-autistic, then we have to abandon the ridiculous mythology that autistic people somehow magically have a higher moral sense of right and wrong.‬

2019-11-15: I need to stop doing CSS edits on Micro.blog at night. It published my changes, then the published file reverted to the previous version; at some point it will catch up again. I don’t know how data moves around M.b, but it’s like something is out of sync.

2019-11-15: I’ve been living in St. Johns, Oregon, since November 2018, where I recently spent the skidmark of my fiftieth birthmonth, and where I’ve adopted the local preference for continuing to refer to its as its own town rather than the Portland neighborhood it became. …

2019-11-15: Because I’m not already drowning in unwatched episodes of shows I’ve been watching all along and of shows I haven’t started yet and of my current rewatch, the final season of The Man in the High Castle just dropped on Prime Video.

2019-11-14: I’m pretty committed to Evil at this point. The third episode made me question my interest through the first two, but the fourth is sort of the Rorschach test: if that one gets you, you’re probably in. Its depiction of demonic visitations is original and engaging and weird, and …

2019-11-14: A ringtail at the Oregon Zoo sleeps cat-like inside the Cascade Stream and Pond exhibit. Ringtails are related to raccoons, not cats.

2019-11-14: You totally should read this history of The Unbeatable Squirrel Girl as told by Ryan North and Erica Henderson if only for the statement that “anything can eat its own tail if it believes in itself” even though I’ve already spoiled that for you.

2019-11-14: Tossed after my autism diagnosis? Crew neck shirts. Learning you’ve a condition with sensory issues means suddenly you’re much more aware of what bothers you, as if a psychic lake has become undammed. V-necks, it turns out, aren’t just for bro-swagger.

2019-11-14: I used to listen to music. Technically I still do, but not like I used to. These days mostly it’s to get through public transit commutes when fatigue hits or overwhelm looms or shutdown threatens. Sometimes I remember an artist I listened to in the past but haven’t …

2019-11-14: Despite the effectively-constant enervation, I am attempting my weekly trip to the Oregon Zoo. I’m not even there yet, still transiting, and I’m already starting to fade inside and out. Maybe the worst thing about burnout is the frequent risk that even the things you do for …

2019-11-14: “A diagnosis is a personal thing and there’s no one way to react to anything in this world, but for me, it changed everything,” says Rhi. “It confirmed that I am not faulty, it confirmed that I am just fine the way I am.” I’m glad someone out there …

2019-11-13: I don’t remember what Motorola flip phone I had; it wasn’t the Razr, although I’m sure I’d wanted one. If they bump up the specs and bring down the price, the new Razr looks to be the only phone I can think of that could even hope to tempt me away from Apple.

2019-11-13: I’m seeing people rag on this… and then proceed literally to make the exact same points the piece does. This is why I shunted this “community” onto a Twitter list and unfollowed almost everyone. Never change, autism Twitter.

2019-11-13: The rough thing about burnout is that while you can engage with and enjoy things, if you do the pendulum swing after is much more severe-feeling than usual. After the endorphins rush of the great, great reveal on tonight’s episode of The Masked Singer, I had a pretty dramatic …

2019-11-13: If the drain of my autistic burnout and the daily crash of fatigue had an outward expression of their opposite in energy, I guess it probably would look like Nandi Bushell drumming to “In Bloom” in a state of, for lack of a better term, Nirvana nirvana.

2019-11-13: Current status: consuming a quick-food bowl of chicken and rice despite the fact that ever since breakfast this morning I’ve felt all day like even just the mere thought of food was too much to bear. You know the burnout is heavy when eating seems too difficult.

2019-11-13: Has anyone ever made a “now” page that’s actually just displaying the most recent post to a “now” category on one’s blog, which also therefore creates an archive of one’s “now” across time?

2019-11-13: “The streets of Yvallig were beautiful once,” writes author and city planner Arkady Martine. Martine’s “microfictional city” prompt requires a color, an adjective, and a type of weather. Mine, respectively: #fcdae9, congested, and impaired.

2019-11-13: You’ll notice some changes on the blog for awhile. I can’t say for how long, exactly. Currently I cannot brain sufficiently to do any “highlights” posts, or, really, blogging about much beyond my apparent state of autistic burnout. I’ll keep up the …

2019-11-13: It’s a strange sensation, if that’s the word, being able to feel that your brain is not functioning properly. Even a minor grocery errand after breakfast cognitively exhausted, to the point where I questioned my capacity to multitask enough even to cross a street.

2019-11-13: In fact, I found that paper I wanted; the PDF was available via ResearchGate. Its authors flat-out state, “It may be assumed that individuals with ASD experience unique sources of stress that are potentially traumatic, compared to the general population.” They suggest …

2019-11-13: ‪Love when I am so congested that I keep having to take enormous gulping breaths through my mouth.‬ Apparently I need to call the Kaiser pharmacy department to find out why my prescription needs a payment option entered, when my insurance says it shouldn’t.

2019-11-13: For awhile now I’ve been fascinated by research suggesting “sustained connectivity” in autistic brains, and that sustained connectivity being correlated with “symptom severity” (although, strangely, only in “social impairment” and not in “cognitive function”). What I’m wondering …

2019-11-13: ‪TikTok things getting posted to Twitter is the first internet thing that truly underscores to my very soul that I am old now, and that I have nothing whatsoever to do with how the world works anymore, if I ever did.

2019-11-12: I’ve started building that how-to site for my medical, mental health, and social services practitioners (note this URL is merely a testbed), providing a short list of journal articles relevant to how I would like them to view my being actually-autistic.

2019-11-12: Two chimpanzees at the Oregon Zoo settle in for a public grooming session in one of two outdoor viewing windows.

2019-11-12: There’s still no update from Adobe on exactly how Lightroom CC managed to completely eliminate two photos I was working on without leaving any trace at all of the files either in the app or in the filesystem itself, about which I’ve just depressingly reminded myself.

2019-11-12: Rudy Giuliani’s threatened impeachment podcast instead should be a live Twitch stream, MST3K-style, with additional riffing provided by (Jacob) Wohl T. Robot and Alan Dersho(witz). The interstitial sketches alone would be… something.

2019-11-12: Lately, I’ve come to realize, it’s been feeling a lot like the major autistic burnout I experienced post-diagnosis. Not enough in the tank for much; I don’t want to move, I can’t really brain. Today is a day just to stay away from anything and everything.

2019-11-12: When you are almost out of coffee and need to find the wherewithal to make more coffee or just give up and go back to bed since you are still in pajamas and bathrobe anyway and have only even been out of bed for ninety minutes.

2019-11-12: The best thing about “You Can’t Go Home Again”, other than Starbuck figuring out how to fly the Cylon raider being the most bad-ass thing in the entire series (possibly excepting the atmospheric rescue jump in “Exodus”), is that as Apollo escorts her back to the ship, both ships …

2019-11-12: Does it make more sense to talk about an autistic person’s individual spectrum than to talk about someone being “on the spectrum”? Is “on the spectrum” a term that actually just confounds the issue? (Certainly it tends to lead to neurotypicals pulling out the nonsense, “Well, …

2019-11-11: It’s frustrating being unable to describe the inner experience of autism or its psychological comorbitities. I could describe what it feels like to stub a toe or get stuck in the mud but how do I describe being unable to touch a decision or budge a thought?

2019-11-11: On top of it all, I hyperfocused so hard on trying and failing to put that one-pager together that I blew right past needing to eat something and got shaky. Nothing about this is a superpower, and the overwhelm is slamming down so hard right now that I feel not just psychically …

2019-11-11: Feeling buried and no sooner do I post about being busy with a thing than that very thing becomes overwhelming and my brain starts to feel like one giant executive function traffic jam and I have to stop working on it and I take a moment to look at my RSS reader and my newsletter …

2019-11-11: For whatever mental reason, I have wanted to avoid “link dump” posts here, but I might have to do one later, as I am too distracted right now by trying to assemble a one-pager website of journal articles relevant to late-diagnosed adult autism t omake available as a …

2019-11-10: ‪When you keep chasing that single piece of cat poop that keeps rolling away from the scooper over and over and over again until you realize through your lack of eyeglasses that it isn’t rolling it’s running and it’s a spider‬.

2019-11-10: Came across Future Histories: What Ada Lovelace, Tom Paine, and the Paris Commune Can Teach Us About Digital Technology by Lizzie O’Shea in Paris Marx’s Radical Urbanist newsletter and it’s an instant-add to my Kindle wishlist.

2019-11-10: Carter Moore says he wants to forget culture but what he’s describing isn’t culture, it’s rampant, unchecked-by-self consumerism. An inability to refrain from buying another pair of sneakers because “people whose respect you crave [look] down at your feet …

2019-11-10: Happy anniversary to me, apparently. According to email from the Universal Life Church, I was ordained-via-internet eight years ago today. Thing is, I’m fairly certain that was my second, later ULC ordination, but the first is lost to the ether.

2019-11-10: Doc Searls is souring on the web. Having once viewed blogging as “sending email that’s ‘cc:world’“, he now views the web as a “whiteboard”. What’s interesting to me is that any lost traces of my own past selves were lost solely …

2019-11-10: When your brain is broken, space and time warp around you. At my usual breakfast place there are only two tables where I won’t be anxious; all others are too claustrophobic, or too “on display”. My event horizon stretches moments into an endless wait.

2019-11-09: Everything is a struggle, and so this time the weekly Saturday night blank stare at possible television shows or movies yields the beginning of a full Battlestar Galactica rewatch, because why not just watch other people struggle worse I guess.

2019-11-09: Things that are working out right now: my new sneakers, my new lightweight puffer vest. That’s… all I’ve got. Everything else is just sort of… happening, by habit, without any particular… presence on my part. Just how much of me fell into the sinkhole of my fiftieth …

2019-11-09: To the immediate left of the his usual seat for bar breakfast, the author is greeted by a penny standing upon its edge.

2019-11-09: Any day whose morning begins with lamenting that days must be so long threatens to be a cold one, whether or not it’s physically so. Will a cheap bar breakfast help, despite the walk in the rain? Or will it be another day muffled by that interior chill.

2019-11-08: Once upon a time I not only got to see other cities, I got to see other countries. Now I don’t get to see anything but Portland.

2019-11-08: My eyes haven’t seen anything but the Portland area for more than six years. No, I don’t count Estacada or Corvallis. The last time I was anywhere else was Seattle in 2013 (San Diego in 2012, Los Angeles and Orlando in 2011); that and every trip before it, like the …

2019-11-08: We know this is true: Women who exhibit anger in the workplace are seen as less professional and less competent. They are accorded lower status and lower pay. For men, it’s the opposite: Angry men are accorded higher status than sad men. And when it comes to anger, observers are …

2019-11-08: There are probably some really good arguments against being irritated by adopting and adapting autistic tricks to address so-called “digital overload”, but I’m irritated anyway. I’m irritated, too, at not being able to articulate either those arguments or …

2019-11-08: The rapid-response political jujutsu of the Elizabeth Warren campaign in which they cheer editorials warning that she’s coming for billionaires or, like today, embrace being called “angry” by powerful men (read: Biden) is sort of remarkable.

2019-11-08: I’m still depressed over having lost all traces of the only photos worth anything from yesterday’s zoo trip, and I wasted my Sunday breakfast-out money by going today, but if I messaged my doctors to coordinate several follow-up tests, do I get a (worthless) gold …

2019-11-08: This Halloween was a bit of a wake-up call for me. It reminded me that great communities don’t just happen, but that they are created and designed. If the physical design of our neighbourhood actively acts against the creation of community, we all need to work extra hard to …

2019-11-08: Parents of autistic children show signs of PTSD (via Jill Adams)? Funny, but actually-autistic people can, too. Maybe it’s simply that as a society we’ve gotten completely wrong how we deal with autistic people, across the board?

2019-11-08: Liberals and Never Trump conservatives regularly castigate congressional Republicans for their cowardice. And certainly, some percentage of GOP politicians are abetting Trump’s malfeasance for craven, careerist reasons. But it’s the ones who are doing so out of moral conviction …

2019-11-08: The Iconfactory is proposing some anti-bullying emoji (via Odd-Egil Auran), and personally I’m kind of fond of that yellow-card one.

2019-11-07: Here lies what should have been the first good photo of an Oregon Zoo bat I’ve gotten in twenty years, but Lightroom disappeared the file from both local storage and cloud.

2019-11-07: The Columbian’s obituary of Rojo the Llama, who passed this week, was on today’s front page above-the-fold. Elsewhere, my contribution to his remembrance, with apologies to Li’l Sebastian, was rewriting “5,000 Candles in the Wind”.

2019-11-07: All these blogs having twentieth anniversaries lately is making me a bit depressed. There’s no question that for many people, myself included, social media interrupted blogging, and I’m coming to hate this about myself. I wish I could re-assemble what blogging I did …

2019-11-07: But maybe something worth thinking about is what if there isn’t really any significant movement from the rough confines of the 1:9:90 model? Or what if there are inadvertent attempts to mine and squeeze that 1% more and more and more until the majority of us are in the …

2019-11-07: The impact of my unexplained fatigue can be inconvenient or it can be frightening. During a long commute, I’ve suddenly jerked awake mere moments before cracking my head on a hand-hold or the seat before me; but even just how deep can be the crash into sleep can unnerve.

2019-11-07: Midday greetings from an Allen’s Swamp Monkey at the Oregon Zoo along the Great Northwest trail.

2019-11-07: With that in mind, I plan to move my Game Log posts, from my gaming journal into this one. Playing video games is a big part of who I am. In fact, I even wrote down “gamer” as part of this site’s description. And yet I rarely get to talk about video games on this online …

2019-11-07: I’m never sure if people just skip the highlights posts, so instead: read the CityLab interview with Dread Scott about tomorrow’s slave rebellion reenactment “embodying the spirit of freedom and emancipation in the spaces that have this particular …

2019-11-07: We should know better. Generation Z, which includes my own daughter, is going to face problems boomers refuse to concede are problems at all. Generation X should understand this well. We have been living under the shadow of the boomer generation our entire lives. So much so in …

2019-11-06: Meru, adopted December 27, 2014, enjoys some southern exposure sunshine on a chilly autumn day. / Willow, adopted December 18, 2017, also enjoys some southern exposure sunshine on a chilly autumn day.

2019-11-06: Currently reading: The Human Swarm: How Our Societies Arise, Thrive, and Fall by Mark W. Moffett; and The Future of Another Timeline by Annalee Newitz. (A Memory Called Empire by Arkady Martine was terrific and you should read it.) Swarm is borrowed from the Multnomah County …

2019-11-06: I am trying to figure out what I think about Benjamin Carroll’s suggestion of “accountability metrics” for social media users wherein one’s reach would be throttled, to different degrees, if you post, retweet, or like a violation of community guidelines.

2019-11-06: We know that any “Green New Deal” proposing economic and environmental reforms must address housing. If we have any hope of lowering our emissions, we’ll need reforms like these. The lowest-energy, lowest-cost housing—“four floors and corner stores,” as the …

2019-11-06: To this day, even though I was only living here for the final three years of it, I still miss the Blitz-Weinhard brewery (which closed twenty years ago) “scenting the city” with an “aroma [which] carried halfway to Portland State university”.

2019-11-06: Yorick Phoenix misses phone calls: “People you wanted to talk to used to call you up and you would talk about what was going on in your life and catch up.” My late father was my last regular phone correspondent, and I’d like to keep it that way.

2019-11-06: Outlets like the New York Times, Washington Post, New Yorker, Bloomberg, and the Atlantic were apparently oblivious to the fact that they were amplifying claims crafted by Koch-funded groups designed to undermine market competition, the concept of urban transport as a public …

2019-11-06: Uber apparently forgot to tell (via Digg Editions) its autonomous vehicles anything about jaywalking (via Andy Baio). Baio also points out that the crime of jaywalking was invented by automakers as part of a “forgotten 1920s campaign led by auto groups and manufacturers …

2019-11-06: Portrait of the author with Rojo the Llama, the Portland area’s most-loved therapy animal, in May of 2018. Elderly and ailing, Rojo passed peacefully this morning.

2019-11-06: As I slept, I dreamt a major attack of my intermittent dysphasia-like word swaps. In the dream it came with forgetfulness and disorientation. A sense of fear and shame would stick to me throughout the night, in other dreams and even into morning.

2019-11-05: As you’d expect, the volunteer team of rogue archivists known as Archive Team are working hard to preserve as much of Yahoo! Groups as possible before its shutdown. Their initial crawl discovered nearly 1.5 million groups with public message archives that could be saved, with an …

2019-11-05: The problems with Hunters Point Library are even worse, with part of the children’s section deemed unsafe for kids, and the five-story building having only one elevator, making a mockery of its claims to brilliance. Architecture isn’t just art, but function.

2019-11-05: Saying Silicon Valley doesn’t have a political ideology — which in America is a bit like saying Silicon Valley hasn’t nailed its flag to either the blue party or the red party — is so demonstrably false. Thompson acknowledges that the Valley has a “strain of libertarianism and …

2019-11-05: A meandering: Dino Bansigan linked a post by Alex Danco about how “everything is amazing, but nothing is ours”, in the process citing Scott Hanselman’s advice to “own your own words”, which made me think of YOYOW and The WELL.

2019-11-05: Dan Cohen’s latest edition of Humane Ingenuity, on ebooks, includes a twenty-year-old quote from Sven Birkerts asserting that “the turning of real pages […] helps to create immersion in a way that thumb clicks never can”, and I just can’t even with such …

2019-11-05: John Stoehr reminds you that “Donald Trump can absolutely win reelection”. Lest you think it can’t happen, pair with Brent Simmons’ nightmare scenario from December 2015, and my failed meme from months earlier—when you also were thinking it …

2019-11-05: “Having a billion dollars,” posits Tom Whyman, “makes one far less connected to the ordinary flow of human wants and pains and needs than any transhumanist modification ever could.” Whyman deconstructs the surge of Billionaire Discourse that’s …

2019-11-05: Clothing is self-care when you’re autistic; things that fit or feel wrong can be tortuous. My need for new sneakers is settled, and, further, I was spared the trying bus trip to return the rejects by remembering the locally-owned shipping place just down the street.

2019-11-05: While the onslaught of media coverage during presidential elections can make many Americans think voting only happens every four years on that Tuesday in November, each year, a bundle of federal, state and local elections happen concurrently, usually on a federally-sanctioned …

2019-11-05: I’m not sure how I ran into Whitney M. Fishburn’s newsletter (no, wait, it was here), nor am I quite sure what “herd immunity to anxiety and depression” is supposed to mean, exactly, but today’s edition at least has some… conversation starters?

2019-11-05: “Nothing is at risk,” writes Martin Scorsese of the MCU, seven months after it left Tony dead, Gamora from another timeline, Steve old, Scott having missed five years of his daughter’s life, not to mention Asgard having earlier been destroyed.

2019-11-05: ‪Free story idea I dreamt: some past era, a new emperor is crowned and is sure there is something beneath the royal dais. As he works to move it he hears muffled yells for help. He breaks through to a narrow pit. At the bottom: a 21st century girl, who greets him by name.‬

2019-11-04: The scale and scope of the MCU’s story feels unprecedented. Yet its main innovation is not narrative - it’s that it’s told via film, rather than voice, or text, and that it’s readily understood as fiction, not history. But if the rise of cinematic universes reflects our …

2019-11-04: For whom do you blog, and how? Derek Sivers has decided only to blog when he thinks it’s worth a reader’s time, in part because “[c]oming up with a daily post was becoming a full-time job”. Dino Bansigan, meanwhile, is unlisting his blog from the public …

2019-11-04: “Hey, hey, hey,” a fictional man once intoned. “Hey now. Don’t be mean. We don’t have to be mean, ‘cause, remember: no matter where you go… there you are.” But what if you don’t really know who you are, or even were? Who exactly is there if there’s no clear you?

2019-11-04: Last week’s promo for last night’s Mr. Robot called it an episode like no other, and while that’s true the idea that Derek Lawrence could claim it was “something that only Mr. Robot could pull off” when Buffy did it twenty years ago next month is …

2019-11-04: I don’t have a dog in this hunt, but Dave Winer’s (understandable) emotional attachment to RSS is leading to ridiculous blanket statements like, “[O]ne way to do something is better than two no matter how much better the second way is.” Imagine the world.

2019-11-04: “Are there any circumstances in which autism could be considered, not merely an acceptable difference, but a superpower?” asks Joanne Limburg in The Guardian. (Limburg received a diagnosis in midlife, as I did.). No, there are not. There are trade-offs for every …

2019-11-04: I am trying figure out from this review by Christopher Cheung (via Parix Marx, again) what might be in Leslie Kern’s Feminist City: A Field Guide that wasn’t also in Caroline Criado Perez’s Invisible Women: Data Bias in a World Designed for Men (which I …

2019-11-04: All through Manu Saadia’s look at Blade Runner as (mostly) the end of utopian visions in science-fiction (via Paris Marx), I kept thinking of The Martian, which while not utopian certainly is hopeful, albeit in an ad hoc rather than systemic way. Although, then again, …

2019-11-04: Larry Millett, writing for the Star Tribune (via Cityscape), looks back at affordable housing in the city in the form of residential hotels. Pair with a couple of previous looks at co-living past and future.

2019-11-03: A lazing chimpanzee at the Oregon Zoo stretches its limbs toward the sun on an early autumn afternoon.

2019-11-03: I’ve started building a list of blogs and newsletters, although currently it’s just a subset of my full list of subscriptions. I’ll add more as I decide what I’m going to continue to follow longterm. The inclusion of newsletters is why it’s not a …

2019-11-03: Regime cleavages, by contrast, focus the electorate’s attention on the political system as a whole. Instead of seeking office to change the laws to obtain preferred policies, politicians who oppose the democratic order ignore the laws when necessary to achieve their political …

2019-11-03: While casually dismissing the idea that there were pre-web blogs “in the form of people’s home directories”, I did wonder about possible proto-blogging in those days. Hans Gerwitz suggested use of the .plan files accessible via the finger protocol “as a sort of …

2019-11-03: I’m finally getting to season four of Veronica Mars, and I wasn’t really paying attention when it released so I don’t know whether or not I’m “supposed” to enjoy it, but I am, and really just the first scene between the Marses made my life a …

2019-11-03: So, the fact that Bill Gates is seeking recommendations of television shows to watch is how I get Terriers, Rubicon, Sweet/Vicious, Underground, The OA, and Cloak & Dagger back, right?

2019-11-03: While we’re busy building libraries with obvious accessibility fails, Helsinki built one across from parliament (via Paris Marx, again) that in addition to 100,000 books offers “a space for meetings, free events, and informal gatherings, with a cafe, theater”, …

2019-11-03: “By emphasizing the technical innovations (and obsessive dedication to them) as more important than the political and economic contexts in which they were germinated,” writes Ingrid Burrington for The New Republic, “the graybeards of internet history and PR …

2019-11-03: “I guess a blog is a remembrance engine,” noted John Johnston. I mentioned this yesterday, suggesting that it’s like “the commonplace book, except that through the magic of the hyperlink” these remembrances “become intertwined”. Enter a …

2019-11-03: Should I move my “now page” from my .fyi to my .blog? (A “now page”, as described by Derek Sivers, is “a page that tells you what this person is focused on at this point in their life”.) I can see arguments for each option, and so am experiencing paralysis.

2019-11-03: So, yeah. The second season of Runaways is the opposite of a sophomore slump. Its first made me wary if not weary of trying its second, but its second made me impatient for next month’s third. Next on my annual Hulu binge: season four of Veronica Mars.

2019-11-03: There’s nothing fancy about my wardrobe. Post-diagnosis, I reduced its complexity, and its complicity. Seven pairs of the same pants, one kind of underwear, two of the same flannel shirt, three of the same hoodie. All to reduce the strain of what to others is innocuous choice.

2019-11-02: There are a lot of important observations in this Om Malik post about the “gig economy” on how freelancers get screwed and delineating the times and situations in which we should reserve our ire for the companies and not the workers who represent those companies in …

2019-11-02: I’ve re-sorted my Kindle books wishlist as I do at the start of every new month. Books dropping over the course of November now are listed as available or upcoming. See how easy I make it for you to buy me a book?

2019-11-02: Uni Sushi, the newest and youngest of the rescued sea otters at the Oregon Zoo, enjoys an afternoon snack near the upper viewing platform.

2019-11-02: I forgot that The Martian was airing on TV again last night. I’ve mentioned before that “I am implicitly compelled to watch whenever I run across it”. Thing is, before I’d rented the extended edition last month, I’d checked for upcoming airings, and …

2019-11-02: Jeff Zeleny, the Senior Washington Correspondent of CNN, thinks a speech given by Pete Buttigieg yesterday “may be remembered for a good while”, giving as exemplary evidence one particular line. The purpose of the presidency is not the glorification of the president, …

2019-11-02: The lion pride at the Oregon Zoo lazily relaxes in the sun after all the excitement of a morning carcass feeding.

2019-11-02: It could be argued that I’ve made my mark. Several, even. Early internet activism; a beloved cybercafe; old-school blogging; independent civic journalism; charity work grown out of fandom; starting a nonprofit. Marks upon the world, sure, but no lasting ones upon my own …

2019-11-02: “I think there were ‘blogs’ before the world wide web,” writes Jared Pereira, “in the form of people’s home directories and all, but I might be wrong.” This technically would not be feasible, strictly-speaking, as the blog was dependent …

2019-11-02: I can’t see myself following the “blogging futures” thing all that closely. As I suggested before the free-for-all, prompt-driven format might be a bit too messy and disorganized for my brain. Maybe if such open chains were producing an RSS feed somewhere that …

2019-11-02: Until this CJ Chilvers post I’d no idea there ever was a dispute being “taking” and “making” photographs. My late father had a photography hobby, and a closet darkroom. I’ve no idea what he called it. I take pictures, and edit them.

2019-11-01: With the total skidmark of the fiftieth annual Bix Day and its entire birthmonth now behind me on the calendar, this morning I grabbed a breakfast sandwich from Chop and a latte from St. Johns Coffee Roasters, headed to the Oregon Zoo with the 35mm on the Nikon, and after four …

2019-11-01: The “polarization” framework is profoundly misleading because it suggests that the two parties are like magnets repelling each other with identical force and velocity. But the real story is that while Democrats have moved modestly to the left on some issues, most of …

2019-11-01: Eight months ago, my life was reduced to a single, solitary key. Over the previous several years, I’d had house keys; mailbox keys; fence gate, storage shed, and yard hydrant keys. My one, remaining key still resides on a keychain labeled, “GOAT GATE”.

2019-10-31: Darcie Wilder attended an influencer summit that turned out to be sponsored by Levi Strauss and conducted by the Ad Council. While both the issues of immigration rights and avoiding extinction via climate change are undeniably important, I was still looking for any statements …

2019-10-31: Will Oremus highlights a problem with Twitter’s forthcoming ban on political ads: defining “political”. Oremus points out that issue ads about climate change likely run afoul of the new policy, but an oil company would not. This despite being able to make a …

2019-10-31: Once I learned that Airbnb allowed owners of multiple properties effectively to set up their own little hotel chains, I soured on an otherwise pretty great concept. That mogulizing of Airbnb made abuses like these inevitable and predictable.

2019-10-31: Portrait of the author’s feet trying out a pair of Adidas Americana Hi as he tries to replace his beloved yet poorly-made Champion Inferno sneakers.

2019-10-31: Avocado politics is the parallel phenomenon of the right: Green on the outside, but brown(shirt) on the inside. Just as watermelon politics repackaged the political wish list of the left on the basis of the environmental crisis, so avocado politics reiterates the policy agenda of …

2019-10-31: For, I guess, psychological or cognitive capacity reasons, I don’t really cook anymore. Most of my meals depend on their instantness (e.g. Minute Rice) or their easy availability (e.g. store-bought clamshells of veggies or shredded chicken). Today’s flavor find: rice, …

2019-10-31: The test, which all stems from the concept of how easily kids can find the front door to a house on Halloween and then move on to the next one, has been useful in getting a broader range of people thinking about how suburban house design relates to more livable, walkable streets. …

2019-10-31: In continuing sneaker saga news, the Converse and New Balance pairs both are a no-go. I do like the Adidas but either despite appearances I still have gout inflammation in that toe on my left foot or that foot is naturally larger than my right, because when I try the Adidas over …

2019-10-31: Alan Jacobs is right (via Tom Critchlow) that any revitalized indieweb blogosphere depends not just upon writers of blogs but readers, who “have all been trained by social media to skim the most recent things and then go on to something else”.

2019-10-31: I’m skeptical of this open blogchain with which CJ Eller is playing. I feel like blogchains work better if structured and organized between or among their participants, otherwise it’s not longer a back-and-forth but a kind of free-for-all. Perhaps I’m just …

2019-10-31: I had such a hard time with the first season of Runaways, and then season two (I’m doing a month of Hulu to catch up on some stuff) comes along and delivers something like its fantastic fifth episode. (Although it’s vaguely ridiculous that a carload of super-powered teenagers …

2019-10-31: If you’re a Twitter user, product lead Kayvon Beykpour just shared a tweet by user Marc Köhlbrugge asking what features you’d want if there were a paid Twitter Pro product. Beykpour apparently wants to know.

2019-10-31: Those lamentations by Lambert and Warzel continue to reverberate. Colin Walker is right that my original response to him sort of glossed over the impact upon blogging of social media—I was perhaps overly focused on making sure we knew how ridiculous the Lambert/Warzel …

2019-10-30: “Assassins and stalkers,” Twelve Azalea said. “Just what I needed. If I was a more judicious sort of man, Ambassador, I would not only call the Sunlit but imply that you’d blackmailed me into committing … oh, there’s got to be a crime for stealing from the dead. Is there a crime …

2019-10-30: To characterize the earliest societies we can draw on evidence from hunter-gatherers of recent centuries and the archaeological record. The vast countries that now cause hearts to swell with pride would have been unfathomable to our hunter-gatherer ancestors. We will explore what …

2019-10-30: “Macmillan’s official position,” notes author Tessa Dare of CEO John Sargent’s “windowing” letter, “is that libraries have made reading too easy, too accessible—so Macmillan is forced to erect barriers like this embargo to make it artificially harder.”

2019-10-30: For the lawyers: if the Federal Trade Commission regulates online advertising to ban deception, why aren’t political ads included on the basis of equitably regulating interstate commerce without fear or favor regarding the advertiser’s industry?

2019-10-30: “Those of us who live on metaphorically & literally higher ground in the rising climate crisis,” warns Michael Andersen (a senior researcher at Sightline Institute) in response to new research, “must organize immediately in every way to welcome more people …

2019-10-30: Meru (bottom) and Willow (top) do their best to align themselves toward the sun without having to suffer each other’s proximity.

2019-10-30: Twitter has announced that it will stop taking political advertising beginning next month, with Jack Dorsey aguing that “political message reach should be earned, not bought”. The inevitable lawsuits will be intense—and defining.

2019-10-30: Conundrum: a package is due to be delivered by FedEx on Halloween, in which I do not participate because it would destroy my nerves to have people coming to my door all evening. How do I accept my delivery without accepting trick-or-treaters?

2019-10-30: “If you have more than you spend, you’re rich,” says Derek Sivers. “If you spend more than you have, you’re not. If you live cheaply, it’s easy to be free.” I feel like this is not true, but leave it to more class- and race-conscious folks to pick apart.

2019-10-30: Colin Walker follows up on Brent Simmons’ reaction to Molly Lambert and Charlie Warzel having declared blogging dead, but it’s important to note (as I keep doing) that they weren’t critiquing the rise of Facebook or Twitter but lamenting the fall of paid, …

2019-10-30: Dreamt the existence of a band called Bossa Nova Wild Women which were as if Concrete Blonde and Marianne Faithfull were strained through Los Fabulosos Cadillacs’ “El Matador” but this was somewhat dampened by it being an intense anxiety dream.

2019-10-29: I’d barely started reading The Friendly Orange Glow last year when I suggested it could be pitched to a television network as “a real-life Halt and Catch Fire”, about a genius bunch of semi-outsiders ahead of their time who weren’t the “winners” and so (mostly) no one …

2019-10-29: In and around my fiftieth birthday last week I put all my blog subscription and support links onto a Linktree. Today I cleaned up the clutter in the navigation bar by just linking to that from the call-to-action button.

2019-10-29: I’ll reserve judgment on John Legend and Natasha Rothwell rewriting “Baby It’s Cold Outside” (although it’s already been done by a Minneapolis duo, and maybe didn’t need rewriting after all), but the new “Alphabet Song” is a bore …

2019-10-29: Nonetheless, so the new diktat went, issued by men refusing to understand the websites they spent millions of dollars acquiring. On Tuesday, the staffers responded by only posting non-sports stories. They trafficked normally, of course, but corporate retribution followed a few …

2019-10-29: Back in the world of the mundane: one pair of sneakers to try arrives Thursday from Adidas, while two pairs to try arrive tomorrow from Prime Wardrobe, all because my adored but discontinued Champions fell apart after six months.

2019-10-29: Apropos of, oh, nothing, I’m just going to link Brad Templeton’s brief history of the internet, first written in 1989, and note that “imminent death of net predicted” appears six times, and then a seventh when it becomes a meme.

2019-10-29: There’s an argument to be made that registering your domain with Micro.blog itself is the opposite of the controlling your content credo, since if you leave Micro.blog you won’t be able to just go change your own DNS at your registrar-of-choice.

2019-10-29: Really what Molly Lambert and Charlie Warzel are complaining about today is that no one will pay them to blog. Guess what? Much of the work done to “make the internet good” and a place for “writing […] that’s joyful or an attempt to be …

2019-10-29: Aaron Freedman justly and aptly defends cancel culture as “the public and democratic engagement of ordinary people”, while David Roth (defying the injunction to “stick to sports” on Deadspin) defends the treatment of Donald Trump at the World Series.

2019-10-29: CJ Eller is wondering about solutions on the social level rather than the software level and while it reminds me of students chatting via Google Docs, it also makes me wonder about physically-built analogues to the idea. Squatting? Adaptive reuse? Pop-up public places? I’m …

2019-10-29: Dino Bansigan discovers for himself not only that “almost every post on a person’s blog […] is personal commentary” but goes on to realize only the very heart of blogging: “It might be the case that personal commentary on a subject, is what makes a …

2019-10-29: Om Malik reminds me that today is one of the many birthdays of the internet. Unlike me, in those same fifty years it has found traction, success, and shows no signs of failure. Thanks for rubbing it in, internet.

2019-10-28: When powerful white men use words like lynching and witch hunt to describe their perceived persecutions, it’s because there are no historical analogues to white male persecution. There’s no term for it because historically, there’s no such thing. From When …

2019-10-28: “Context is sometimes difficult to detect online,” writes J. E. LaCaze. “And context is an important part of determining which identity to call upon at any moment.” I’ve talked before about how on the web we build context through the use of hyperlinks, and how …

2019-10-28: This blog now also will be accessible via Tumblr mirror, if you aren’t following via RSS or email. This is contingent on my being okay with how posts are presented over there, but if I move to kill it off I’ll give advance notice.

2019-10-28: Remember me wondering how to use my remaining Amazon ebook credit? Semicolon was on sale today, so the credit went to Cities, which resulted in more credit, which covered Semicolon. Less than $50 in birthday spending has yielded over $100 in books.

2019-10-28: Straight-up, I do not understand these “designing for users on the autistic spectrum” tips by Michelle Tylicki. I can read paragraphs. I understand figures of speech. Meanwhile, the “for users with anxiety” tips really are just good design, period.

2019-10-28: You might remember TPL as the library which came under fire for allowing Neo-Nazis to rent one of their community rooms. As a result of the intense criticism they received for this, they updated their room rental policies. One would have thought that this might have included not …

2019-10-28: I feel compelled to note that this Atlantic glimpse at the dynamics and psychology of tipping (via Andrew Small) actually only looks at a study of UberX drivers, and doesn’t mention tipping’s racial history, at least in America.

2019-10-28: I’ve somewhat come to dislike discussions of autistic sensory processing, because I feel like they tend not to adequately convey to the neurotypical that at issue really is a broader, deeper, and more general idea of stimulus processing, of which sensory inputs are only a …

2019-10-28: I keep having things I want to blog about, or other people’s blogs I want to react to, but my cognitive capacity and clarity is so low in this endless skidmark of a fiftieth birthmonth that I feel like I cannot even remotely do justice to anything.

2019-10-28: If it’s not clear already, then it must be said: Facebook is a right-wing company, hostage to conservative ideas about speech and economics, its fortunes tied to its allies in Republican politics, including the president, whose campaign spends millions on Facebook ads. Offering …

2019-10-27: There’s an old notion that the best camera is the one you have with you, which if you think about too much can become frustrating, but this photo of my cats sort of exemplifies it. Had I scrambled for the DSLR, I’d have missed the moment, and the shot.

2019-10-27: Gender Reveal Explosion is my My Bloody Valentine cover band. Also, maybe just leave the gender reveal parties to the person whose gender is involved?

2019-10-27: ‪It’s true I’ve thirteen years on Lindy West but you know what I was doing when Saved by the Bell was on? Sleeping two successive weekends in Lafayette Park across from the White House to protest the first Gulf War. ‬ You know what I was doing when Clueless came out? Trying to …

2019-10-27: Meru (left) watches Willow (right) having finally figured how to reach the narrow rear window sills. Both windows now are available for use.

2019-10-27: But it’s not just his age itself. It’s his tendency to misspeak, his inartful debating style, and — most of all — his status as a creature from another time in the Democratic Party, when the politics of race and crime and gender were unrecognizably different. It’s not just that …

2019-10-27: As the shit-streak of the fiftieth birthmonth winds down, existential rejection pursues right to the end. How good is the food at John Street Cafe, two blocks from my apartment? Enough that I had to ignore my usual redline of quitting a restaurant because they forgot to serve me. …

2019-10-26: A storefront mannequin continues to watch over the slow demise of Pattie’s Home Plate Cafe in downtown St. Johns, Oregon.

2019-10-26: Willow, who recently turned a decade old, stares wistfully toward the rear window onto whose narrow sill she is not comfortable leaping.

2019-10-26: Everything you need to know about Facebook can be found in Mark Zuckerberg saying they have a black friend of a friend, and Adam Mosseri (head of Instagram) saying they’d be the real racists if they didn’t do business with a white supremacist website.

2019-10-26: Toxic masculinity, like toxic racism, also prematurely kills men of all races, whenever we think it is unmanly to seek preventative care, unmanly to eat plant-based food, unmanly to admit we are stressed, unmanly to express we are hurting, unmanly to see a doctor—manly to take …

2019-10-26: Joe Pinsker could do a real service if he would pass along to these wealthy parents (via Digg Editions) that I am more than fully willing to take on any financial inheritances beyond what they feel comfortable leaving to their own children.

2019-10-26: It’s fine to posit-by-quote that “civility is not a sign of weakness” but the problem with extolling “both sides” to “negotiate” is that currently one side (and only one side) vehemently, even violently, opposes any such notion of …

2019-10-26: Stumbling around the web today I came across this Sacha Judd piece on still believing in heroes (which, to be clear, is predominantly about online community; you should read that and then come back) which quotes an old Laurie Voss thread about whether or not “humans are …

2019-10-25: Random thoughts on once again rewatching Scott Pilgrim vs. the World, this time as a fiftieth birthday self-care, emotional-survival gambit: if we were tagging ourselves as scenes, I am Young Neil getting the lyrics to “Garbage Truck” wrong; Chris Evans and Brandon …

2019-10-25: As a builder of the web dating back to 1998 and a blogger dating back to 2002 I’m forced to conclude that as of this moment there are no viable, meaningful alternatives for the less technical, “average” users of the internet. . In recent days we’ve seen the sale of Tumblr to …

2019-10-25: A harbor seal at the Oregon Zoo does a much better job keeping its head above water than the author (not pictured) does on his fiftieth birthday.

2019-10-25: Looks like Xfinity is offering free “on-demand” HBO this weekend, which for me mostly just means I get to watch the first episode of Watchmen, and maybe the second, depending on when that goes up after it airs on Sunday.

2019-10-25: Benjamin Schneider gives me flashbacks offering a lesson in how Tax Increment Financing works. Back in my Portland Communique days, it was fairly routine to run into development opponents who either didn’t understand TIF, or willfully misrepresented it.

2019-10-25: In any sane, stable universe, today would have, should have, been cancelled. The morning’s initial indications that, after Tuesday’s debilitating gout flare nonetheless not preventing Wednesday’s usual breakfast out in the neighborhood, nor preventing …

2019-10-24: Meru takes advantage of the rare sun opportunity in the back window. She was adopted five years ago this December from the Oregon Humane Society.

2019-10-24: Freeform has cancelled Cloak & Dagger, hands down the best television show Marvel produced for any network or streaming service, and now my time watching Freeform is halved (there’s still The Bold Type). This is depressing. But.

2019-10-24: It’s a valiant try, The Saturday Evening Post’s Rich Karlgaard (via Digg Editions), but I’m no late bloomer “who fulfils their potential later than expected”, finding “their supreme destiny on their own schedule”. I’m a slacker who …

2019-10-24: Elizabeth Warren also has a long list of policy stances and proposals. The difference, though, is that she makes no claim to all of them coming exclusively out of her own head. She makes clear that she researchers and relies on experts, and that her presidency would entail …

2019-10-24: What began as a conversation about selective cross-posting on Micro.blog somewhere along the line became a conversation about community norms and an understandable nostalgia for the old Usenet-era rule of thumb that you “read the room” (or, often, the FAQ) before posting—a …

2019-10-24: Portrait of the Byways Cafe breakfast across town to which the author hobbled today after yesterday’s successful hobble within a few blocks of home.

2019-10-23: It’s almost November which means it’s almost December which means it’s almost Desk Set season but realizing this tonight led me to find that it’s fallen off Netflix and I might have to turn to Amazon this year.

2019-10-23: Today’s legal arguments before the U.S. Court of Appeals in favor of a total and blanket presidential immunity have a wider goal, or at least a potential implication which the President’s lawyers certainly must themselves see, than just protecting the President …

2019-10-23: Should I use my remaining Amazon ebook credit to pick up Cities: The First 6,000 Years by Monica L. Smith; or Semicolon: The Past, Present, and Future of a Misunderstood Mark by Cecelia Watson?

2019-10-23: In typical backwards fashion for me, while other people want ways to hide blog posts from Micro.blog’s social feed, I want things like ways to hide tagmoji from my blog posts but still have them seen for Discover.

2019-10-23: I’ll make no decisions until later, but my cancellation of all birthweek activity was based on my doctor’s visit summary which said 3-to-5 days of recovery; today’s hobble to breakfast and store was miles away from Tuesday’s debilitating pain. We’ll see?

2019-10-23: Eight months ago I quit working for a well-known nonprofit herd of goats. There were many reasons for it, but yesterday I learned the colleague whose conflict was among them is gone. (I’d reflexively started to ask why, but then realized it’s neither any of my …

2019-10-23: Juno, eldest of the Oregon Zoo’s three sea otters, often becomes very interested in and attentive to visitors during the half-hour leading up to the afternoon keeper talk.

2019-10-23: There’s some money to spend for the 50th annual Bix Day, so I need to grab some books. The Future of Another Timeline, finally, is a given from the fiction picks, but which nonfiction book should I grab from my Kindle wishlist? ETA: I opted to get Building and Dwelling: Ethics …

2019-10-23: “When the benefits of strong communities are lost,” she said, “it takes a long time to recreate a community that has the social structure to benefit the individual, and we have done these [redevelopment] projects so many times, and displaced people so many times, that they can’t …

2019-10-23: When Herzog calls Chatwin “the internet,” the explicit surface-level context is that his writing served to link certain otherwise disparate and unconnected things, that it in some sense served to unify the world. This might be true, especially given the globalist expanse of …

2019-10-23: I can hobble. As long as I don’t flex my left foot, really, I can hobble. I wouldn’t try to wear a proper shoe (so, slip-on loafer), but I can hobble enough for my usual Wednesday breakfast at John Street Cafe, just two blocks away. Even if it kills the rest of my day, and I’m …

2019-10-22: Gout. All birthweek activity is cancelled. No John Street on Wednesday, Zoo on Thursday, or Byways on Friday. Crutch exhaustion plus daily fatigue means it’s over; the month’s depression wins, without possible challenge.

2019-10-22: Recall how I postponed lymph biopsy surgery so it didn’t land during the psychic tripwire of my fiftieth birthmonth? Just days before the birthday, I’ve apparently broken my foot, and atop my fatigue issues this means the week now, irretrievably, is garbage.

2019-10-21: Either Bernadette or Eloise, the two Amur tigers who took over from the late Mikhail, relaxing at the Oregon Zoo.

2019-10-21: Multnomah County ebook readers should check into OverDrive, as there are lots of titles available to borrow right now from Portland Book Festival authors. Good opportunity to check out Shadowshaper by Daniel José Older if you haven’t yet.

2019-10-21: I’m going to rely on this subtle, screaming hunch that the Netflix “comedy” about being replaced in one’s life by a much, much better version of oneself is something that should stay far, far away from my queue.

2019-10-21: I’ve spent most of my professional life outside of the elite institutions that have shaped design culture in the United States. I grew up in a working-class home in rural Arkansas and studied landscape at the state university, before drifting into politics, joining the Obama …

2019-10-21: Oregon Zoo goat “sisters” Ruth and Sonia hold back from an impromptu petting zoo, preferring instead to yell for the attention of the keeper on duty.

2019-10-21: A long list of “Invisible Rules” for men and women on Page 13 paints a bleak portrait of contrasting communication styles. It says that women often “speak briefly” and “often ramble and miss the point” in meetings. By comparison, a man will “speak at length ― because he really …

2019-10-21: “Where in your life do you feel validated, affirmed, and recognized,” asks Jill Filipovic, obviously and understandably unaware that this might be something of a sore subject for me right now. While maybe I am “more interesting than any number of page requests …

2019-10-21: The term “Mem.” is shorthand for memorandum, a note serving as a means to prompt one’s memory. Coincidentally enough, Wikitionary quotes Dracula as the sole example of the abbreviation. No wonder that it is marked as “now rare.” But while the shorthand might have fallen out …

2019-10-20: It didn’t make sense to me, the reveal at the end of “402 Payment Required”, last week’s episode of Mr. Robot. This was fine, and surely intended, to whatever extent. This is serial storytelling, after all, which requires serial patience (or, from Whiterose’s …

2019-10-20: It turns out that The Martian, which I am implicitly compelled to watch whenever I run across it on television, has an extended edition; I rented it for mental health self-care purposes last night. (For a good time, watch me weep when Watney finds Pathfinder; it happened when I’d …

2019-10-20: Asian elephant Sung-Surin, a.k.a. “Shine”, enjoys a healthy chunk of mega-pumpkin at the Oregon Zoo’s annual “Squishing of the Squash” event.

2019-10-20: What I remember most about Market Street in San Francisco when I lived there nearly twenty-five years ago was that it was not very clean. I don’t really remember what traffic was like, although I remember how bad was the “bunching” of buses (a nightmare transit …

2019-10-20: While I’m waiting for someone to answer Martin Scorsese’s declaration that Marvel movies aren’t “cinema” by asking him if the streaming Netflix movie he was promoting when he said that is “cinema”, Francis Ford Coppola reminds me (via Dan …

2019-10-20: On the one hand, I did get at least a few decent shots when I took the D5300 out for the first time in weeks and weeks, when I hit the Oregon Zoo on Friday. On the other hand, my left shoulder (that’s my lens-support arm) would like to file a complaint.

2019-10-19: “I’m more interested in the things I can’t easily quantify,” writes Garrett Dimon about quitting analytics (via Manton Reece). “Did I write something that resonated with people enough for them to write me an email? Did somebody take the time to share it on …

2019-10-19: Pinecone, the Oregon Zoo’s rescued screech owl, takes a wide-eyed look at Buddy, the zoo’s resident “catio” housecat next door.

2019-10-19: Fog wafts through the trees to the southeast of the Oregon Zoo one early fall morning in October. Look closely for birds.

2019-10-19: I’m enjoying A Memory Called Empire by Arkady Martine enough to have gone ahead and bought the Kindle edition today, which means I then was able to get back on wifi to sync my Paperwhite, which in turn means my Kindle highlights have been updated.

2019-10-19: OverDrive shared one of Vinod Sharma’s “tricks” for reading more books: listening to audiobooks. This is fine, so far as it goes (although, personally, I can’t do it), but listening is not reading. If you’ve listened to a book, you’ve not read …

2019-10-19: Which brings me to my final point: Are the Republicans starting to see for the first time that everything Trump’s critics have been saying about him, including that he’s a puppet president in league with the enemy, is devastatingly true—that dude gonna err on Russia’s side every …

2019-10-19: The one and only good thing to come from Joker is the news that reportedly its very existence drove Jared Leto so pun-very-much-intended batty that he tried to get his agents and, apparently, his music manager to put a stop to it.

2019-10-19: Imagine you are out for your local bar breakfast, and not long after you settle in you realize that out of the nine people sitting on either side of you, six of them are watching videos on their phones, each having turned up the volume to hear over the general din of customer …

2019-10-19: I’d hoped that this USA Today piece on the expense of living in San Francisco would get better than its gag-inducing lede (“Social media influencer Sarah Tripp and her husband, Robbie Tripp, moved to San Francisco in 2016 brimming with optimism.”) but no such luck.

2019-10-18: Daisy the Polar Bear is part of the upcoming Washed Ashore project at the Oregon Zoo. She is made of plastic collected from beaches.

2019-10-18: I expected “exhausted” today. I expected “tired”. I did not expect “angry”. But the same family member who long since was told to stop deputizing themselves to stick their nose into my life, to stop speaking for me, did it again. It’s fucking infantilizing on a good day, but on …

2019-10-18: Between that New Yorker piece partially written by a machine and now this John Pavlus piece for Quanta Magazine (via David Weinberger) about the reading comprehension of machines, apparently someone really wants me to re-read Galatea 2.2, but my book queue is very long.

2019-10-18: I feel very seen by today’s Nancy by Olivia Jaimes. Is that irony? Maybe there’s something to Manton Reece’s disavowal of analytics. Is ignorance bliss? This is basically all I have; this and my cats. It’s difficult not to want to see if anyone cares.

2019-10-18: Charles Schmidt, writing for Nature (via Om Malik), reports that as “thousands of unwell people pour details of their symptoms and, perhaps unknowingly, locations into search engines and social media […] such data could be used to monitor flu outbreaks as they happen and …

2019-10-17: Matt Gemmell is wrong about permalinks. I’d never seen this post before but it came up in the Slack community for Micro.blog. Gemmell thinks that permalinks which include a blog post’s date are inelegant cruft, but they aren’t. Sure, the text of a blog post …

2019-10-17: Indeed, city critics should write about everything: their subject is a nexus of subjects. Ada Louise Huxtable concerned herself with not just her official beat of architecture at the New York Times and later the Wall Street Journal, but also development economics and the policy …

2019-10-17: I’d never really thought about it, but this look at “Walkabout” by Rafael Motamayor (via Digg Editions) makes a good argument that it was the early episode of Lost which established the framework for the entire series to come.

2019-10-17: Nick Pickles, director of Twitter’s public policy strategy, says that today’s speech by Mark Zuckerberg “will rightly be recognised as a landmark point in the debate”, which I suppose is true if we are building landmarks noting the obfuscation of that …

2019-10-17: The underlying layer consists of “open protocols,” which were “defined and maintained by academic researchers and international-standards bodies, owned by no one.” Websites and emails still operate on these protocols; they are a commons. The World Wide Web, on which you are …

2019-10-17: Discussing “getting to done”, Leah Cunningham defines outputs as “the things we build” and outcomes as “the difference that our things make” and mostly I find myself wondering how that fits into my favorite Oxford English Dictionary definition …

2019-10-17: Daniel Fienberg looks askance at all the women in refrigerators this fall television season, whether missing mom, lost Lenore, or general disposable woman: “[O]f the 15 new broadcast shows that premiered since the Emmys, five gain heat from the funeral pyre for a dead …

2019-10-17: Despite having just rolled my eyes at The Cluetrain Manifesto (which even I’d signed back when I’d been describing myself as a “guerilla techno-fetishist”), one of their 95 thesis still rings true: “Hyperlinks subvert hierarchy.” They remain …

2019-10-17: The bar I’m at for breakfast had “Sweet Jane” playing and I can’t hear it without hearing the Tom Vick Trio version about a Shaker, “Sweet Chair”, from a Sunday night Coffeehouse performance at SUNY Purchase thirty years ago. I might still own the …

2019-10-16: The Cluetrain Manifesto is two decades old and while I’m sure I drank the Kool-Aid at the time, I can’t help but notice now that while markets might still be conversations they mostly seem to be dominated by franchise brands joking around on Twitter.

2019-10-16: While I tuned into Nautilus Live too late to watch during the astonishing whalefall and had to catch up after it happened, I’ve tuned in just in time for them all to be full of chocolate cake and terrible sea exploration puns.

2019-10-16: Jill Filipovic has the best wrap-up of last night’s Democratc debate (“Tom Steyer wore a notable tie.”), and a look at, among other things, how the latest line of attack on Elizabeth Warren boils down to “she’s too competent”.

2019-10-16: I live in mortal terror of experiencing heart attack or stroke, so I almost didn’t read Jonathan M. Katz on suffering the latter, but kudos to him for writing about it while also acknowledging the privilege inherent in his access to health care.

2019-10-16: Currently reading: A Memory Called Empire by Arkady Martine; and The Human Swarm: How Our Societies Arise, Thrive, and Fall by Mark W. Moffett. Both books are borrowed from the Multnomah County Library through OverDrive. (Somehow, I’ve read 52 books so far this year.) …

2019-10-16: Online maps not only let you watch towns disappear, and perhaps are replacing our mental ones, but also, as reported by Isaac Shultz for Atlas Obscura (via Digg Editions), sometimes might create places that never existed.

2019-10-16: David Byrne (not that one) writing for Reasons to Be Cheerful explores different strategies for reducing urban car use: banning cars from city centers; partial and incremental bans; and congestion pricing. Where such things are working, says Byrne, there is “less pollution, …

2019-10-15: Perhaps my greatest failing as a mediocre white man (via Andrea González-Ramírez) is not having been born into a life “whose birthright allows [me] to fuck up and fail up at the same time”. I’ve got the “fuck up” part down cold, but as to the other …

2019-10-15: Because the truth is that phrenology has never really been discredited. Granted people don’t typically go around measuring the bumps on people’s skulls any more, although who knows how the Quillette lads are currently planning to find genetically optimal brides. But when …

2019-10-15: But the praise is not without harm. The idea that these qualities point to something deeper, something mystic, is far from new: It often takes on the form of the “disability superpower,” a classic cliché of “blind seers” and the like that goes back to Greek mythology and beyond. …

2019-10-15: Houston, I have to say, it takes some sizeable gonads to decide that the black neighborhoods you fucked over for highways are going to to get fucked over a second time (via Andrew Small) for more highways.

2019-10-15: Sometimes when I can’t find a series rewatch I want to do, I try to find an existing show I never watched to use as a sort of casual background thing. Apparently there are six seasons of The Blacklist on Netflix. Watchable, or no?

2019-10-14: For always and ever, I will agree with my bastardized Leslie Knope that “influencers is nothing” but Allegra Hobbs has an interesting meditation (via Delia Cai) on the (possibly required?) commodification of writers’ personas in the age of social media.

2019-10-14: ‘There a huge amount of whether you want to describe it as hostility, unconscious bias or racism. Not just in the countryside, but in the environmental field. There’s a very condescending and controlling attitude that this is a white space,’ says Collier. ‘They might be gracious …

2019-10-14: Zombieland: Double Tap drops this weekend, and I honestly and sincerely hope it apes the terrific original and not Amazon’s objectively terrible television pilot from six years ago. At the time, I’d described it as “akin to watching the cast of Seinfeld trying …

2019-10-14: Portrait of the author after getting his flu shot because he’s immunologically able to and understands herd immunity.

2019-10-14: While I’m somewhat loathe to do anything that will provide additional metrics proving no one really reads my blog, there’s now a full-text daily email digest for those of you not reading, say, via RSS.

2019-10-13: Om Malik wants you to know that the life of a global jetsetter actually is some sort of technology dystopia, but the thing I want to take issue with is the idea that all humans “desire to … get ahead”. I’m not sure most humans have any real conception, …

2019-10-13: I don’t know anything about Oklahoma City or its “series of limited-time, one-cent sales taxes” to fund capital projects, but Scissortail Park sure seems like one hell of an urban park.

2019-10-13: As mentioned the other day, for my fiction read I’ve started in on A Memory Called Empire by Arkady Martine. Once you get to “Thirty-Six All-Terrain Tundra Vehicle”, you probably are hooked for the duration.

2019-10-13: While I am not going to write about Joker again, since I’m still spotting people on Twitter accepting at face value Todd Phillips’ problematic premise regarding mental illness and violence, I am going to pass along this National Health Law Program piece about how …

2019-10-13: “When we think of information technology we forget about postal systems, the telegraph, the telephone, radio, and television,” writes Edgerton. “When we celebrate on-line shopping, the mail order catalogue goes missing.” To read, for instance, that the film The Net boldly …

2019-10-13: A partial sidewalk sun peeks up on the path to a Sunday brunch somewhere in downtown St. Johns, Oregon.

2019-10-12: So where does that leave us? I am struck by a comment Jon Udell once made – context is a service that we provide to others. Perhaps that is the form our libraries take on the web. Not of 10th century manuscripts but of contexts of thought. So a blog I consistently read is from an …

2019-10-12: Thanks to the folks at Unpaywall (“an open database of 24,420,070 free scholarly articles”), I’ve finally been able to read an article from the Journal of Clinical Psychology called, “The impact of accommodating client preference in psychotherapy: A …

2019-10-11: I find Mark Bessoudo’s argument that “a plant-based diet is anti-human: it is a denial of the fact that we are creatures embedded within a complex (and messy) social and environmental ecosystem” pretty weird, in that there are all sorts of ways in which humans are creatures …

2019-10-11: Neil deGrasse Tyson, known asshole and sexual abuser, apparently is conducting a redemption tour by enabling Ben Shapiro, which isn’t so much redemption as recruiting other assholes to his self-promotional cause. I hope Fox shitcans Cosmos: Possible Worlds.

2019-10-11: Currently my full rewatch of The Magicians is reminding me just how amazing is the conversation between Eliot and Margo in the season three premiere where they speak entirely in pop culture references. It’s essentially, “Darmok and Jalad at Tanagra” and it’s so glorious.

2019-10-11: Currently reading: The Ice at the End of the World: An Epic Journey into Greenland’s Buried Past and Our Perilous Future by Jon Gertner (yes, still; it’s taking me awhile); and A Memory Called Empire by Arkady Martine. Both books are borrowed from the Multnomah County …

2019-10-11: For those of you who inexplicably do not use RSS for your blog-reading, I’m in the process of setting up a daily email digest. It’s not quite ready yet, as I am still trying to decide which service I’m going to use. Mailchimp is the standard but the emails …

2019-10-11: Apparently even all those antivax sociopaths couldn’t keep the U.S. from maintaining its measles elimination status, although by this account we just barely made it. If you’re old like me, you might not have gotten the booster, so get tested.

2019-10-11: Public safety protects the public—a collectivity worth shielding. It is a shared effort that begets a shared benefit. Some technological innovations, such as automobiles with lane-departure warnings or automatic emergency braking, help owners of the equipment along with those who …

2019-10-11: Continuing the look at what online maps might be doing to our mental ones, Naomi Day writes for OneZero, “Before I started using Google Maps, I was really good at space.” Day considers the differences in hometown experiences, comparing a years-ago childhood to a more …

2019-10-10: After the piss-poor start to my World Mental Health Day, I managed to go try the new breakfast sandwich at Chop and then head out to the Oregon Zoo, where I got to spend an hour with the goats at the Family Farm (not pictured here). Recently, the Oregon Zoo put on exhibit some …

2019-10-10: Jeremy Gordon becomes just the latest critic whose list of Joker controversies—“whether the film will serve as an incel rallying cry, require in-theater security, run the table at the Oscars, set up a future confrontation with Robert Pattinson, merit justified …

2019-10-10: My tired and activity-addled brain just can’t handle longform right now, so I admit that so far I’ve only skimmed this John Seabrook piece for The New Yorker (via Mark Isero) about a machine learning to write, specifically to read the passages that said machine wrote …

2019-10-10: This creature saw me off this morning as I pushed to get myself across town to the Oregon Zoo for World Mental Health Day rather than stay in bed.

2019-10-10: Apparently it is World Mental Health Day or some such and since I’ve already been flooding the blog with posts about how my big midlife birthmonth is just going swimmingly, today decided to be a wash from the very first, as I awoke at 7:22am peeing my pants.

2019-10-09: Dave Winer once got tone-deafness in the political context completely wrong, and I thought about this today because someone at Twitter was complaining about governments in the Bay Area being unable to provide basic services, and we’ve already established that the tech …

2019-10-09: Laura Bradley, writing for Vanity Fair, essentially gets at why Ellen DeGeneres can be friends with George W. Bush despite his being, among other inhumane things, a war criminal. It’s not “kindness” despite “different beliefs”. It’s class …

2019-10-09: ‪My primary care physician replied to my having looped her in on my decision to put on indefinite hold my lymph biopsy by asking if I thought I’d be able to think of January. All I could do was explain that right now I can’t think really or plan past the next day, and attached …

2019-10-09: The other day I finally deleted my Facebook account, although of course it doesn’t actually delete for thirty days. As a precaution, I’ve also deleted cookies and passwords, but is there a way for me to block a URL in Safari outright, so I simply can’t visit Facebook at all?

2019-10-09: The event recognizes that to meet the challenges of the future (climate change, widening inequality, an atrophied public realm), architecture can no longer serve the traditional development apparatus that, in many cases, has been complicit in these fissures. In its search for a …

2019-10-09: “The crisis has raised fundamental questions about whether PG&E can deliver power safely to its customers amid a warming climate,” reports San Francisco Chronicle (via Andrew Small) as the power company cuts off 800,000 customers to prevent wildfires.

2019-10-09: Brian Merchant is all kinds of right when he calls “on background” journalism a scourge, identifying it as “a toxic arrangement” which “shields” the company or government in question from accountability. I appreciate the cited instances in which The Verge’s Nilay Pate …

2019-10-09: This is no good. I have breakfast at John Street Cafe twice a week: Sunday, when it’s busy and loud, and Wednesday, when it‘s the opposite. My regular table, my regular meal. Yet I am having a strong anxiety reaction to something, possibly just the fact of being out.

2019-10-09: So when Derek Sivers says that he will “do the domestic life for a while — with a house, car, dog, furniture, stocked kitchen, and stuff [then] give it all away”, is that artistic license or is he literally saying he treats dogs like disposable furniture?

2019-10-09: Technologists’ desire to make a parallel to evolution is flawed at its very foundation. Evolution is driven by random mutation — mistakes, not plans. (And while some inventions may indeed be the result of mishaps, the decision of a company to patent, produce, and market those …

2019-10-08: Why is Melissa Lemieux of Newsweek referring to three plaintiffs in a lawsuit against Portland as “counterfascist”, let alone as “self-described counterfascist” in the article’s meta tags? Just as a counterprotest doesn’t mean “against …

2019-10-08: There still is a part of me that believes that what Whiterose showed to Angela was proof that while their world is real to them, it’s only a fiction to us (something Elliot instinctively understands, hence us being his “friend”), and fictions can be rewritten to …

2019-10-08: Meru joins the author as the daily fatigue sets in, accompanied by the weight of a midlife birthmonth general depression.

2019-10-08: Why, Justice Gorsuch, in a textually “close” court case, is it judicial “modesty” to reward bigots who might be offended at codifying reality? That’s neither modest nor neutral, but extremist. What about the “upheaval” of sanctioning erasure?

2019-10-08: Why would anyone anticipate, covet, eat, or brag about anticipating, coveting, or eating candy corn, which is the dregs of the candy world, when the fields of the Earth contain so much delicious real corn, which is the candy of the vegetable world?

2019-10-08: How depressing is Bianca Bosker’s profile of noise (via Andrew Small)? As someone with autistic sensory sensitivities, I can’t begin to explain. “It is a violation we can’t control and to which, because of our anatomy, we cannot close ourselves off.”

2019-10-08: It was just the other day that Hanlon’s razor—“Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity.”—came up, so my brain was primed to notice (in Daniel Harvey’s must-read email on racist algorithms) a reference to Grey’s …

2019-10-08: The California Sunday Magazine has a quietly-remarkable photo essay (via Delia Cai) about how twenty different residents of São Paulo, Shanghai, and Los Angeles think about “their idea of escape”.

2019-10-08: The psychodiagnostic evaluation paperwork which three years ago established me as autistic was given to me in mid-November, but was dated just one day before my forty-seventh birthday. It’s taken me nearly three years of both acceptance and struggle to find that I am a …

2019-10-08: Of course, this strategy only really works if you can afford to pay to attend conferences all the time to begin with, let alone then afford to skip them entirely. I’m never not fascinated by successful people giving advice like it’s somehow universal.

2019-10-07: Many early social-media entrepreneurs went to college to study computer science or business, receiving a respect for free-speech principles via cultural osmosis. Others didn’t finish college at all. One of the few who has read widely in the humanities is Chris Hughes, who was …

2019-10-07: In the world according to Dershowitz, he is a victim. But how can he be a victim when he has the power and the money and the platform. Media outlets cover his every tweet. He has a book which will be out on November 19, proclaiming his innocence and blaming instead the #MeToo …

2019-10-07: ‪Look, I might not read any myself but I am all for fanfiction, except that when the President of the United States is making both foreign and domestic policy decisions entirely based upon the fanfic that’s running his brain we have a very real problem.‬

2019-10-07: An accidental photographic misfire expresses the long, unshakeable, autumnal shadow of a major midlife birthmonth.

2019-10-07: At long last, Mr. Robot has returned, but god damn it, first six minutes. This season, I’m expecting someone else to notice that we, the audience, exist. Also, I don’t know what Briarpatch is, exactly, but after last night’s ad I’m in just for the cast.

2019-10-07: Serena Chen is worried about becoming a writer in an age of content and capital that “compels people to obsess over volume and consistency and audience retention”. Kathleen Fitzpatrick, in a sense, is worried about not becoming a writer due to a “sense of …

2019-10-07: When do we browse, when we do surf, when do we curate? We will browse bookstores and libraries. We might even browse grocery stores, although typically we’ve curated at least a mental list beforehand. (Then again, we’ll do that for bookstores and libraries, too.) Do …

2019-10-06: Self-portrait of the author on a Sunday in his apartment with all the blinds drawn, not yet even one full week into his fiftieth birthday month.

2019-10-06: Writing recently in The Guardian, Ellen E Jones stated that the award-winning television series Fleabag (BBC) was ‘a work of undeniable genius. But it is for posh girls.’ The series’ creator, Phoebe Waller-Bridge, replied that ‘to criticise a story on the basis of where the …

2019-10-06: Meanwhile, I have just sent messages to both the general surgeon and my primary care physician putting my lymph biopsy surgery on indefinite hold, because two surgeries in a six-month period (my bladder surgery was in July) just isn’t an idea I can handle right now.

2019-10-06: While I recognize almost everything in this Pete Wharmby thread about late-diagnosis, masking, and identity–I’ve written, in fact, about diagnosis as retcon—it ended up being the last straw for me in terms of autism Twitter. Today I shunted my autism follows …

2019-10-06: What is the point of this, exactly (via Richard MacManus), other than to swagger about one’s parents’ author-laden dinner parties? People do still judge value even as they judge values. The latter is just far more important to fight about.

2019-10-06: “Somehow, photography makes the madness manageable.” Yeah, I’m going to go out on a limb and say that being able to hop a plane to Iceland, Svalbard, or Alaska entirely at whim also might be part of it.

2019-10-05: Sometimes I can’t brain sufficiently for any of the shows I want to watch, so I try to find something new that I don’t have to engage with too much. Tonight I tried out Another Life from Netflix, and maybe someone can let me know if it gets any less tiresome after the …

2019-10-05: Small but major moment this evening, as after Meru casually sniffed the tail of the passing Willow, Willow casually sniffed the tail of the passing Meru. I suspect the fixed meal times that came with the end of free-feeding is making Willow feel a bit more commonality?

2019-10-05: I’m guarded about Picard, but maybe they can keep the nostalgia to the premiere? I’m definitely into Discovery bringing Andromeda’s premise into Trek where it belongs. More important is the Short Treks trapping Number One and Spock in a turbo lift.

2019-10-05: I don’t think Ryan Moulton necessarily wanted the bulk of his explainer on content moderation to read like an apologia for Twitter, so I’m mostly going to skip to some stuff at the end, which addresses that part of the problem with modern, mainstream social media …

2019-10-05: On the one hand I understand this paean to nooks and crannies but the examples mostly make me feel claustrophobic and unsafe. There are things to dislike in modern architecture but is a lack of narrow alleys with no escape routes one of them?

2019-10-05: Every rare now and then I wonder what my late father would have said or thought about my autism diagnosis, which didn’t come until almost a decade after he was gone. I don’t think it would have been like the psychological pummeling I took overnight from the dream in …

2019-10-04: Colin Walker’s thoughts about identity, spurred by Bethany Gladhill’s concerns that she might be “losing all the pieces of what has made me me over the years” reminds me of thinking about derailment, curated identity, and the strangers we are in the past.

2019-10-03: “Treat other people as you would like to be treated.” The Golden Rule is a backwards way to treat other people, and it harms us. It harmed me. I don’t want another autistic child or adult to be harmed because of this ridiculous rule on how to treat others. Treat others with …

2019-10-03: Om Malik is right that photography is, or can be, an act of patience, as this ring-tailed lemur, this chimpanzee, and this red panda can attest.

2019-10-03: While we’re on the subject of public spaces (MacDouell even cited public libraries, where “you are a citizen who contributes to the animation of the space”), today I learned that the ballyhooed Hunters Point LIbrary has a serious accessibility flaw. Bachner, …

2019-10-03: There’s something weird about the idea that to “innoculate” your kids against bullying you should mildly bully them yourself first. What if your kid is autistic and this sort of do-it-yourself exposure therapy is wrong for their brains?

2019-10-03: Well, I accidentally found the review of Joker that to date has disturbed me the most, and unfortunately it’s local: Suzette Smith for Portland Mercury. I sort of wish I had been scrolling too fast through Twitter to catch it. At the risk of hyperbole, Joker might …

2019-10-03: Steve MacDouell, who I last linked regarding micro-neighborliness, today is defending public spaces. His observation that “unlike other spaces, public spaces are not partial to people with money to spend” makes me think about “pop-up public places” (what I …

2019-10-03: I don’t hate this part of the job. In fact, I like it. I ask to call up the letter writers who hate me. I think a lot about my cheery voice, “Hello, this is Lyz Lenz calling from the Gazette” and how it must feel to have the person you hate so much that you’d write a letter, a …

2019-10-02: Self-portrait of the author reflected in what in retrospect might have been some sort of scrying mirror at John Street Cafe in St. Johns, Oregon.

2019-10-02: The best part of this Amber Case piece on “design solutions to the monotony of non-places” is the observation on how different types of people suggest very different types of solutions. Groups comprised entirely of software engineers immediately come up with lots of …

2019-10-02: The removal of the bike lane seen as a real affront to the cycling community, so a group of “do it yourselfers” went out in the night to try to re-stripe the bike lane. They were apprehended by the Shomrim, the informal police force that works for the Hasidic community, who held …

2019-10-02: An entire article on the Mandela Effect yet somehow Riz Verk: doesn’t mention that in the referenced episode of The X-Files the effect included the name of the effect itself, as some characters knew it as the Mengele Effect; incompletely references the Kazaam/Shazaam issue …

2019-10-02: I’ve slightly tweaked the design of category links on blog posts, and conformed the design of the categories list on the archives page. Unfortunately, I still cannot get categories on posts to sort alphabetically because apparently Hugo won’t do that.

2019-10-02: Kona, the last of the old-guard goats at the Oregon Zoo at around a decade, was put to sleep last week due to a thymoma, the most common tumor in goats.

2019-10-02: It’s worth noting that the more the Democrats follow the path of bringing politics back to normal, the more this president and his allies follow the path of inflaming politics, which is to say the path of flat-out fascism in some cases. Some of Trump’s authoritarian followers are …

2019-10-01: Joker reviews are piling up at Rotten Tomatoes, and I’ve taken a tour of reviews from their “top critics” page. I needed to find out if the thing I feared about the eventual reviews was coming to pass. It is, and so here we go again. I want to start with Anthony …

2019-10-01: Meru and Willow, the women of the house, who at the most tolerate each other. Both were adopted from the Oregon Humane Society.

2019-10-01: By casting genuine political movements emerging from the real, lived experiences of millions of people as mere demographic difference, Brooks again obscures power relations by making both sides in struggles for social and economic justice appear parochial and cut off from what is …

2019-10-01: The vintage street clock which stands in downtown St. Johns, Oregon, recently underwent some mechanical or electric repairs so that it no longer is stuck on 11:30.

2019-10-01: I’ve already written a lot about the damned Joker movie, and how at this point is really does seem to be “about Todd Phillips himself: a sad, pathetic, mediocre white man who feels society has not given him his rightful due”. As if to remove all doubt, as if his …

2019-09-30: Dan Sinker has launched “a quick snapshot of what’s happening now in impeachment news” you can get on the web and via email, if you’ve been having trouble keeping up, or just want to avoid constantly refreshing the news and checking your social feeds.

2019-09-30: I suddenly remembered another blog I used to have: PIE SPOILERS!!! (warning: Internet Archive link that’s missing the CSS), where I only wrote about television. It was named for a WHEDONesque thread about Joss’ favorite pie.

2019-09-30: Dan Kaminsky wants you to believe that Richard Stallman merely is “weird” (read: “on the spectrum”), wondering why you won’t think of the children who fear that because Stallman is “weird” like them, theirs is destined to be a future of …

2019-09-30: If two-hundred or so people were to buy me a coffee for my 50th birthday, I could take great iPhone 11 Pro photos like the rest of you instead of fighting the single-camera XR I cant afford to upgrade because my Sprint lease has another year on it.

2019-09-30: For those of you on Mastodon, you can’t follow my blog there yet. Back when I was testing out various blogging platforms, I had an earlier domain tied to my Micro.blog account, and it still has that domain, not this one, as part of its ActivityPub username.

2019-09-30: Companies are beginning to use facial recognition technology in job interviews and for god’s sake can we stop “disrupting” things with technology that don’t need to be disrupted? As pointed out on Twitter this effectively is a new phrenology. In a world …

2019-09-30: On the matter of references, my “highlights” posts now include a “via” in the citation if I found the link in question through a third-party rather than, say, a source’s own website or newsletter or social feed; the places where I find some of these …

2019-09-30: CJ Eller poses an interesting set of questions about “notifications and whether they are needed all of the time”. To what degree should we desire that the software notify us that someone’s replied to us, or referenced something we wrote, versus to what degree …

2019-09-30: Fulton Mall’s success offers clues as to why only two dozen of 200 pedestrian malls remain from the boom a half century ago. The future of the pedestrian mall is not in trying to save downtown merchants by bringing new shoppers in, but in improving the experience for the shoppers …

2019-09-29: “People who read their books often discover they don’t like the main character, and are rarely happy with how it ends.” — The Magicians, “Homecoming”

2019-09-29: It’s very confusing that this Journal of Communication study (via Tim Chambers) on the effect of Twitter’s expansion from 140 characters to 280 claims both that the change “increased the prevalence of less uncivil, more formal and more constructive …

2019-09-29: It’s interesting that a study four years ago which found that most healthcare professionals “don’t have the training needed to care for adults with autism” was a survey of Kaiser Permanente “doctors, nurses and social workers”, given that my current …

2019-09-29: The more I think about this, the more I don’t think it’s an accident that nearly every approving response on Twitter is from another white man. Sivers’ argument, that any idea he comes across and agrees with becomes his, essentially is an appropriative one.

2019-09-29: I feel like this advice from Derek Sivers makes sense in conversation but not, say, when writing, which makes it all the weirder that he specifically cites being annoyed when books do it. We reference sources because Sivers’ suggestion that “if I hear an idea, have …

2019-09-29: It’s safe to say that Om Malik has a very different view of midlife birthdays than I do, spending them as “a day being reminded … of what you have, instead of focusing on what you don’t”. That’s probably easier with a reported net worth of $50 …

2019-09-29: Let’s stand back and look at what’s going on. The problem is the absence of an infrastructure that gives bikers, pedestrians, and even delivery trucks what they need so they don’t go to war against each other for the rat-infested crumbs of asphalt the city has them fighting over. …

2019-09-29: “When I hear that someone over the age of 80 has taken his last breath,” writes J. E. LaCaze, “I usually respond with something along the lines of, That’s a good run.” Meanwhile, when I hear that anyone of any age beyond my own has taken their last …

2019-09-28: Sometimes I accidentally stumble into topics that I don’t realize until later I’ve been revisiting over time without noticing. Today’s post about micro-neighborliness said that “just as the built physical environment can limit or inspire the ways in which …

2019-09-28: Sometimes I think about how you can customize your Buy Me a Coffee page to swap out “coffee” for something else and I wonder if I changed mine to “decent day” or “meaningful life” would it be just a bit too much like daring Rod Serling to come and get me.

2019-09-28: Having today finally caught up on all of She-Ra, it’s time to binge my way through the rest of Undone (I’m through two episodes) so that I then can start in on the latest season of Glitch. (Meanwhile, The Magicians rewatch continues.)

2019-09-28: Twitter was chattering about Kickstarter and I’d no idea why. This is why: days after its PR flack told Current Affairs they weren’t anti-union, its CEO officially declared all-out war against efforts to unionize. Sign the petition.

2019-09-28: In the about page which has followed me around from site to site over the years, I say that because I view cynicism just as a kind of frustrated optimism, I believe the small, everyday courtesies matter. Think about things like thanking a bus driver when you disembark, or holding …

2019-09-28: On the one hand, I dislike being sick (now with whatever cold bug this is) because it robs me of control, restricts my choices; this morning I had to sleep in rather than go have bar breakfast. On the other hand, there are things worse than midday coffee, oatmeal, and She-Ra.

2019-09-27: CJ Eller is committing to an experiment in using a form of “letters to the editor” as a means of response to blog posts, and a system with the “flexibility to make the conversation public or private” is something I think the indieweb should pursue.

2019-09-27: Currently reading: The Ice at the End of the World: An Epic Journey into Greenland’s Buried Past and Our Perilous Future by Jon Gertner; and Triangulum by Masande Ntshanga. As always, you can browse my highlights over on Goodreads.

2019-09-27: Thanks to Micro.blog I’ve rediscovered Matthew Bogart’s comic, Incredible Doom, which somehow I’d previously discovered and then lost track of, and so I’ve finished up reading season one. Now to read his other stuff.

2019-09-27: Jason Kottke once said (via Stefan Grund) that “looking at the site through the lens of tags, it becomes apparent that kottke.org is actually a collection of hundreds of small blogs”; thus my anticipation of being able to import mine here.

2019-09-27: Narrative medicine might be understood then, as an acknowledgment that, as with our writing projects, a doctor’s relationship with their patient should be open to rephrasing, to a changing of the basic language used in order to describe the expressed symptoms of the body, and the …

2019-09-27: Bear in mind that Trump himself linked Special Counsel Robert Mueller’s Russia probe to the “favor” Trump asked of Ukrainian President Volodymyr Zelensky (i.e., to “investigate” Joe Biden and his son). Also bear in mind that the whistleblower complaint illustrates just how far …

2019-09-27: Dave Winer has said some weird stuff but this argument that “Trump ran on a pretty far-left plan if you took his words at face value” is pretty neptunian. Trump ran as a racist, nationalist, fascist.

2019-09-26: Todd Phillips is out there blaming “the far left” and outrage culture for criticisms of Joker (and also being generally a smug, pretentious dick with statements like “look at this as a way to sneak a real movie in the studio system under the guise of a comic …

2019-09-26: Tyler Elliot Bettilyon gives a decent overview of Section 230 (it’s taken me days to find a way to read this since it’s behind the Medium paywall) but the only real recommendation for how to solve abuse on the web seems to be to ape laws in other countries requiring …

2019-09-26: As I check out the premiere of Evil, I wonder if there’s ever been a television show about demonic possession that didn’t involve the Catholic Church, especially as represented by a lead character. Shouldn’t this premise be more interesting than that by now? …

2019-09-26: Finally watched “The Selection” before watching The Good Place season premiere and there’s a pretty great joke establishing comicsgaters as Bad Place people. Shawn’s delayed reaction as he realizes what was just said is like a bonus punchline.

2019-09-26: The critics of cancel culture are plainly threatened not by a new and uniquely powerful kind of public criticism but by a new set of critics: young progressives, including many minorities and women who, largely through social media, have obtained a seat at the table where matters …

2019-09-26: I’ve used Micro.blog’s new filtering tool to get some categories restored to my imported posts. I’ll still need, eventually, a way to import all my old Write.as tags onto posts as categories here, but this will calm my nerves a little.

2019-09-26: This is as a huge victory for countless supporters across the league who risked suspensions and fines for fighting the ban. This serves as another reminder that consistent anti-fascist working-class solidarity rooted in our cultural spaces can have huge impacts. Supporters …

2019-09-26: Some people do not possess the particular skillset required to effectively conduct a live interview. It’s why, when I was writing Portland Communique, I didn’t do them. I know that I could not keep up with or keep track of all that’s required. Later, I realized …

2019-09-26: And just like that, as so many have been arguing for months, official impeachment inquiries can move the poll numbers significantly, as they did during Watergate, with two polls this week already showing movement toward impeachment support. It will be interesting to see how polls …

2019-09-26: Following up on my own thoughts about audiobooks and why I can’t “read” that way, it turns out a post by Patrick Rhone I’ve had sitting in my Safari reading list for days helps me pin down the whys and wherefores. So, in an effort to be more gentle with myself …

2019-09-26: “It is impossible that the whistle-blower is a hero and I’m not. And I will be the hero! These morons—when this is over, I will be the hero.” These, the words of Rudy Giuliani to The Atlantic staff writer Elaina Plott, might be the funniest words I’ve ever read in my entire …

2019-09-26: Most of the template customizations I’ve applied to the Marfa theme seem to be working, except that I can’t for the life of me figure out how to get the categories on each post to list alphabetically. If anyone knows the right Hugo code incantation for this, please …

2019-09-26: Richard MacManus has some thoughts on the rise of audiobooks and podcasts and I was just going to say that while he says he doesn’t think “written books will ever be replaced by audiobooks, because some types of books are clearly more suited to printed words”, …

2019-09-26: Sorry, anti-vaxxers, but there continues to be nothing in the data to suggest that the increase in the numbers of autistic people is due to anything other than more people having access to better information and/or getting more accurate diagnoses.

2019-09-25: Trump didn’t orchestrate this all on his own. All of this shit didn’t just magically happen. America was waiting to become this. The table was already set. All Trump did was give Republicans a permission slip to fully unleash their conservative id, which was always rotten in its …

2019-09-25: Portrait of the author as reflected in the black-wrapped window of the former home of St. Johns Opportunity in St. Johns, Oregon. Also frequently reflects the author’s state of body and mind.

2019-09-25: A blue-green International Harvester Travelall parked on North Lombard in St. Johns, Oregon. Travelalls were, according to Wikipedia, “manufactured … in four generations from 1953 to 1975”.

2019-09-25: While exploring the history of street trees, I came upon a law passed by the United States Congress on April 6, 1870, authorizing the city of Washington, D.C., to set aside up to 50 per- cent of the width of a street for the creation of “parks for trees and walks.” At that time, …

2019-09-25: The single worst thing about Micro.blog appears to be having to suffer through seemingly literally everyone’s new iPhone cameras while I remain tethered for more than another year to my Sprint-leased XR and its inability even to take a simple portrait photo of my cats.

2019-09-25: One of the best things Netflix has done is pickup a steady stream of international shows (sometimes leading to co-production deals), and today I am faced with whether or not to start in on the much-awaited season three of Glitch or wait until I’ve finished Undone over on …

2019-09-25: Who the hell am I, now that I am getting set up on Micro.blog and you might be wondering? I’ve got a plan, I mean a page for that, in case you haven’t visited my blog and clicked that link.

2019-09-25: You’ll want to watch the video of an octopus changing colors while dreaming (via Digg), which alerted me to the upcoming “Octopus: Making Contact” episode of Nature on PBS, which presumably is not about Old Night but definitely worth having just set my DVR to …

2019-09-25: CityLab decided they’d map the Midwest using a “simple two-question survey” that’s of course not entirely scientific but interesting nonetheless.

2019-09-25: After collaborative discussions with its fans, supporter groups, and clubs, Major League Soccer, the Independent Supporters Council, the 107 Independent Supporters Trust / Timbers Army, Emerald City Supporters, and Gorilla FC jointly announce the formation of a working group by …

2019-09-25: You might have received email from Vailey Oehlke, director of libraries for Multnomah County Library, asking you to sign a petition from #eBooksForAll, a campaign of the American Library Association, about MacMillan’s forthcoming two-month delay on releasing ebooks to …

2019-09-25: Patrick Rhone shares someone’s Tumblr thoughts on posting, politics, and disagreement, in which a reader throws up their hands because they “regret that of late you have turned a social and cultural forum into a political one”. The thing is, the blog’s …

2019-09-25: The problem (well, one of them) with days like yesterday where I was crushed under a pretty severe fatigue and depletion of physical and psychological resources is that everything is hard the day after. Even just eating breakfast without feeling winded is impossible.

2019-09-24: Frank Chimero’s observations on “small and vague positivity vs. big and specific negativity” (via Khaled Abou Alfa) are spot-on in a way I’m surprised I haven’t run into before, and in a way that makes you wish we’d been discussing things this …

2019-09-24: I’ve mentioned before that whatever new television I’m watching, I’ve always got a full series rewatch going. Next up: The Magicians (really, I started yesterday), which along with The Expanse that same year revitalized Syfy for me.

2019-09-24: Thanks to the folks at Knock Knock WHOIS There, a subsidiary of Automattic, for working around a major system migration to provide me with this “reserved” domain as part of their dotBlogger program.

2019-09-24: The problem, of course, is that mainstream social media platforms are designed precisely to create very specific externally-reinforced “habit loops”, ones that arguably come with significant drawbacks. Blogging, in my experience, comes with its own habit loops but …

2019-09-24: Trying to catch up on things I’d usually post while also dealing with fatigue and also dealing with migration-to-Micro.blog issues. Current problem: categories on posts are not displaying alphabetically, and I’ve yet to find the solution. This will be nagging my OCD …

2019-09-24: But we’re not going to be able to rethink those fundamental stories, interactions, platforms, or business models if the same people and perspectives are leading the conversation. We’re not going to solve the problems that rich white Californian tech bros have heaped on us all …

2019-09-24: The fatigue, exhaustion, and malaise tends to hit most days between three and four in the afternoon, so of course today’s office visit to have a nurse go over post-op information for the forthcoming, unscheduled lymph node biopsy was scheduled for 3:00pm. It takes me at least …

2019-09-24: Migration to Micro.blog is underway. My posts from Write.as are populating, and placeholder pages are waiting for me. Older, imported posts are uncategorized, since categories and tags aren’t yet imported, but new posts will have categories. Lots still to do, but here we go.

2019-09-23: It is within Democrats’ power to hold Trump officials in contempt and detain them as they testify before Congress until the whistleblower materials they’ve subpoenaed are delivered. They can pledge to freeze the director of national intelligence and attorney general office …

2019-09-23: Squirrels are what Keith Tarvin, a biologist at Oberlin College and Conservatory in Ohio who led the study, calls “public information exploiters,” meaning they often take cues from other prey animals nearby. They’re not the only ones that do this. Early animal behavior studies …

2019-09-22: My .blog domain should come through this week, but I’m hitting some snags on migrating from Write.as to Micro.blog in that there is no direct route to getting the former’s export file imported into the latter and all my most-recent tests have failed. It’s bad …

2019-09-22: Completely missing from this Joe Pinsker piece (via Om Malik) on what makes people into readers is the idea of letting your kid read what they want. You know how I learned to read for my own enjoyment and so learned that reading is enjoyable? Comic books. Which is not to say that …

2019-09-21: Over the course of 2015, I’d finally gotten around to watching The Legend of Korra as each book began dropping on Prime Video. By early November, I’d finished Book Three, with the fourth nowhere to be found. Within two years, the first three books were dropped from …

2019-09-20: Despite all the harm off-street parking requirements cause, they are almost an established religion in city planning. Without a theory or data to support them, planners set parking requirements for hundreds of land uses in hundreds of cities—the ten thousand commandments of …

2019-09-20: Well, now I know that your basic influencer “rented two rooms in an old house, smoked two packs a day, and wore baggy clothes… except on Instagram, where she lived in a van, cooked her own, healthy, meals, and wore the kind of clothes that left little to …

2019-09-20: Currently reading: The Ice at the End of the World: An Epic Journey into Greenland’s Buried Past and Our Perilous Future by Jon Gertner; and Zero Bomb by M.T. Hill, which I can’t even remember how I found. As always, you can browse my highlights over on Goodreads.

2019-09-20: We simply don’t know if anything qualifies anymore as a “game changer.” For crying out loud, the Russians helped Trump defeat Hillary Clinton! Robert Mueller spent two years investigating. He came up with 10 different ways Trump broke the law. Yet the Republican Party said all …

2019-09-20: In response to Tobias Van Schneider’s love letter to personal websites, in which he is right that they are the “place where we can express, on our terms, who we are and what we offer” but a bit annoying in how he focuses on how it’s about presenting your …

2019-09-20: David O’Hara’s thoughts on whether an artificial intelligence could have a mystical experience (be it real or imagined) is sort of the plot of Battlestar Galactica. The question of whether or not AI in fact could perceive something real through its consciousness that …

2019-09-20: While I don’t entirely disagree that psychotherapy could use some disruption, any such disruption should be prompted by and focused on addressing, say, that idea that methods and approaches designed for neurotypical minds aren’t necessarily apt, appropriate, or …

2019-09-20: Manton Reece is right. Matt Mullenweg wanting WordPress “to become the operating system for the open web” with “every website, whether it’s e-commerce or anything to be powered by WordPress” is basically the opposite of a web that “can go back to …

2019-09-19: Netflix’s upcoming Criminal had me with the premise that, in the words of Matt Zoller Seitz (via Dan Barrett), “the action is focused on a single floor of a police station, with the interrogation room as the focal point, creating an effect somewhat like the legendary …

2019-09-19: Of all academic disciplines, evolutionary psychology has the most to do with pussy. In the last half of the 20th century, biologists and psychologists working in the related fields of sociobiology and evolutionary psychology claimed that natural selection could explain much, …

2019-09-18: I’d already made plans to attend this Saturday’s sneak peek of the St. Johns Museum but I only just noticed thanks to St. Johns Boosters that there’s going to be a presentation by Dan Haneckow on The Great Light Way, the series of illuminated archways that once …

2019-09-18: I struggle a lot with what it means to be a part of music fandom and stan culture more broadly during this cultural moment. Celebrities are often viewed as more than just idols—they’re valorized as both representatives and defenders of marginalized identities, and pop culture is …

2019-09-17: How do we attain justice when we are deciding to throw up our hands and wait for the president to “self-impeach?” These women know that, while Pelosi’s wealth and Whiteness can act as her shield against Trump’s most egregious executive orders and policy maneuvers, they and their …

2019-09-17: Earlier this evening, David Gasca, product manager at Twitter, announced that next week is “hack week” at the company. “What would you build,” he asked, “to improve conversations on Twitter?” I’ve been following Gasca, and a number of …

2019-09-17: Richard MacManus, of ReadWriteWeb fame, has an interesting analysis of email newsletter subscribers that gets into the question of whether or not people are willing to pony up for paid subscriptions, and if so to what are those willing customers subscribing, exactly. He talks a …

2019-09-17: It feels insane to write this down, but let the record show that “pedo guy” is not a common insult used in South Africa. When you are in South Africa and you call someone a “pedo guy,” what you are doing is suggesting that they are a pedophile. From “Sorry pedo guy, you …

2019-09-17: U.S. Forest Service fire lookout Philip Connors is right that “[e]very culture should have a couple of outsiders bringing a message from outside of the dominant culture” but I’m not sure an old white guy sitting atop a tower in a forest is really outside the …

2019-09-17: Socialists of the kind Chait and Goldberg imagine existing in the Democratic Party, which is to say Stalinists or Maoists (for God’s sake!), do not believe in the democratic process. They do not respect republican principles. They do not value representative government, majority …

2019-09-17: Why am I unsurprised that Dave Winer is defending both Shane Gillis and Richard Stallman despite the former’s racist “comedy” and the latter’s Jeffrey Epstein apologia? Winer himself has this weird history where despite how much credit he’s gotten …

2019-09-16: Not for nothing, these interview tips from Katherine Breward for dealing with autistic applicants mostly also are good advice for any interaction you might have with someone you know is an actually-autistic person.

2019-09-16: Preparations are underway for my move from Write.as to Micro.blog. I’ve been going back and forth, mentally, for the entire time, and having finally gotten to tinker with customizations over there, it’s going to happen. It could still be a couple of weeks out, as …

2019-09-16: There’s so many people rethinking blogging lately, whether they’ve been doing it since the golden age, were around back then but stopped somewhere along the way since, or are relatively new to it, and almost all of them are talking about consideration and context. …

2019-09-16: “Limited urban street and sidewalk space play a role as well,” writes David Zipper of antipathy toward “e-scooters”, and setting aside opposition by car people I think this actually might be the primary motivator. City sidewalks are becoming increasingly …

2019-09-16: I won’t try to answer this in his “braintrust” thread, since I’ll respect the fact that he blocked me on Twitter, but Winer definitely should push back against a reporter rewriting his quotes. I’ve had this happen but only learned of it in the …

2019-09-15: Currently reading: A Spectral Hue by Craig Laurance Gidney; and The Ice at the End of the World: An Epic Journey into Greenland’s Buried Past and Our Perilous Future by Jon Gertner, having finished How to Be an Antiracist by Ibram X. Kendi which was more autobiographical …

2019-09-15: On September 8, 2019, Austrian’s largest public art installation to date opened to the public. Titled FOR FOREST – The Unending Attraction of Nature, the artwork transforms the Wörthersee Football Stadium in Klagenfurt into a native central European forest. Designed by Swiss …

2019-09-15: In a weird bit of coincidence, Warren Ellis republished an item in which he describes dystopia as “one of those parts of speculative fiction that function as early-warning systems for bad sociocultural weather” on the same day that Danah Boyd published her speech to …

2019-09-14: “One of the things about being an early adopter to the social web means that people noticed you, back when there were fewer people to notice,” writes Sameer Vasta. “Having a blog twenty years ago meant people read what I wrote, and wanted me to write …

2019-09-14: There are things I’ve meant to post but I’ve been lost in the wilds of Micro.blog again, and this time my various testings and tinkerings might have led to a final decision on where this blog will end up. I’ve gotten a lot figured out over there in both custom …

2019-09-13: Let’s talk about what’s going to happen in the library. Large systems with a single copy of a popular new release are going to have some explaining to do as their holds queues, which many libraries try to keep to single digits per item, stretch into years before they’re allowed …

2019-09-13: Patreon is overkill, and Cash App no longer works on the web, so now you can hit me up on Buy Me a Coffee. (I know most people use Ko-fi but I find the design on Buy Me a Coffee both simpler and more soothing.) Coffee is set at $5, with one-time and monthly options, and I pay all …

2019-09-13: So here we are… I’m receiving this award, named after Barlow less than a week after Joi resigned from an institution that nearly destroyed me after he socialized with and took money from a known pedophile. Let me be clear — this is deeply destabilizing for me. I am here today …

2019-09-12: Apparently I was wrong in predicting that in response to Andrew Yang’s announcement of his “freedom dividend” raffle gambit during tonight’s Democratic debate, Beto O’Rourke would counter by auctioning off three Jesus Christs, six Shits, two Fucks, …

2019-09-12: Reading The Outline’s profile of Lower Duck Pond, I found myself wondering how CityLab would cover this, or what would happen if The New York Times sent an economist to study its urban planning, or whether there’s any conscious sense of race within the town’s …

2019-09-12: Finally, I have remembered why the idea of blogchains sounded so familiar to me. Once upon a time in the mid-1990s, HotWired (and then Wired, I guess) had a feature called Brain Tennis, in which “[e]very two weeks we serve a controversial topic to two opposing experts and …

2019-09-12: Everyone has a bit of “Tumblr teen” in them, self-reflexively announcing their social positions as a buffer against the now-cartoonish refrain to “check your privilege.” But while plenty of white people will flag their own whiteness, eagerly so in some cases, these admissions are …

2019-09-12: For the time being, I’ve got a search solution on Glitch thanks to CJ Eller. It works sufficiently well for me to mention it, and it’s now linked on the Archives page. Eventually, once I’m moved over to my custom domain, it will be linked in the navigation bar. …

2019-09-12: But a copyright loophole means that up to 75 percent of books published between 1923 to 1964 are secretly in the public domain, meaning they are free to read and copy. The problem is determining which books these are, due to archaic copyright registration systems and convoluted …

2019-09-11: For the life of me I can’t remember where I came across it, and apparently I forgot to make a note of it, but there’s all sorts of great stuff in this epic post about the indieweb and fandom spaces. You don’t have to care about fandom, specifically, to find this …

2019-09-11: Several times a week, I find myself asking what we’re up to in “First they came…”. The most-recent population targeted had been the mentally ill, threatened with institutionalization and electronic surveillance, but now the Trump administration is …

2019-09-11: Not sure whether I saw it in the CityLab, Digg, or the Guardian’s Cityscape newsletters, but this week I learned about an eye-opening idea from a New York Times article about jaywalking and autonomous vehicles: “One solution, suggested by an automotive industry …

2019-09-11: On this day at 12:34:34 in the afternoon my blogging moved to what would come to be named for the words of 6-year-old Gabrielle Thornton, who asked her glued-to-the-television parents, “What planet is that?”. Days later, I made a terrible gallows-humor Match Game …

2019-09-11: “So, a very very small number of children lose their diagnosis and appear to function normally,” writes Sandra Jones. “But these small-scale studies don’t have the capacity to differentiate between ‘growing out of’ and ‘learning to mask’ …

2019-09-11: In school I probably resisted properly learning any formal constraints for various kinds of writing, but over the decades since I’ve more or less mastered one form: the letter to the editor. In this case The Oregonian version of what I’d posted here about the Oregon …

2019-09-11: In time, however, the site began to espouse the worst of the internet—Urban Dictionary became something much uglier than perhaps what Peckham set out to create. It transformed into a harbor for hate speech. By allowing anyone to post definitions (users can up or down vote their …

2019-09-11: Over in Micro.blog’s “discover” feed (parenthetically, I’m again wondering if I should be over there instead of here on Write.as) I found these pretty great thoughts by Ton Zijlstra on technology, scaling, and community, in which he laments technologists …

2019-09-11: Reading this CityLab interview with Aaron Greiner of CultureHouse about “physically occupying vacant storefronts and turning them into pop-up public places” with the direct assistance of property owners (or, in the words of CultureHouse itself, “facilitating the …

2019-09-10: One of the issues Brendan Schlagel is encountering in his “networked communities” blogchain with Tom Critchlow is that approaches to “positive gatekeeping” likely won’t be the same across different types of communities. The sorts of communities that …

2019-09-10: That there are critics at the Toronto International Film Festival calling Joker an “exploration” of or a “commentary” on mental illness scares the shit out of me. Let me remind you that people struggling with mental illness are far more likely to be the …

2019-09-10: Put into action, the “third culture” is a safe haven for breathless bullshit, a place where the ultra-rich might fantasize about, say, administering a eugenics scheme in New Mexico with the semen of a convicted serial sexual predator. Whether or not “third culture” progenitors …

2019-09-10: Today was my surgical consult in advance of needing to biopsy a lymph node because the CT scan earlier this year for my bladder stones and diverticulum showed enlarged lymph nodes. Mostly, either it will be lymph nodes in the vicinity of my bladder having been activated because …

2019-09-09: Safe to say that I much prefer Barcelona’s definition of a “superblock”, where you essentially curtail vehicular traffic on an existing grid of streets, to Portland’s definition, where you merely have to provide a certain amount of pedestrian access …

2019-09-09: Colin Walker has thought quite a bit more than me about being middle-aged. Mostly, I think I just feel like it means I’m already dying, and since the first half of my life amounted to nothing the second half is sure to as well, although I imagine that perspective could be …

2019-09-09: As near as I can tell, this position by Dave Winer mostly just exposes his complete lack of understanding of abuse on social media platforms. Users block other users in large part as a barrier to abuse. This is an over-simplification, but blocking abusive users, trolls, or bots …

2019-09-08: Meanwhile, here in Portland, the front office of the Portland Timbers looked at Abram Goldman-Armstrong, the antifascist owner of a local pub which was in the not-to-distant past targeted for violence by Proud Boys and their fellow fascist travelers, and decided to ban him for …

2019-09-08: Here in the U.S., we have children in concentration camps, pregnant migrants being drugged to stop their contractions and sent back, federal agencies lying to protect a president’s weather forecasts, and the military going out of its way to stay at the president’s …

2019-09-08: Paul Bausch likes Micro.blog’s “discover” feed for its lack of engagement numbers or solicitations. Possibly worth noting as well is that it’s human-curated, not algorithmic. Write.as’ public feed is neither algorithmic nor human-curated, an aspect I …

2019-09-08: Lawrence Lessig is a very good writer if we are discussing the ability to write long, discursive apologias for Joi Ito taking Jeffrey Epstein’s money, wrapped in a superficial gauze of responsibility-taking that we clearly cannot take seriously. The piece is terrible, …

2019-09-08: To Matthew Stewart, a researcher and designer at the University of Westminster, co-living led by developers cannot be a radical alternative because it lacks the social intent of collective living. He points to bolder suggestions proposed by modernists almost a century ago to …

2019-09-07: Not for nothing, but if after Joi Ito’s confession to an “error in judgment” you went ahead and signed this statement of support (for fuck’s sake, was that the Peter Gabriel?), you’ve got some questionable judgment of your own. It doesn’t …

2019-09-07: The response to the death of Alec Holowka throws this double standard into razor-sharp relief. The harassment of Quinn and others has nothing to do with concern for Holowka and his family and everything to do with making examples of women and queer people who dare to speak out. …

2019-09-07: “There must be a underlying reason,” responds Colin Walker, “why someone writes a blog rather than senselessly throwing the literary equivalent of faeces at social networks.” Length, context, and an internal compulsion that would bring more psychic …

2019-09-07: Jill Filipovic wants to talk about Marianne Williamson and, no, I hear you, I don’t want to talk about Marianne Williamson anymore, either, but she does it mostly to point out, quite correctly, that there’s not much daylight between Williamson’s …

2019-09-07: Nothing I could possibly say can condemn Joker more deeply or more cuttingly than the fact that the Venice Film Festival which awarded the film its top prize also gave its second prize to a film by child-rapist Roman Polanski.

2019-09-06: Yes, I am one of the people who have been asking about iCloud sync for NetNewsWire, and Brent Simmons’ gives some perspective on the pros and cons of where and when in the list of development priorities such a feature would make sense.

2019-09-06: Can someone please help me decode this Brad Enslen post in which he says that “Independent Web can be shortened to ‘Indie Web’ or ‘Indieweb” and says that “Indieweb is a subset of the Independent Web” and says that “Indieweb can be …

2019-09-06: The work intimacy coordinators do is complex and multifaceted. It requires a few skill sets that don’t necessarily always coincide in a single professional—including choreography, contract negotiation, and emotional intelligence. Ita O’Brien, who has worked as an actor, dancer, …

2019-09-06: Can a movie about a sad, pathetic, mediocre white man who turns to cruelty and violence because he is mentally ill really be “not political”? Finding excuses for the cruelty and violence of sad, pathetic, mediocre white men sure seems like it has political …

2019-09-06: Over the past month, when I’ve been feeling panicky and I’m able to take action before a full attack, Cleo has come to find me, wherever I am lying down, and has climbed on to my chest. There, she curls up, gets comfortable, stares directly into my face, and begins to purr, …

2019-09-06: Interestingly, given the local push to limit use of self-checkout, The New York Times’ morning briefing newsletter today brings mention of a related anniversary in the history of grocery shopping. When Piggly Wiggly opened its doors on this day in 1916, grocery shopping …

2019-09-06: I’m going to be stuck and irritated for awhile on the fact that Om Malik references Yancey Strickler’s “dark forest of the internet” theory, because as I’ve noted before Strickler himself gets the “dark forest” metaphor, drawn from the …

2019-09-06: Tim Chambers links an article by Marcus Wermuth about “active listening” and while I can’t judge the worth of the advice it’s hard for me not to note how many of the tasks required for active listening often are unsurmountable hurdles for my …

2019-09-06: Andy Sylvester, building a daily writing habit (via Colin Devroe), mentions having expressly to make blogging a priority. No issues with that here, as evidenced by my desire for Write.as to have a way for me to not send my posts to the public feed, so that I don’t feel like …

2019-09-06: Will Oremus for some reason agrees with Twitter itself that one of Twitter’s “problems” was that the chronological timeline made users not follow many people, and that following as many people as possible apparently is an important metric. It might be an …

2019-09-05: Today I blogged in truly old-school fashion: I sent The Oregonian a letter to the editor, slightly redrafted from my post about the Oregon AFL-CIO ballot push to limit use of self-checkout, which ignores the needs of people with invisible disabilities even while using the …

2019-09-05: But the issue wasn’t so much that Ngo had finally been “exposed” as a right-wing provocateur as opposed to a journalist. It was that he’d managed to successfully convince so many ostensibly reasonable people otherwise, despite significant evidence to the contrary — and, in so …

2019-09-05: “A message doesn’t have to be long but it should have meaning and be passed on with passion,” writes Colin Walker (via Manton Reece), pondering bloggers as apostles, evangelists, or missionaries. “Too many words are wasted on the internet, shared just for …

2019-09-05: There’s an interesting but small study published last month on whether or not the eating differences which often can be seen in autistic children persist into adulthood, and mostly I just wanted to comment about what in the article is offered as sort of an aside. …

2019-09-04: I’ve talked about how I just can’t worry about whether or not I am being read (not that I can do this at all perfectly or consistently), but CJ Eller makes the point that what we can worry about, and maybe what we should worry about, is whether or not, and how, we are …

2019-09-04: Why erode, undermine, and compromise the meaning, value and ideal of citizenship when it’s only going to affect a few? For that matter, why attack other normal things, like free speech and a free press? My suggestion is that we try to understand what the Republican Party has …

2019-09-04: Meanwhile the Oregon AFL-CIO is pushing a law to limit self-checkout lanes in grocery stores to two active lanes at any one time, and in part they are making an overt disability services argument. Beyond the threat self-checkout machines pose for grocery store employees, they …

2019-09-04: Literally I only use Goodreads to track what I’m reading, host my highlights, and follow authors. For reasons of cognitive overload, not site design, I stopped having a friends list there ages ago. I don’t even get recommendations from Goodreads, because it recommends …

2019-09-04: I’ve mentioned it a couple of times already but in some pretty peculiar circumstances and I wanted to return to Brendan Schlagel on “weaving a public web” for one particular part of what he says. Of course this looseness and fragmentary nature makes some things …

2019-09-04: So I made my pitch for a Joker movie that potentially would be truly daring or dangerous in a way the one that got made is just pretending to be, but get a load of how the character is offered up in the Harley Quinn: Breaking Glass graphic novel (via Claire Napier) and imagine …

2019-09-04: But the grind of non-places on the less advantaged populace is rarely improved to any great extent. For them, a whole lifetime in non-places often awaits — living within rows upon rows of low-rent, prefab, identical condos/housing projects; working in regimented spaces, waiting …

2019-09-04: Carrying a gun in public has been coded as a white privilege. Advertisers have literally used words like “restoring your manly privilege” as a way of selling assault weapons to white men. In colonial America, landowners could carry guns, and they bestowed that right on to poor …

2019-09-03: Whenever I read a researcher or academic talk about “improving attention and social communication and reducing repetitive behavior” in actually-autistic people, I take it to mean “conforming autistic behavior to neurotypical standards” and I wish that …

2019-09-03: Currently reading: How to Be an Antiracist by Ibram X. Kendi (it’s not unusual for my nonfiction reads to take me longer than my fiction reads); and A Spectral Hue by Craig Laurance Gidney, which I can’t remember how I stumbled upon. As always, you can browse my …

2019-09-03: In much the same vein as Brendan Schlagel’s three “flavors of epistemic uncertainty for the blogger” linked yesterday comes Colin Devoe’s list of six bad reasons not to blog. Someone already wrote about this. I don’t understand this as much as others. I’m not a good …

2019-09-03: Survival of the fittest, which is what social Darwinism is, is surely what motivated the administration’s recent decision to deport immigrants, some of them children, with cancer and other life-threatening diseases. (About a thousand people a year are given “deferred action” as a …

2019-09-03: It’s weird that among the various good ideas Daniel Harvey offers for combatting propaganda—among them “algorithmic literacy” and “new networks with new business models”—the idea of relying less on code and more on humans to police content …

2019-09-03: “More and more,” writes Dave Winer, “I use Twitter to write the first drafts of posts that I then write more fully here on my blog.” You’re not the only one, Dave. For me, I think it’s because when something sets me off, I tend to react to it …

2019-09-03: Lost in my ongoing crisis of existence, I didn’t notice that there are some pretty close thematic connections between yesterday’s Kathleen Fitzgerald and Brendan Schlagel links, in that Fitzpatrick is examining if even the IndieWeb is pushing to counteract “a …

2019-09-02: The project has as its working title We Have Never Been Social: Rethinking the Internet. It revisits the history of the Internet’s development and, in particular, the rise of the social media structures that have come to dominate so much of our experience of networked …

2019-09-02: If ever I worried about any of Brendan Schlagel’s three “flavors of epistemic uncertainty for the blogger” (via Tom Critchlow)—uncertainty of purpose, uncertainty of effort, and uncertainty of reception–I would never get anything posted, especially given …

2019-09-02: The new policy was announced on July 11, 2017. Called “limitation of parking spaces in the city construction code,” it reoriented the city’s previous approach by 180 degrees. Before, developers were required to include a minimum number of parking spaces in any new development, a …

2019-09-02: My disappointment in learning that Pattie’s Home Plate Cafe soon will be closing up shop for good didn’t last long, as today on a very busy Labor Day, despite my asking permission to grab a booth that hadn’t yet been cleared off from the previous customer and …

2019-09-01: Currently reading: How to Be an Antiracist by Ibram X. Kendi, author of Stamped from the Beginning: The Definitive History of Racist Ideas in America; and The Ascent to Godhood by JY Yang, book four in The Tensorate Series. As always, you can browse my highlights over on …

2019-09-01: While I get what Kathleen Fitzpatrick was going for here, mostly what I see is people discussing these shootings as white supremacist terrorism or violent white supremacy, not merely “white supremacy”. We surely can’t not call it white supremacist just because …

2019-09-01: Sorry, I’m not yet quite done with Joker. In my first post I went off a bit about the irresponsibility of making a movie which reinforces the false belief of a link between mental illness and violence, especially “[g]iven the moment we are in where the President of …

2019-09-01: So I don’t actually believe any of the woo-woo rhetoric about trying to bend reality or whatever it is the randonauts of the Fatum Project think they are doing, but on a lark and for a laugh today I messaged their Telegram bot and made my way to an attractor about a mile …

2019-09-01: On the way back from a failed Randonaut excursion a mile away, a chair from the infant section of The Black Lodge awaited on the sidewalk barely a block and a half from home.

2019-09-01: There was a truly daring Joker movie out there to make, but it’s not this. Imagine, instead, it was a story set in our world, where DC Comics exists, where Batman comics exist, where the Joker exists fictionally as a comic book character. Imagine it was the story of a sad, …

2019-09-01: Fast Company wants you to think that China’s weird and draconian social credit system is coming to the U.S. just because companies like Uber and Airbnb have ways of rating customers based upon their behavior. But being banned from Uber and Airbnb is not going to result in …

2019-08-31: Jessica Kiang reports that after the Venice screening of Joker, director Todd Phillips “asserted his belief that while movies mirror society, they do not mold it”. But since in society the mentally ill are not the cause of violence, and are in fact more likely to be …

2019-08-31: On the other hand, perhaps Atlas’ physical fade from the ledgers of cartographic relevance is fitting. Atlas has always set the precedent for navigability, as it should: one intersection, two highways, straight lines all forming a nearly perfect “X” here near the navel of the …

2019-08-31: Mark Hughes misconstrues, I think, the concerns over whether or not something about Joker is toxic. Or, at least, he doesn’t seem to recognize that there are different kinds of concerns about this, not all of them about whether the film somehow glamorizes the character. …

2019-08-31: “People from the blogging world of the 00s are now in positions of great prestige, wealth and authority,” writes Dave Winer, and then there’s those of us on SNAP and Medicaid and depleting their family’s financial resources as we painfully try to pivot …

2019-08-31: Trump is reviving an earlier, more white-supremacist era of American imperialism, one that cost countless lives, led to a horrific global conflict, and almost undid itself. He and his crew are doing that because, deep down, they are dedicated to conquest for its own sake—because …

2019-08-30: A black bear at the Oregon Zoo sleeps a sound sleep in the enclosure’s viewing window, having slept right through a recent rain shower.

2019-08-30: This is going to be sloppy but I also can tell that if I try to clean it up, I’ll never get around to it. Earlier today on Twitter, Matthew Dowd pointed out that “the goal of the press should be the truth, not balance&r