So, I made it, I think, about three months this time before a daily use of and exposure to social media built up enough in my system to generate imposter syndrome just as a human being.
It seems that I do not know how to do this and not just feel bad about myself. I am not finding connection so much as points of comparison where I fall short.
It’s important to note that this is not due to any overt interactions. There was no unwelcoming spirit. It’s just what social media, inescapably it seems, does to me. The tools don’t matter. The community or communities don’t matter. In the end it always seems to come down to the same thing. It somehow just makes me feel as if my very life and self is an unsupported use case.
If I can ever even get out of bed today, I need to start putting together a plan for withdrawing back to my homepage and my weblog, and some way to remember this repeated experience so that it sticks this time and I do not put myself though it yet again.