I realized the other day the degree to which my …

I realized the other day the degree to which my adult pre-diagnosis social interactions were occasioned by alcohol and I wonder what role alcohol plays in masking/camouflaging for an undiagnosed autistic, and for the suppression of comorbid social anxiety. I’m thinking about it again now because I am reading this paper on late-diagnosed midlife autistics and how social “interaction retained a performance quality”, and it made me wonder about how alcohol makes socially-performative circumstances quote-unquote easier. Looking at the last decade (my diagnosis wasn’t until 2016, though), there’s a fair bit of tracking between my decreasing social activity and my increasing disinterest in drinking.

Author: Bix

The unsupported use case of a mediocre, autistic midlife in St. Johns, Oregon —now with added global pandemic.